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after a long time
2009-04-12 20:12:00
i mean after a long time the docs have told me that what i have is not Autism  i am so happy now. but the bad thing is they still don't know what does or what id happening to my brain. it's really sad, i am really sad.
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Prescription Meds for the uninsured
2009-04-06 13:16:00
Having spent a large potion of my life uninsured,I experienced first hand the massive expense of prescription drugs.There are lots of options,with new ones developing all the time.However,not everyone knows of these options.One of my business' deals with this problem.It is a rewarding business,in that I am able to help people,locate the prescriptions they need at a fraction of the cost.
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pain
2009-03-31 16:21:00
It hurts, it rips it burns. I don't want to go on. not without happiness
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Biased Therapist
2009-03-31 12:11:00
Well, I recently saw a family therapist with my mother. It lasted for… hm, three months? Thereabouts? Whatever. The therapist had a son with Aspergers Syndrome, so I was led to believe that she'd be a nice, middle ground to go to and help my mother understand that she can't expect me to kiss ass like other people do or lie my ass off when other people would. That's not how it went. After the second session, the therapist was treating me like a child and showing me very little respect. Essentially, she said that everything I see and think is perceived wrongly. Naturally, I was angry, anyone would be. She would not process anything I said, merely nodded a little and acted shocked now and then, often over the most mundane of things. Anyway, this behavior was the beginning of a pattern. In the weeks that followed, the therapist and my mother used these weekly sessions as an excuse to sit me down and tell me all these things that are 'wrong' with me. On t...
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CCHIT Certified Electronic Medical Records
2009-03-30 13:18:00
OmniMD suite of CCHIT Certified Electronic Medical Records (EMR) and Practice Management (PMS) product and services offer unparalleled reliability, ease-of-use, efficiency, and customizability. The comprehensive feature set is customer-driven, innovative and continuously updated to keep pace with rapid changes in healthcare industry. The specialty-specific EMR covers over 30 medical specialties, and is fully customizable to suit individual needs and workflow settings. Electronic Medical Record Software OmniMD offers a full range of CCHIT Certified Electronic Medical Record Software (EMR) solutions to medical practices of all sizes and specialties. With a suite of powerful features such as patient portals, E/M level coding, lab interfaces, E-Prescribing , health maintenance reminders, document management and much more. We offer both standalone systems to integrate with your existing practice management software and integrated systems that come with practice management software. Our...

Smoking Cessation
2009-03-23 00:07:00
It's been awhile since I've been on here.  Tomorrow is the first day of my eight-week smoking cessation program.  I'm using the patches.  I'm excited, but nervous too.  This time is for real.  Knowing that is what makes me nervous.  I've smoked for so long and now I'll have to find other things to do when I would have been smoking.  I know that sounds silly, but there's a lot of time that one spends on that activity.  I'm ready, and it's time.  I've been thinking about it for awhile.  I've been wanting to for awhile.  It's taken me this long to work up the courage.  It's been a means of coping with stress.  (I should get some crossword puzzles, that's something I enjoy that will fill the time) I hope I don't gain too much weight while I'm doing this.  I've heard that happens.  I stocked up on chewing gum to keep from eating a...
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Update on last blog… along time coming
2009-03-14 00:40:00
My ex tried to kill himself & now he's in a coma. Something about electrical appliances in a bathtub, I haven't been able to see him. I don't think I'll ever know why he did it, there not expecting him to wake up. I don't know what I'll do with out him
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Multiple Sclerosis Symptoms
2009-03-13 10:21:00
Hi All, I just wanted to inform you that an author Jayce Alfredo has posted an interesting article on "Multiple Sclerosis Symptoms " at http://www.healthocrates.com For reading the article visit at http://www.healthocrates.com/Multiple-Scl erosis_Symptoms RegardsAndrew

Meperidine
2009-03-13 10:09:00
Hi All, I just wanted to inform you that an author Jayce Alfredo has posted an interesting article on "Meperidine" at http://www.healthocrates.com For reading the article visit at http://www.healthocrates.com/Meperidine RegardsAndrew

