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Waiting
2007-04-29 12:38:00
Waiting for the flight, everything seems to be in order, just need to do some final packing and thow away things I do not need. Think there will be a lot of stuff I don't need, also need some locks and make sure my bags are within the weight limits. Hope the weather is nice upon my arrival. And the rest will go smoothly getting a new house. Been meeting a few women before I leave, but don't think I will keep in contact with them, since I don't plan on coming back to India.
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New Records for DOW
2007-04-27 14:12:00
Thursday's DOW hit a new record of 13105.50, and analysts are expecting over 14,000 by year end. Microsoft reports after the bell and reaches a new high of over $30 a share. What a jump in the Chinese search engine Baidu.com shooting up over %25 in after market trading. It is just too hot on Wall St. at the moment. Will there be market correction? Is it the right time to sell? Some serious look at valuation must be done on my portfolio as to determine which positions will hold and which to sell. But this is all part of the financial game, I will defiantly meet with some of my institutional investor friends who play millions of dollars a day for their companies when I get into the city. All things are looking up for my return as I have now sourced out a couple of places to live in the most affluent areas of the city, at very affordable rates. So just counting the hours till I am back into Western Society and on with the rest of my life.
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Dow 13000
2007-04-26 06:55:00
Dow has hit a new record of 13,000 which is amazing considering the dollar valuation of the USD. This is a great time to be in the game in the US, will have to see how long this rally will hold up, as the Dow has been positive 16 out of 19 days. All seems positive for the US markets as most companies are reporting excellent earnings on their European and Asian divisions of operations, since they are growing in market share at extraordinary rate in those markets. Many of the analysts are not comfortable with the volatility of the emerging markets, since there is no proper valuation of the stock prices on those booming companies there.I will have to do some serious research upon my arrival at home as to where my money should be invested since the recent rally of the markets.

Final Days
2007-04-25 08:34:00
Final days have arrived and will be leaving India for good, and do not wish to return for any reason. Will be meeting my sponsor and real estate agent at the air port, then to be followed by final formalities of deposit for a new condo downtown. This place is in an awesome location right off Bay St, in the heart of the financial district next to all the major bank towers. Also I will be right in front of City Hall where all the politicians gather. Will be next to all the NA/AA meetings in the heart of the city which is nice, hope to make some good friendships in the fellowships. Also am looking at landing a part time job in City Hall or some 5 star hotel. Also have looked at various internet providers and have decided on getting the new DRY DSL services that have been recently introduced into the Canadian markets. Will go pure VOIP as my current VOIP provider must have not received payment for over 6 months and i'm sure service to my US number has been canceled. So will be a big st...
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Business
2007-04-19 13:29:00
Well just wrapping up few contacts I have made here in India, and will keep in touch with them in the future, who knows where business will lead me. I am very keen on checking out the India Franchise show at the Grand Ashok Hotel in Bangalore this weekend the 21st and 22nd, it's all free. And I would definitely like to see what franchise opportunities are available to Indians. Also would like to see which US/UK franchisers are offering their business's to Indian's. So hopefully I will get a chance to check it out. All in all have been making headway finding a place to live upon arrival, and the few people I still do know are being helpful. So just can't wait for D Day, am getting very excited. Hope mum has a safe flight home. God bless.
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Visits from Mum
2007-04-14 16:49:00
Been spending time with Mum over the past week, we have been getting alot of things sorted out with my passport and departure ticket. Seems like everything is in order except for all the stolen missing items from my residence which I had been living @. But I know these lazy bastard cops here will never find my property or investigate the individuals who lived in the house with me which is sad. Finally I will be back in western society where in crazy things like this will never happen to me. Very glad that my mum has sorted out all the mess up and my life will now move on after almost 4 years of hell. Keeping hope in my higher power to help me achieve success in my life.
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Anxiously Waiting
2007-04-10 07:43:00
Today mum will come visit me, as she had called yesterday and said she was in town. So I am hoping things go well and we can finally come to some sort of understanding after many years of mess up. She is currently at Vijay's house which i found odd, since they have never met. But I will be glad to also see Vijay if he choses to come, which I am pretty sure he will. I would most definitely like to get on with my life and try to fulfill many of the goals I had set in place while in Goa going over my goal planning with our UK counselor. I will have to strategically plan the steps I will need to take to foresee my goals complete. I will use the help of my higher power to assist me day to day in conceiving my future.
