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The Whole World's On PMS
2008-04-01 12:27:00
"...when the world is grumpy and having shots of PMS, the safest place to be is your bed. stay under your covers and avoid everyone. at least you wont get screwed for and over nothing..." believe me: its the safest place to be.

Ken Lee - Can't Live
2008-04-01 12:11:00
to all my detractors who thought i could never carry a tune...at least i dont "ken lee"...thank u b azemea...the video knocked my socks off!
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Would Like To Opt For Sanity
2008-04-01 05:06:00
sometimes i dont know what is expected of me. its like i can never really make up my mind what i want to do or feel. on one hand i'm trying to move on and yet on the other hand, i miss KJA. i try to go out and meet people but somehow it all seems difficult, like something is stopping me from doing so.i just dont want to end up hurting anybody, am tired of being hurt, am tired of hurting someone. i just want to do things on my own will and at my own gesture. there's this aching feeling that i just cant seem to get rid of, and last night when i saw KJA i swear if she didnt turn and walk away, i know i would have dropped everything and asked her to stay. i know i would have lose control and asked her to rethink her choices and rethink whatever she's doing now.i didnt.i remained in my own world and make-do that everything's fine the way it is. i think its better this way, keep things to myself and never have her know anything anymore. whatever misery one is feeling its best to keep ...

Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin
2008-04-01 01:41:00
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Worth Something Not Nothing
2008-03-30 22:13:00
and for the first time i went out with hershey.funnily enough we did went out a couple of times, and then things happen and we drifted apart. she went her way and i went mine. we spoke only when we had to but nothing more, and should we bump into each other on the streets it was always hi-bye nothing more. with the recent change in events, with me and KJA's fiasco we started hanging out again.i can even hang out with LN now without people breathing heavily down my neck anymore.went out to watch a movie with hershey, i wanted to watch a horror show but the big chicken that she is, she vehemently refuse to watch anything that is scary citing that she sleeps alone. yes baby...like i sleep with my mama? anyway we watch semi-pro instead, and it was one of those crass movie that would have you laughing your guts out. i love it.and then we went to geylang to have dim sum and i literally burst my stomach. i was eating non-stop and plus the fact that she ordered non-stop. hanging out with h...
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Breaking All Rules
2008-03-30 03:40:00
i broke all rules of engagement when i fall in love with you...i lost all my common sense and navigation to reality was lost admist the mess...i know for sure i love you much more than you can ever imagine...or could ever taste...i dont know what i'm doing anymore, nor do i even have any idea where am i heading...i'm just doing things when i'm supposed to, filling in the blanks here and there...i broke all rules of engagement when i fall in love with you...
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50 Things You Should Know
2008-03-27 09:06:00
50 things to know..."I love you" immediately before, during, or following sex doesn't count. Real men drive stick shift.I will leave if you lie.You are cute in bermudasI'm convinced I'm pregnant and obsess about it for a minimum of 24 to 48 hours before my period, even when I have no rational reason to think so. I love it when you hug me from behind and whisper in my ear. "Fine" is never an appropriate response when I ask you how I look. Most of the time when I fantasize, it's about you. I'm terrified of becoming my mother, even though I admire her. I get turned on simply seeing that I have an e-mail from you. I expect you to call me. Only rock stars are allowed to wear leather pants. I'm scared of losing my independence. I'm more forgiving of you than I really should be. Oral sex is your get-out-of-the-doghouse-free card. Manolo Blahnik shoes also do the trick. You did something bad. I seem cool with it. I'm not. (See directly above.) If I'm not having sex with you, I'm.....
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Thank You...
2008-03-26 22:00:00
hmmm...its been a strange day today. a bit of ups and downs here and there...but lets open today's entry with a down shall we?so there i was closing the recep counter when KJA appears. i was sealing the cash envelope when she shouted at me to seal the envelope properly. i was lost for a moment. what the hell was she talking about? and then she grabbed the envelope and licked the sealen herself. and then asked me to tape it, according to her that was the right way to do it. yes and she must shout scream before she tells me that it was the right way to do it. i've never seen the others do it, why instil it in me? i watch and i do, cant be i start the trend when obviously i dont know how you guys set the SOP in the first place, to lick or not to lick.and the best part? i cried. not that it makes any difference, but when booboo turns to me and then says "...alah ly kalau dah barang buruk memang tak berharga..." (old stuff means nothing) i just nod quietly and shrugs, all the while the...