Hydroxyzine Side Effects
2009-03-13 09:41:00
Hi All, I just wanted to inform you that an author Jayce Alfredo has posted an interesting article on  "Hydroxyzine Side Effects " at http://www.healthocrates.comFor reading the article visit at http://www.healthocrates.com/Hydroxyzine_ Side-Effects RegardsAndrew
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Clindamycin
2009-03-13 09:26:00
Hi All, I just wanted to inform you that an author Jayce Alfredo has posted an interesting article on "Clindamycin" at http://www.healthocrates.com For reading the article visit at http://www.healthocrates.com/Clindamycin RegardsAndrew

Hendra Virus Disease And Nipah Virus Encephalitis
2009-03-13 08:58:00
Hi All, I just wanted to inform you that an author Jayce Alfredo has posted an interesting article on "Hendra Virus Disease And Nipah Virus Encephalitis" at http://www.healthocrates.com For reading the article visit at http://www.healthocrates.com/Hendra-Virus -Disease-and-Nipah-Virus-Encephalitis RegardsAndrew

Jump to conclusion?
2008-06-08 17:54:00
I would like to think I am on the road of recovery. I try very hard to stay positive. I don't know if it's just me or it is just how it works. I find myself go really quickly to "it's easier to just die" when the "moment" comes. I spent most of my life trying to fit the expectation. After my break down, I realized I really didn't know who I was and what I wanted. I didn't know what made me happy but I only knew what I hated. I have been trying to figure myself out. I want to be happy and enjoy my life. But the thought of "why try so hard.. just die…" has never left my head. I hate myself for thinking that way. But it feels impossible not to feel it.
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“title is required”
2008-06-06 22:02:00
why does this thing keep logging me out everyday? it's pissing me off. "remember me" means leave me logged in, dammit. 
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…
2008-06-06 21:36:00
I think about it more than I care to admit. Random things make me think about how it once felt, from the beginning to the end, and I start to remember.. I remember the cold air and wondered if it bothered you.I wished for the sun to warm you and to help you find your way home.I remember the familiar itch in my body, waking me during the night.I asked the shadows what you were doing and hoped you were safe and sound.I remember with difficulty your smile, how your presence once engulfed me.And I wish I had back that time so I could remember things once more. What once happened yesterday is now what once happened months ago, and you're dying quickly in my failing mind. So I ask for you to see me once more and say something, one more thing… but you remain hidden in the darkness as you fade gently in my memory