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Good News
2007-04-07 06:56:00
Yesterday got a surprising call from my Mum in Canada who said she was on the next flight out tomorrow to come to India. It came to me as a big surprise since I had not been expecting it. So I am keeping positive that I will be heading home with her also or least to get my belongings to relocate myself and establish my life. So the arrival date will be sometime on the 9th, hope she has a safe flight and we have a joyous meeting. Last night was quite disturbed as I couldn't get proper sleep being eaten alive by millions of mosquitoes since we didn't get any mosquito coil. So i think all of us have been affected last night whoever was in the room, we all look groggy today.
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Neil's Scary Experience
2007-04-06 06:38:00
yesterday was a really scary experience for me as i had got a panic attack. it was the first time it happened to me so i was very scared in the rehab. the people here immediately rushed me to the hospital and the doctors put me on drips. i was discharged after some time and came back to the rehab centre. i got really scared and thought that i was going to pop it,die.i am happy to be back .
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Back from Chennai
2007-04-05 13:55:00
Yesterday we left early in the morning to pick up someone from Chen nai . Some real mad protesters along the way as trucks blocked up the road we were taking to prove some kind of point supporting their communist party regime. Finally arrived into town and had a hard time meeting up with the family as we did not know directions in the new city. But finally we managed to get ourselves organized and surprise the patient by just coming in the house and dragging him out. Funny as the guy said he is relieved that he is coming in for treatment as he did not know how to stop his drinking. Had a good chat with the chap on the way back to Bangalore and found out he is a software engineer who had worked in Sana Clara, California. So we had plenty to talk about on the way back. We took a new route back to avoid the striking truck drivers, and got back in record time. Over all was a good day and quite nice seeing the scenic country side. Also great seeing the SEZ zones set up for industries where...
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Cooking
2007-04-03 05:45:00
So we have been cooking breakfast today and made nice porridge which was thick and sweet. Hope everyone likes it! We are planning to make a nice Dal for lunch with beetroot sabji and rice. So for the next few days all the meals will be cooked by us new amateurs as we shall be experimenting in the kitchen. We are all learning a lot about different spices and preparation techniques. So over all we are enjoying spending time at the back and in the office as well.
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Cooking
2007-04-02 08:20:00
Today I cooked Lemon Rice for everyone this morning, and it turned out great. I have been spending a lot of time in the kitchen learning to cook and prepare items. I would like to learn how to make roti's which i hope to learn soon. Ultimately I would like to learn Punjabi cooking which I hope to do so soon if I have the proper ingredients. Things have been really positive and I have been helping others post their comments online.
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Neil's Art
2007-04-02 07:59:00
Well i'm back in Bangalore at CAIM doing my recovery, and trying to implement the program to the best of my ability. This is my second treatment and this time i think i have acquired a spiritual awakening. I feel quite different now since i have come here if i may add. This place has taught me a lot of things,i know where i stand today and have also accepted myself as an addict and have accepted powerlessness. Day by day i have been feeling more motivated to know more about the program and i am receiving help from a lot of people who are older than me and also from the people who are my age. Everybody is very helpful , friendly and cooperative here.The picture which you can see has been drawn by me. Well for the first time i have drawn on the computer. Not so good i know but i tried. I am basically a fine art student and i like to sing and rap and i also play the guitar and like to act and socialize with people. I love listening to music.

Recovery Hope
2007-04-01 06:46:00
We have been giving hope to people here in Bangalore, that AA/NA meetings are great on the outside and you meet awesome people. We are also encouraging people to be positive that they will also get a chance to stay in Goa. It is disturbing to see people in such depression of being locked up for such a long time and not seeing the outside world. But I am confident that I can give them positivity and hope about their future if they choose to stay clean on the outside. Have been learning alot about spices and cooking techniques for Indian cooking which will help me in the future. I have been reading alot and keeping my mind active and positive.