Happy Birthday To Me...
2008-03-26 08:27:00
i got my first birthday present from my mama! and its not money! yeay...its a guess white tote bag and she knows i love guess, and i know even more how much she hates guess. ooh...i love love love!and then LN got me the devil's chocolate cake from cedele...my favourite. the fact that she remember was super-duper touching.cicak got me a necklace and a birthday cake which was more surprising lah. i was so damn touched!presents here and there touches me to the very core...and KJA...he got me a cap. dont get me wrong, i love caps infact if you know me well enough you should know that my cap collection matches almost my shoes collection...sigh...except i was expecting something else...remember when we were at changi airport and you fall in love with the dinosaur? i said "...i promise i'll get you the dino for birthday...then u get me the bear for mine ok?.."sigh...so easily forgotten. obviously it never meant a thing and the fact that cicak says that she was the one who went out and bo...
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Somebody To Take The Chance With Me
2008-03-25 13:00:00
i want to press my palms into his body and as i lean forward, his arms would be around me, and then he tilts his head and kiss me...and i know we're the only ones in this world when i can hear and feel nothing other then the sound of his heartbeat, beating wildly against the press of my hands, and the velvelty feel of his lips against mine.and then i would kick a leg back...like all princess do when they're being kissed by their prince simply because his kisses sends shivers to my toes and the warmth of his body soothes my very soul...he would lookat me in pure adoration, and when our eyes meet nothing could tear us away from each other...or when i walk away from him, his eyes could never leave me and he would know where i am, simple gut instinct.its just a feeling...and when we walk by the seaside, with sand between our feet, i would tickle him silly and he would just lift me in his arms, threatening to throw me in the sea mockingly claiming that he would do it unless i kiss him ...
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When I Saw You
2008-03-24 22:35:00
Soft heavenly eyes gazed into meTranscending space and timeAnd I was rendered stillThere were no words for me to find at allAs I stood there beside myselfI could see you and no-one elseWhen I saw youWhen I saw youI could not breatheI fell so deepWhen I saw youWhen I saw youI'd never beI'd never be the sameOnly once in a lifetime love rushes inChanging you with the tideAnd dawn's ribbon of lightBursts through the darkWakening you insideAnd I thought it was all untrueUntil there, all at once, I knewWhen I saw youWhen I saw youI could not breatheI fell so deepWhen I saw youWhen I saw youI'd never beI'd never be the sameWith no beginningAnd without an endYou are the one for meAnd it's evidentAnd your eyes told me so yeahYour eyes let me knowWhen I saw youWhen I saw youI could not breatheI fell so deepWhen I saw youWhen I saw youI'd never beI'd never be the same

My Day & I
2008-03-24 22:05:00
here's exactly how my day went...very the drama:first thing step into ing's office. talked about sat's fiasco and how darius claimed that we 'man-handled' him and then i had to give my version of what exactly happen. yes darius, i might be medium build for a normal femme fatale but heck i doubt i could 'man-handled' you in any way. you could have just pick me up and throw me to the mercy of the crowd had i not been careful and if the securities were not there to back me up. step into my heels and skirt. i figured since it was a slow day, why not don a skirt? i became the main attraction of the day and finally i understand how ah-meng must have felt when people spent their time gawking at her. it was raining so-so-so heavily that there was pretty much little crowd inside. empty to the max - resulting in boredom central for me. heck i run here run there also no point, in a 3-inch heels i cant really run that fast nor far. kim & callie dropped by, and in order to prevent the...

How Did I Know
2008-03-23 23:57:00
and thats how i know you were seeing someone else and that you were just bidding your time to make the move to end us.me drinking wasnt the issue. it was just an excuse so that you can move on.and thats why we can never be friends. i'm not your doormat whereby you can step and spit on one day and then wipe it clean the next day.you're responsible for your actions. stop asking if we can be friends. we cant. like what you said on sat, we're colleagues. we shall be that way all the way.and you have officially ruin my birthday to the extend even if my family actually FORGETS my birthday, its no biggie anymore.wow. arent you just super proud of the fact that you've ruin my everything, right before my 27th birthday. no need presents from you, this break up present was enough, no need anymore. who knows whats next from you: a graphic explaination of how good sex was with you and your curlz?save it. and please dont ask me to "let-it-all-out" in your face. if i were to do it you cant han...

