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Earthquake
2006-10-01 18:29:00
Friday morning was insane. That quake (5.8 on the Richter) left me shaken, not stirred. The damned thing woke me up. When I felt my bed rocking (not the first time my bed was rocked moving like that) the first thing I did make sure I was alone in it (no, there was no one else). I ran outside, barely dressed, my hair all over the place, my teeth unbrushed?then I saw some of my neighbours outside, also in similar states. And I ran back inside. They scared me more than the quake. I?d rather take my chances with falling concrete than see that again. The best decision I made than morning was to go back to sleep after my alarm rung at nine. That in itself was no small feat considering that Numb/Encore is my alarm tone. You trying going to sleep with jigga shouting at you. The quake happened at nine o eight, so had I gotten up at nine, I would have been in the shower or on the john?and that wouldn?t have been pretty, albeit being on the john wouldn?t have been too bad since I almost s...
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For G
2006-08-27 18:55:00
I?ll explain the title. A week ago a friend of mine told me that there?d never be a book that bears her name, as there is one that bears mine ? ?Shane?. So being the good person that I am, I promised to name my first book after her. Now, it?s highly unlikely that I?ll ever write a book?and if I do there?s a good chance that it?ll be an erotic thriller (and I don?t think she?ll appreciate that), I?ll name this post after her. I don?t think she has ever read my blog, so she doesn?t realize the arbitrary bullshit that I write. If only she knew what her name was being attached to? A year ago I wrote that the Prime Minister of our country suggested television as a form of birth control. He said that instead of having sex, people should look at television until they fall asleep. I?ll give you a moment for that to sink in?Has the true stupidity of that statement hit you yet? Well the genius said it again. Foreign readers ? I do not live in a land of idiots. There a just a few idiots. W...

Zizou!
2006-07-10 02:34:00
Had it been a ball, it would have scorched a hole through the back of the net...such was the ferocity of the strike. Instead, it was an Italian's chest that Zidane chose to head.In a match that I didn't want to see because i didn't like either team, Zidane provided the moment of excitement that will live on in my memory for years to come. It was amazing. The drop of the head, the charge, the perfect contact of the crown of the head with the sternum. Pay attention kids, if you are going to butt a man in the chest, that's how you do it. His form was flawless. He totally outclassed the headbutt of Figo. He showed his former team-mate how it's done.Regardless of what provoked the attack, I must admit he was wrong to retaliate in that way, but I found it funny as hell. I couldn't stop laughing when I saw it. Zidane is a legend of the game, and that moment will live on forever as the only blemish on his career. Eight years ago, he headed in two goals against Brazil. In 2006 he heade...

Fear the Beard
2006-07-08 04:22:00
In the same vein as a playoff beard (a beard grown by athletes during knockout rounds of competition), I grow an exam beard. And it works. So what if it's unattractive, so what if it makes my face itch, so what if I look like a terrorist...the exam beard has a proven track record.Here are the facts - With an exam beard I've written, CXC, the SATs, GCSE A levels(November), GCSE A Levels (Summer) and University exams. And the results - 9 ones, 1450, a National Scholarship and A's and B's at University exams. I've written 3 exams when I'm cleanly shaven- a C and 2 F's. The conclusion...I'm never writing another exam without the beard. It has a life of its own. It transcends all notions of logic and common sense that facial hair affects intelligence, but the results (like my hips) don't lie.My younger brother tried to grow an exam beard, but because his facial hair doesn't extend much lower that his sideburns, he grew something resembling exam muttonchops. Now this variation ...
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Brokeback
2006-06-14 04:15:00
BrokebackNo no...not the verile cowboy, "I wish I could quit you" type, so don't break out the K-Y just yet (and whose cruel idea it was to name a gay cowboy Ennis...it sounds too much like anus). The brokeback I'm referring to is my own back. I have bad back pain, and quite frankly the back pain is a pain in the ass. How did I hurt my back? I got back spasms from bending over to pick up a pair of shoes. I lug around barbells that are heavier than I am, and I was KO'ed by a pair of nikes...the irony.For some reason women are finding my pain funny, telling me that I don't know what real pain is - that the pain of childbirth is too much for a man to bear. Women, if you think passing a child hurts, try getting yourself caught in a zipper. But seriously, this back pain is a killer. I can't bend at the waist. I feel helpless...like Christopher Reeves in an ass kicking contest (just kidding. R.I.P. Superman).I love to exercise so you would think my philosophy is no pain, no gain, ri...