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Shetty's Goa Experience
2007-03-31 09:53:00
Out in Goa! "THE" place for drugs and alcohol during my addiction... But I am having great fun, having a blast and man I am clean. It's unbelievable watching the sunset, doing yoga & meeting new friends. Been to AA and NA meetings sharing my experience... listening to their experience. New experiences & different ways of being harassed and affected by drugs & alcohol like i had been. Eating Goan food & other styles, but today savor it for what it only is & not for what it feels like with my substance. I went shopping with a lot of money near & around the place for grocery items and cleaning items. I was close to bars & drug pushers, but i don't need to goto them. I am having great fun anyways without it. Thats only pleasure for sometime & then a completely messed up head & guaranteed misery all over again & I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.
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Elrich's Goa Experience
2007-03-31 09:44:00
So from CAIM in Bangalore I had a visit to my home house. I stayed there for 15 days with my pals Ami and Vikhram Shetty. The weather was good, much more easier to handle life and sobriety. We all went to NA/AA meetings and shared all our secrets and emotions. It was pleasant, it was peaceful, because in the meetings everyone is so kind everyone feels free to talk for a long time so its nice to hear them speak. Jai also shares a lot, he is 25 years sober. Then at home we cook our own food like omelet and pulao or fish, curry rice. We make our own tea. This is secondary treatment given to us, for those who are very much improving and firm with their sobriety. Also we get counseling from counselors from the UK, who take a one hour class and then also a one to one counseling for those who need it. After that we go roaming with Jai in his car around Goa and return back home and clean up the house and wash clothes. Theres a lot of freedom in secondary treatment as well as love, together...
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Back in Bangalore
2007-03-29 05:44:00
We are back to Bang alore , and I am discussing my life with my family. Looks like the next step for me is a half-way h0use. Hope all that was discussed with Carol and Tom will reflect on a positive outcome. I am trying to be positive about my life and be headed in line with my goals and dreams of life. Vikhram and Elrich are also back and are learning new skills, along with myself I am learning cooking. Hope to see things bright with Vijay and my father.
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Goa Recovery
2007-03-22 11:51:00
We have been having good sessions here in recovery in Goa. We have had some counselling from UK based counsellors which has been great. I have been able to express my feelings honestly with someone who is impartial of the treatment centre which has been a great relief. Also my counsellor feels I am ready to start intergrating into society which is a great relief. Since I would not like to be in primary rehab for such a long time as I have been in the past. I would like to see myself working and coming back to the treatment centre in the nights, which i hope will happen soon. All in all it has been great inteacting with people who have a different perspective of NA/AA fellowship from the UK.
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GOD
2007-03-14 06:37:00
God to me means Good Orderly Direction, Group of Drunks, Group of Disfunctionals, basically my understanding of GOD is doing the Good things in life, and a higher power will protect you and look over you guiding you in the proper direction. I know once I started acting positive, positive people came into my life.

Goa Monday
2007-03-12 14:07:00
Had a good day today, met someone new from Denmark yesterday, we met her early this morning and she came over to the house and taught us Yoga. We also picked up a patient from Bangalore who had escaped the other day and was just arriving in Goa. All in all was a good day relaxed and cooked some food for everyone. Went for a swim and looking forward to a nice dinner this evening. My emotions were very much under control and was in the postive for the day.
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Goa Saturday
2007-03-10 15:25:00
Today was great, started the day going to the market in Margoa to hire some labours to do some garden and house cleaning, think we found some good workers. Spent lunch with a local goan who was also new to the fellowship and is 1month clean, he showed us around town and showed us all these great land properties ready for development for 5star resorts. Also went back to his family's hotel which they own showed us the night club he had there which is closed now, and this evening we are spending back on the beach and just relaxing. All in all its been great and I thank god and my higher power for this opourtunity.
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Goa Friday's
2007-03-09 15:15:00
Today was a great day, started off by perparing breakfast for everyone in the house, then ran out to town to get some supplys for the labourers. Got back to the house and finished of breakfast, hope everyone enjoyed it. Then started off cleaning the floors and the bathroom, I had worked may jobs in my life, but had never put my heart into work. Today cleaning the floors I could see my heart was in it, sweating and labouring in the heat of Goa. Left the house after taking a bath by noon or so and headed to a town called Mapusa, were we had a great lunch in a funny place called Stomach! I was really ammused at the name of the restaurant, quite to the point! Afterwards we went to the Frida y market in Mapusa which was awesome, we got deals lik you wouldn't believe! Outfits for like 100RS. Afterwards went to a small beach called Ashwin I believe which is filled with Russians. Then rushed back to Calungute to make an NA meeting, were we all had awesome sharings and spent time at the Coff...