fight
2008-06-06 20:24:00
so my family went to a party last saturday. it was boring to me. so went home at 9:19 p.m. but my parent's did'nt get home until 1:30 a.m. when they got home my brother said they had fought. i think it's my fault that they always fight. :( 
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sleep!!
2008-06-06 20:20:00
iam trying to get some sleep ,but i can't. well last night i went to sleep at 11:55 a.m.. and tried to get some sleep but i couldn't. so i wanted to know what time it was and it said 1:30a.m. i just could'nt get to sleep.
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Running on empty
2008-06-05 21:05:00
I haven’t written for a while.. I suppose an update is much overdue. I had a early flight yesterday morning. My grandparents got some really fancy service to pick us up and drive us to the airport. The driver wanted someone with short legs to sit in the front seat, so of course e wanted me to sit there. XD After we got out, my grandmother came up to me and said, “I have shorter legs than you. He just wanted you to sit up there with him!” He thought I was going to Phoenix is begin my freshman year in college.. I just let him think that. XD We had a big storm the day before I left and lightning struck this gas/oil company thing(didn’t both to get a lot of details) and all of the smoke was just covering the city. Once we got into Kansas, it looked a little better compared to Missouri. The flight was alright- very cold on the plane though.. Very cold. My grandparents came down too- since my step mother’s college graduation is tomorrow morning. She really li...
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pills
2008-06-04 19:11:00
i am taking seroquel 25 MG tablets, an hour before i go to bed, and strattera 18mg CAP lilly 1 at breakfast and 1 at lunch time.   i know about seroquel, and how bad it is but if it helps with my sleeping then i'll take it, my dr.    said that  seroquel is for helping me sleep but i did some research and i found out that it's to help with  Bipolar Disorder so my dr lied to me, and i don't know any thing about strattera. please if u can help me out.
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Coping with death
2008-06-04 16:47:00
My grandaddy died when i was 10. I watched him die slowly. The cancer ate and ate and ate until finally it had eaten all it could. Iwatched as my aunts gave him a breathing treatment, then slowly he stopped to take the last breath. that was it…… he wasnt breathing anymore, i looked into my daddys eyes, as he was sitting in the livingroom of my great grandmothers house in the chair i seen my daddy cry for the first time. I thought this was it…… hes gone and theres nothing anyone colud do. I can still see the time on the microwave… 2:35pm… August 21,1997… That was the day i lost my best friend, the man that had raised me, the man i loved more than life itself…… I thought at 10 years old….. theres nothing to live for now… what do i do….until this day that is the way i feel…. why live?
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Drunk White Bitch
2008-06-04 16:23:00
I drink so i cant feel the pain of being wanted or being excepted by family and friends. I ma the outcast of family and friends. Being drunk makes me feel better, makes me fell wanted and takes all the pain i have ever felt my whole life AWAY. I haven't drank anything since Jun 1, 2008. I know that it hasnt been that long but ya know what its a start.
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new to this site
2008-06-03 12:26:00
Hello everyone.  I am new to this site, just signed up this morning.  I really wanted to connect to people who are having the same problems I have.  I am bipolar, was diagnosed a few years ago.  I have been going through anxiety and depression more and more lately.  I have 3 girls, and 3 grandchildren.  I also have a daughter who is Type I bipolar, and it's very hard dealing with her problems as well as mine.  I am always open to making new friends, so anyone who wants to can send me messages.  It would be great to gain some support as well as give support.  Even to just chat sometimes is very helpful.  Thank you all
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the truth
2008-06-03 11:41:00
well i know alot of you are thinking why i said all thoughs things to my mom…. well she had it coming if you guys only knew why i said thoughs things, i know shes my mom and all and you only have one mom in the world, but she dosent act like one, or treats me as a daughter either…
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New to site
2008-05-31 11:47:00
I would like to get help for my problems and my friends list is always open
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fight
2008-05-29 22:36:00
i just had a big fight with my mom, i told her i dont love her, that i dont think of her as a mother
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Hi - new on site
2008-05-29 13:39:00
I am new on this site and am hoping for some support from others with chronic pain. I have had the constant pain for 4 years now due to an injury suffered at a physical therapy session. How's that for ironic?  Anyway, I have up and down times. Times where I can bear the pain and times when I just don't see how I am going to keep going. Today is one of those days. I depend on my faith a lot as well to get me through. I am looking forward to seeing how others deal with the pain and hopefully I will be able to help others as well. Thanks for taking the time to read this.
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THE DARK WORLD
2008-05-26 00:39:00
MY LIFE IN THE DARK IS NEW TO ME. I LIVE IN A WORLD WHERE THERE IS SOUND NO LIGHT. I FEEL LIKE I'M IN THE BLACK HOLE ALL ALONE. MY HUSBAND DAVID HELPS ME AS BEST HE CAN. HE PUT BRAILLE LABELS AROUND THE HOUSE TO HELP ME FIND MY WAY AROUND.
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Blank
2008-05-23 12:36:00
Sometimes I feel like I don't even know who I am, anymore.  I'm just going through the motions of life.  I've been pursuing things that I used to think I wanted and they just don't fit anymore.  Nothing makes sense.  All I know for sure is that I want a real life that I can call my own.  Other than that, I feel lost. I don't even know what I believe anymore.  That's the hardest part to take.  I used to have a strong spiritual base.  I tried to maintain it these last few months, but even that has crumbled away slowly. I feel so….. empty….. and ….. blank.  It's like nothing is real.  There's nothing there.  It's not the same as depression, I've been there; but even that's gone.  I still have moments of joy, moments of sorrow.  I still experience the full range of emotions, but nothing holds lasting meaning for me anymore.  I don't even...
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this goes beyond depression
2008-05-22 12:43:00
last night i od'd and cut myself and i'm still cutting myself in the same place watching the blood ooze out, it's completely noticable. my dad swore at me, he was awnry and mean and it really hurt me so when i was alone, i was crying and cutting myself and od'ing and i'm still here =| i saved the knife, it has my blood on it, i use it to cut down deeper, the cut cut stings and i just sit there and don't even treat it. i'm the kind of peep that 'cannot' handle any kind of pain wut so ever, i'm too emotional. i hate peeps i can't work with them and sum1 told me that i didn't 'qualify' 4 ssdi. every minute my depression deepens and i'm still at the bottom of an xtremely deep muddy hole with a sad face, if sum1 tried to help me, i wouldn't budge, i totally lost wut held my grip on life/reality =|
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I cried last night
2008-05-19 20:35:00
… I cried so hard. 
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