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Football Fever
2006-06-08 05:32:00
Until I start my sportsblog (I'm looking at an August date), this blog will have to fill in. I know it's against the theme of the blog, but sports are such a big part of my life that I am strongly compelled to write about it.World Cup 2006 will begin in a few hours. It's the biggest sporting spectacle in the World, and I am particularly interested in this one for two reasons:1. My country Trinidad and Tobago will make its debut on the World Cup stage2. For the first time, I joined a fantasy sports competitionThe Soca Warriors, I am saddened to say, face a very tough task in Group B, and there is a strong possibility of three straight defeats. It hurts me deeply to say that. I always fly my country's flag high. However, a good show of their "never say die" spirit will be enough to keep the country proud. Should they pick up a draw or a victory, there will be pandemonium in the streets of the country, and your's truly will be in the thick of it.Competing in the fantasy competitio...
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I Love this Game
2006-06-03 03:42:00
I've always been a big fan of basketball, and especially of the NBA. I heard the legends of Bird and Kareem, of Wilt being the all time leading scorer (on and off the court), of West and Magic. I heard the legend of the Detroit Bad Boys while I watched the Bad Boys Remix win a title. I witness his Airness make the second three-peat, and had I been old enough I would have witnessed the first. I saw the Diesel, the MED, the Big Aristotle do his own three-peat and now I am also a witness to the emergence of the future: King James and the Flash.Like every other red-blooded basketball fan I believe that Jordan was the greatest ever and that Shaq is the most dominant force to have ever stepped onto the basketball court. Like every other red-blooded basketball fan I believe that Steve Nash is a great player, but shouldn't deserve to be a 2 time MVP, and I fall asleep whenever the Big Fundamental, Tim Duncan touches the ball.I am watching Heat-Pistons Game 6 as I type this and the further...
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Before It's Too Late
2006-05-14 05:10:00
When you look around my blog you'll notice that there are some major changes, ie. all the ads are gone. No, it's not a mistake, I removed them.All my life I've told myself that I'll never be greedy. However, when I started earning money from the ads - good money on a daily basis, I became greedy, I became money-hungry. All my thoughts centred on how to make more money, all my time was being spent researching ways to make my site more effective. I even devised the perfect method to double my earnings in one month. Thoughts of money consumed me. So I did the only thing I could do, I disabled the ads account. I couldn't become the thing I despised the most, I had no choice, I had to stop it before it changed me.Will I ever restart the account? I don't know. If I'm ever ready to do it again, and I mean do it the proper way, I will. When I am in the proper frame of mind to handle it, I delve into it once again. But I prefer to be poor and remain myself than to make money and becom...
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What I learned from Breakups
2006-04-29 07:15:00
"I love you, we coulda been together, think about it You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you SCREAM about it I hope your conscience EATS AT YOU and you can't BREATHE without me"-Eminem, StanRecently I've been reminiscing about my past relationships (don't think I enjoy it, I'm doing it out of necessity). I'll admit that after a breakup I can feel like the quotation above. Fortunately however, that feeling never lasted. In this post, I'm going to take a look at some of the things I learned in relationships, and how they have changed me.I learned that apart from love, the most important things in a relationship are trust and honesty. I learned this from having my trust betrayed. I was lied too, and when I learned the truth, it was as if she had ripped my beating heart out of my chest. It is then I realised that without trust, a relationship will fall to shambles. Without trust, one partner will always h...
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The Real Killers
2006-04-22 18:16:00
"The only thing necessary for evil to triumph is for good men to do nothing"-Edmund BurkeQuis custodiet ipsos custodes-Who will guard the guardians? (Latin)I look at the newspaper headlines, the headline news, the text messages and the chain letters in my inbox. They all scream stories about another murder, another killing or the killing of angels. They all demand justice for the killers. And they are all hypocritical.Why? Because society itself is the real killer.Television anchorpersons furrow their brow and lower thier voices, and journalists adopt somber tones in thier articles as they report on yet another murder. But do they really care, or are they more concerned with which mediahouse can garner the highest ratings with the highest level of sesationalism.Government officials pretend concern and make promise after promise to help the situation, but to date, what has really been done? How can they take action after they themselves consorted with the criminals in order to get in...