Benaulim Beach
2007-03-08 07:43:00
Beautiful Benaulim Beach is where we are spending time now, it is in south Goa, where there is not as much crowd. It has been relaxing and now we are constantly busy with the new house that was aqquired. We are getting the place ready as it has been years since someone has lived in it. Cleaning, and swabbing and removing years of spider webs has been a real task in the heat of Goa. Slowly but surely the work is getting done. Have met some great people from UK at the AA meetings and everyday am trying to meet somebody new. I tried my had at cooking this morning making breakfast for everybody in the house. I hope they enjoyed it. This is like an experience of getting my own place and getting it ready to live in. I am greatful to my higher power for giving me this opourtunity.

Beach Hut
2007-03-05 10:36:00
Life in the beach hut is nice, very realxing and peaceful. But one thing I know now is I cannot live with children! I have no tolleance for kids who thow sand at you and get on your nerves. I have spent time realxing and getting a tan in the sun. When swimming in the ocean for the first time in my life, but don't really like salt water (yuck). Been meeting people from all over europe and managed to meet a guy who is staying in the same hut area who is from Montreal which is really cool. Nice being away from substance and still able to enjoy life and meet new people. Wishing everyone in the world a happy holi and may god be with you.
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SPIRITUAL ENLIGHTNMENT
2007-03-05 05:02:00
When we come to the program we are like birds without wings. We loose all our sense of sanity. We are completely void of a spiritual life. It is something we cannot figure out , but there is a solution . When we come into treatment we first recover physically and then we start to gain some amount of Spirit ual confidence, but gradually.May be it is inevitable that we cannot change our mental state of mind, but we can change our self into good living by following the path of 'Spirituality' .Recovery opens new windows into a life more than getting high or drunk. We begin to enjoy small things, which previously did not even give value to. Spirituality is the way out and the only way, if we take it seriously we can achieve 'Spiritual Enlightenment' .
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Positive Energy
2007-03-03 16:36:00
What an awesome day today, started off early with a Yoga class for beginners, which was amazing, got very relaxed and got in touch with my inner being and left the class with great positive energy! We then spent the day on the beach had nice lunch and tanned in the beautiful sun here in Goa. Just got in touch with nature and myself reading a book and relaxing. Got to a meeting for 6pm which was in a small town where there arent any active members attending. Got to share with the few people in the room which felt good. Ending up the evening at Cafe Coffee Day just chatting with other members and looking forward to a new day tomorrow.
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Yoga
2007-03-02 10:17:00
Today we had a great beginner yoga class here in GOA. It was so relaxing and quite a workout sweating doing stretches and breathing teqniques on the mat. We left the session feeling calm and energized with positive vibes. This is our first go at Yoga and we plan on taking more classes in the following week. For all those who have not tried Yoga yet I would highly recommend it! We now are practicing the good things in life vs our old mentality of negative. This has been a great experience for me and my friend meeting lots of forigners from all over Europe and UK here in India. Many people have bought houses here and settle here for 6months out of the year. And now I can see why they do! Its been awesome and hope my higher power keeps this positivity alive in me.

Three Dimensonal Aspect of Our Disease
2007-03-01 05:23:00
We have a very complicated disease which consist of three aspects :-MENTALPHYSICALSPIRITUALWhy do we say so ?Mentally we loose our sanity and our thinking completely goes haywire.We cannot balance our thoughts,feelings and emotions.We develop a great mental obsession with alcohol and our substance of choice , our head can think of nothing else but our choice of addiction . We spend vast amounts of time on this great obsession through which we loose everything and gain nothing.So at the end of it all we become "INSANE".This is something that has been a great problem to us addicts ,we do not have good thinking.Physically we deteriorate completely . We become weak , our body looses it's capacity to withstand the amount of alcohol or drug's we consume and our body comes to a complete standstill and we have a complete break down . It affects our Central Nervous System(CNS).We loose weight , Start to develop tremors , Develop immense body pain , Withdrawal symptoms without getting high ...
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