Where Do Broken Hearts Go?
2008-03-23 22:58:00
I know it's been some timeBut there's something on my mindYou see I haven't been the sameSince that cold November dayWe said wee needed spaceBut all we found was an empty placeAnd the only things I learnedIs that I need you desperatelySo here I amAnd can you please tell meWhere do broken hearts goCan they find their way homeBack to the open armsOf a love that's waiting thereAnd if somebody loves youWon't they always love youI look in your eyesAnd I know that you still care for meI've been around enough to knowThat dreams don't turn to goldAnd that there is no easy wayNo you just can't run awayAnd what we had was so much moreThan we ever had beforeAnd no matter how I tryYou're always on my mindSo here I amAnd can you please tell me (oh)Where do broken hearts goCan they find their way homeBack to the open armsOf a love that's waiting thereAnd if somebody loves youWon't they always love youI look in your eyesAnd I know that you still care for meAnd now that I am here with yo...
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Penang & Azzucar
2008-03-23 17:26:00
you know you've had it good when you're slumped on your chair like a giant snake and refuse to move even when your friends were practically a thousand steps away from you. dont get me?penang food.just writing about this alone is making my mouth watery once again. oh dear...kim thought it was a good idea to bring me to york hotel as they were having a penang buffet and i mention it once that i love penang food, and obviously since today was the last day for the penang food promo i know i have to drag my sorry-ass there even if it means that i have to wake up early on my off day.(for the uninitiated...i'm a pig. i spent my day sleeping and nothing else...)the moment i step into the cafe, the waft of laksa hits my nose. and then more unfamiliar smells starts to invade my nose and i almost went crazy. i wanted to hit almost every store they have there. but in true blue malacca blood (no connections here...) i hit the laksa stall first. the piping savoury prawn base soup was sweet and...
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Happy Birthday Furby...
2008-03-23 17:01:00
HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY FURBY!!!oh gosh...you're a year older now...hopefully a year wiser...happy birthday sweetheart...may this year bring you new joy and at at the same time plenty of inner peace. maybe you dont know what you want yet for now, but its ok. most of us dont even know what we want from life till much later. have patience and i'm sure you will go far in life. love someone as how you will love someone, dont treat people badly in life, have respect for others...remember it maybe a jungle out there but people have feelings just like you. a little manners will not cost you a thousand bucks.be true to yourself, dont let others question your intergrity. they can take many things from you, but if its there's thing they cant take: your pride, dignity, self esteem, and intergrity. if you have a stand in life, dont let someone tell you that its wrong. its your stand fight for it.and if someone loves you...play it nice...let her go gently should you think otherwise, a br...
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Its Just Plain Rude
2008-03-23 02:54:00
its rude when you call people names. it shows how you were brought up by your family, and its worse when the head of your department refuse to do anything about it.and the head who happens to be the love of my life.my server didnt know who you were, excusable...simply because he's a part-timer, he's new and i have not shown him the rest of the department heads.i'm not saying that he was right, but at least he never called anybody names.she was rude. simple as that. and the fact that you cant even be bothered to do anything.i just got nothing to say.what the hell was i expecting? that you would gallantly fuck her upside down for calling me names and stuff? ah...my imagination runs wild...
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Sorry. Goodbye. For the umpteenth time...
2008-03-22 01:07:00
"...Tonite u really showed me dat friendship is impossible between us n u meant it wid yer actions. I respect dat so we will remain collegue. Thanks for everything n i m very sorry dat i have hurt u alot. Gudbye..."how many times can you say that you're 'sorry' before my heart will actually heal? here...please let me be the one who tell it to you. uncountable number of times. how many times can you say 'goodbye' before i know that we're really over? once.no more than that. no further than that.what did you expect once we end things? that we would become the best of friends like LN and zila? or like furby and me? or like cicak and johnson?it took a while before i would even talk to furby, years before i actually have a decent converation with sporter. it took 4 years before i finally launch a 5 minutes conversation with walwelwol. 5 mins. i timed. i know.maybe you've never had your heart broken before and i doubt you could even sympathize with what i'm feeling, i doubt you wo...