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Just Some Thoughts
2006-04-15 19:40:00
I know that everyone is expecting me to write about the events of the past week, but I won't. There's a lot I can say, but I won't say it. Mainly because I don't have the time to think it through thoroughly, and also because it's not my place write about this particular matter. Instead, I'm going to write about some random thoughs that just popped into my head.Few people know that the title of this blog was taken from the Batman Begins movie. "Why do I fall?" is a prominent phrase from the movie and it remained in my head long after everything else faded. I started this blog at a very trying and frustrating period in my life and I identified with that phrase. I have been reading a lot lately into worldwide conspiracy theories: the church's suppression of ideas, the existence of the Merovingian, the Illuminati, secret military technology from the NSA and the NRO, and the more I read, the more I realise how little I know about what is going on in the world. The more i learn, th...
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One Day at a Time
2006-04-08 03:52:00
If we can only learn to take, our anger and our hateControl our mental state, settle down, and just set it straightMaybe we can learn to take a second to pump the brakesBefore we said it, regret it later, and let it escalateCause by then its too just late, theres so much we can takeTheres only so much someone can swallow and tolerateTo the point that he just breaks, snaps and thats all it takesYou'd think that we was learning from other [people's] mistakesBut we aintIts plain to go against, with every [person], comes the image he portraysAnd a picture that he paintsBut in the midst of all this anger and this angstNever once did you hear me say I'm a gangster and I aint hear no complaintsBut I know, that I will always continue to grow,As long as I lead and never follow no one else's shadowThere will never be another meAnd that I can guaranteeThats why the fuck I remain sucker free to this dayThe game will never be the sameNo matter how much fame or success they attain There will ...
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A Moment of Zen
2006-04-01 01:49:00
Zen (z?n) n.A school of Mahayana Buddhism that asserts that enlightenment can be attained through meditation, self-contemplation, and intuition rather than through faith and devotion and that is practiced mainly in China, Japan, Korea, and Vietnam.On Wednesday night, i reached zen. No, not the state of enlightenment, but the hottest nightclub in Trinidad. It was a unique experience. It was definitely the best club I've ever been to. There's so much i can write about it, but I don't have the time. Instead I'll just write about a few things i learned in the club. My room-mate Rick is one of the best dancers I've seen. The Chippendale's strippers don't want anything with him. The boy can move like a black girl. I learned that the girl formerly known as the rat princess (I'll explain later) is too good a dancer for me. The girl had me on my knees until I couldn't move with her anymore. I don't know which part of take it easy on me she didn't understand. And finally, and most ...
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Insomnia
2006-02-27 04:59:00
So it's 2 in the AM and I can't sleep so i decided to write.Recently I've asked myself more and more, what am I doing with my life? Where is all my time going? Why do I continue along this dead-end path?I know that this isn't me, but I've developed an aversion to my studies. No, not just an aversion, a deep-rooted hatred to any academic activity. Why, you ask? I don't know myself. And as much as i try to change, I realise I can't. I've been getting by so far without studying, but I can't continue like this. I need a wake-up call, something that'll make me refocus, and soon...or I'll end up just another average graduate, never realising my full potential.The apartment building where I stay isn't helping me focus much either. It seems that there's always something more interesting to do than my school work. Being one of very few that actually does anything in the building isn't much of a help either. They're my neighbours, but I have to admit their attentions lie very f...
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The Return
2006-02-11 16:32:00
It's been over a month since my last post. I've been very busy lately, but now I'm back, well, at least for this week. So many things have happened since my last post that I don't know where to start.I think it's fitting that i start with the end of the 'stache. I shaved my moustache off. That thing's been on my face ever since it grew there when I was 14. Now, 5 years later, I've managed to do away with it. The 'stache wasn't a bad thing, I liked it, but lately I felt like I needed a change and so, the 'stache is no more. I don't regret shaving it either. It's hair, I can grow it back in 2 weeks, but I'm not going to. Since I shaved it off I've had countless compliments about how good I look. Now I've been trying to convince people that I'm sexy for quite a while now, so when they actually start to believe it I know I'm doing something right...so long 'stache.I also found out that I will be receiving a Government scholarship. If you read back to last September yo...
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