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2002 Grammy - A Woman's Worth
2008-03-20 08:36:00
i love her performance at the 2002 grammy's. fantastic display of excellent showmanship!
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97.40 Worth Of Pratas
2008-03-20 08:06:00
"...wake up please..." shereen whines pitifully over the phone."...what exactly do you want? i'm sleeping lah. whats the time now?" i grumbled. i rolled over and reach for the alarm clock. "...cows...its only 9 in the morning. do you have any idea what time i sleep?""...yeah i know but i need you to fetch me. car broke down.""...get the tow guys to send you home lah!""...please? please? pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeee...?"15 mins later i was in the car driving towards jurong. if you actually drive towards jurong in the morning its like going to the market on chicken sale day. fuckin' damn packed. i was irritated. hungry. grumpy. i was almost ready to strangle shereen by the time i reach jurong. actually i was ready to knock her down, but i thought that was a very unwise decision as i need to borrow her CS disc."...what the fuck are you doing at jurong at this hour anyway?" i screeched at her the moment she entered the car."...new hottie and the sex was damn unbeli...
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The Devil In You
2008-03-19 22:23:00
i got this from crumbs's blog.how do you know is you've been inflicted by black magic?1. unable to sleep at night2. laughing out aloud for no reasons, especially whenever you're alone3. huge dislike to clean up/shower4. huge appetite (...you're eating for yourself and the devil)5. you spend H-O-U-R-S in the shower6. able to speak different languagesME1. i cant sleep at night. i can only knocked off at 6 or 7 in the morning. and if i quarrelled with KJA, i would only end up sleeping at 11 in the morning. this despite the fact that i have to wake up at 2pm to get ready for work.2. i would laugh for no reason. i would suddenly break into a smile, and at times i would even dance to the mindless tune in my head.3. if i dont have to go to work i refuse to shower. i would only shower IF i have to leave my house...if not its ok not to shower for days even.4. i'm constantly hungry. i eat almost anything and everything. i snitch food off people's plate all the time, even though my last ...
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The Little Things
2008-03-19 03:15:00
The little things, you do to me are taking me over, I wanna show ya everything inside of melike a nervous heart that, is crazy beatingmy feet are stuck here, against the pavement...I wanna break free, I wanna make itcloser to your eyes, get your attentionbefore you pass me by...So back up back up take another chanceDon't you mess up mess up I don't wanna lose youWake up wake up this aint just a thing that youGive up give up don't you say that I'd beBetter off better off, sleepin by myself and wonderin'If im better off better off, without you boy...So don't just leave me hanging on...And every time, you notice me byholdin me closely, and sayin sweet thingsI don't believe, that it could beyou speekin your mind and, sayin the real thingmy feet have broke free, and I am leavinI'm not gonna stand here, feelin lonely butI wont forget you, and I won't think thiswas just a waste of time...So back up back up take another chanceDon't you mess up mess up I don't wanna lose youWake u...
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I Just Can't
2008-03-18 23:27:00
baby...i'm sorry...i can't do it. i cant be professional and pretend that everything's ok when you're flirting blatantly with your girlfriend infront of me.sorry for being weak. i just can't do it.the problem with me...even if i have a new person in my life, i could never do what you did tonight. i just can't stoop that low...no matter how big an arsehole i know i can be...sigh...i'm trying to be happy for you.but i just can't...

Can't Stop Them, Won't Refute Them
2008-03-16 15:34:00
you may choose to believe the rumours that are going on. and it doesnt help that there are people who choose to fan it further. its worse with me refusing to refute the rumours nor defend my name.i chose not to.simply because there will always be rumours about me, things that i can never stop. should i clear one, another will begin, so i rather not say anything.if you look in my eyes, would you see what is inside and would you even care?i dont care what others have to say about me, and i dont even care what they have to think about me. i have my trusted allies at work, and these are the same people who i trust with my ups and downs of my life. as long as they know i will not do it, nor be stupid enough to begin one, i do not need to validate any rumours out there.if there is any rumours that need fanning, it would be the fact that i'm in love with you.oh but wait...thats not a rumour, thats the truth which you're fond of denying.now if that you can deny and choose not to believe.....
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The Many Ways Of Saying "I Love You"
2008-03-16 15:15:00
when i looked it up over the internet. there are so many ways to say "i love you", so many different ways of pronouncing it. so many ways of expressing it.so many ways to feel it...English - I love youAfrikaans - Ek het jou liefAlbanian - Te duaArabic - Ana behibak (to male)Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)Armenian - Yes kez sirumenBambara - M'bi feBangla - Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashiBelarusian - Ya tabe kahayuBisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimoBulgarian - Obicham teCambodian - Soro lahn nhee ahCantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney aCatalan - T'estimoCheyenne - Ne mohotatseChichewa - NdimakukondaCorsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)Creol - Mi aime jouCroatian - Volim teCzech - Miluji teDanish - Jeg Elsker DigDutch - Ik hou van jouEsperanto - Mi amas vinEstonian - Ma armastan sindEthiopian - Afgreki'Faroese - Eg elski tegFarsi - Doset daramFilipino - Mahal kitaFinnish - Mina rakastan sinuaFrench - Je t'aime, Je t'adoreFrisian - Ik hâld fan dyGaelic - Ta gra agam ortGeorgian - MikvarharGerman - Ic...
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I Won't Go Home Without You
2008-03-16 03:37:00
"its just so tiring you know. we get together. and then apart, back together, apart and then back together again. i think the whole of SJ is sicked to death of our drama. nobody gives a damn anymore whether we're off-or-on. even LN thought we quarrelled and thats it when in truth we've been over for close to a month already!" i gingerly scooped the egg yolk and slurped the mess into my mouth.old man stretched across the table and attempts to spoon ah moi's prawns, ah moi quickly smacked his hand off, "yeah but you two looked good together leh. and so loving...so en-ai and so...""...no we looked good when we dont quarrel..." i interrupt him. "when we are on war path with each other we dont look good together. and besides she has the new 'love of her life' anyway so why bother. dont push it, wont ruin it.""for the last time tell me why you guys are not together?" asked bopeng. "i mean seriously, do you even have any idea why you guys are not together?"i scooped another egg yolk i...
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Birthday Wishlist
2008-03-13 17:41:00
ok lets just cut the chase. everybody knows my birthday is due to arrive in 12 days time. and as customary to all my fellow monkeys & bloggers alike, here is my wishlist for my birthday this year.this is off course to minimize time-wasting and money-wasting (afterall i know that both are sacre) and also so that you will not get my gifts that i have no use for, or get me something that i already have...and off course to prevent recycled presents from last year's christmas exchange.please do not get me the following:i do not want stuffed toys anymore. simply because my room ran out of space, same reason for my bed. which is why i am currently sleeping on the floor. besides people would always get me the wrong ones. i do not like anything thats is scary, ugly and weird. those will definately get thrown out, or if they're lucky: recycled as 2008's christmas gifts.i'm strongly allergic to perfumes. there are only few ones that i use, and those that i use i still have them. the re...
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A Hungry Cat Is A Resourceful Cat
2008-03-13 17:37:00
and when i had my kitty-cat, putih, he behave exactly like this whenever he got locked out of the house. well...minus the gnome and pot throwing off course. i want a cat for my birthday. a real cat... *sobs*
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And I'm One Of Those Fortunate Few
2008-03-13 14:52:00
"There are those fortunate few who are born with beautiful skin and don't really need to try. The rest of us need not despair because there is an answer to every beauty dilemma out there"- Trinny Woodall & Susannah Constantine -

MSN Messenger's Allergic To KJA
2008-03-12 20:38:00
i never thought that i would actually sprout these words:but cookie i think my msn is allergic to you.its unbelievable. there i was chatting with jose. no problems. chatting with adri. no problem. but the moment KJA gives me a nudge or a message. the message would appear, "...msn is facing a problem with the following server..."shereen's at my place and we're all online, and the bugger couldn't stop laughing. infact she's still laughing her head off, apparently even the fact that my msn is allergic to KJA is world's proof that its really time to move on.okay okay. i get the hint.geez.and just to prove her point, shereen decided to message me via msn and for the next 5 minutes, even though we're only sitted like 30cm apart, we weren't speaking, and instead we were typing furiously on the messenger, and my msn shut downs not even once.and then she ask me to nudge KJA, which i did.and the bugger shuts down again.automatically.its like the thing has a mind of its own and its actu...