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Elementary school
2007-02-22 14:38:00
Elementary schoolTo tell you the truth, I hadn't seen Amelia until 1971 - that year I was walking in the park situated near a big elementary school (no 115) in Cracow. I remember it quite well, the little Angel with blonde hair and blue eyes appeared right in front of me and looked deeply into my eyes. I will never forget her eyes full of tears, her small body shaking with fear and suffering. I couldn't help the kid, I couldn't. But I felt an amazing feeling that I knew what had happened to her. I knew her thoughts, emotions, joys and worries. Once again I saw myself in this creature called Amelia... The reason why she felt scared and unhapppy was some kind of disappointment with the cruelty of life. For this small, subtle creature - a teacher hitting a kid with a ruler and a youngster bulling her - were the first people who showed her the dark side of their minds. They were so different from Amelia's parents, other relatives, classmates etc. That is why, she reacted in such a w...
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It was love at first sight...
2007-02-21 12:44:00
It was love at first sight...All of us like falling in love, but only some of us experienced the feeling of this crazy (or maybe wild) feeling at the very beginning of our lives. Why do I say so? The reason should be rather understandable or predictable - my Amelia felt this at the age of five.I remember it very well, I was looking at the little, funny girl with blue eyes and blonde hair with a kind of astonishment. This was a bit strange, I felt as though I knew her all my life... Amelia seemed to be so close, so familiar, she seemed to be me. Me from the past. I know I will never forget this impression, which made me scared or maybe thrilled, excited at that time.It was June, 1969 and the scene took place outside the kindergarten in Nowa Huta.The girl was sitting on the grass, next to her there were two boys (both were staring at Amelia as if they saw an Angel). They were just the kids, but I noticed a special relationship between them based on something pure, innocent, perfect, i...
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The Kindergartens
2007-02-20 16:36:00
The Kindergarten sAs you remember from my previous post, Amelia suddenly and happily finds herself at real home with her mum and dad. Maybe some of you won't understand that, in spite of her happiness, she misses her grandparents. As in fact, they acted her true parents in the most vital period of Amelia's childhood...I must admit that even now, though her grandparents are dead, they still live in her memories.So, my Amelia is almost four years old, she lives in, so called the communist district of Cracow, Nowa Huta. Her flat is situated on the sixth floor (ground?) of the block of flats (I hope, you underdstand my English, which looks more British than American, or rather more Polish?!). What does she do? Nothing special, every day her mum takes her to a kindergarten. As far as I know, Amelia attends three preschools, she likes them a lot, as at that time she meets her first friends and her first "boy-friends". You may be astonished, "boyfriends at this age"??? But you shouldn't ...
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Childhood (2)
2007-02-19 17:24:00
Moving to CracowWell, those three happy years passed so quickly for Amelia , but not for her parents. They really loved their first child, but couldn't live with Amelia. If I say, they were suffering for that reason, I will not exaggerate. Moreover, if I say that the little kid missed her parents very much, I hope you will understand, am I right? IF NOT, imagine the situation- young people in Poland (at that time) did not have a chance to raise a family without serious problems. When they moved to a big city, they had to rent a room in the house, it was not possible to live in such a room with a child. That was absolutely impossible. That is why, young parents often asked their mothers and fathers to bring up their child until they find their own house.So, coming back to Amelia, when she was 3 years old, Elizabeth and Edward got the flat in Cracow and took her daughter to her new home. It was a positive shock for her, but still it was a kind of shocking experience....If you wanna k...
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Childhood (1)
2007-02-19 17:18:00
Childhood (1)Hello, I haven't been writing for some time - the reason is simple-too much work. So forgive me, will you? Now let's come back to Poland and this little girl named Amelia. When she appeared in the world of human beings, she had to realize that life is not pretty simple, at all. Even for such a small creature like her. Amelia's mummy went to Cracow together with her husband, Eddie. They worked and studied there. And Amelia was left alone..., no, no. IT wasn't like that, she had been staying at her grandparents' home for three years. You probably won't believe me, but for Amelia it was a happy time, really. Even now my Amelia (who is at present 40 years old) enjoys talking about that period of her childhood. If she only could, she would make her dead grandma and grandpa live forever on the earth. As you must know, Amelia loved them as much as possible. And has been missing them for too many years.
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The very beginning
2007-02-15 14:46:00
The Very BeginningWhen, where and how did my story get started? These are the questions, you may ask and let me answer them quickly but not too precisely. Imagine the time-snowy January 1964, the place - Nowy Sącz, a picturesque town in Poland (the heart of Europe) and Elizabeth-a pretty,young woman bearing her first child in pain in a municipal hospital. The child, who was born, was later called Amelia...a strange name for a Polish girl, don't you think so? That's the very beginning told without any details, as if there hadn't been problems relating to Amelia's appearance among other humans. Of course, it wasn't so easy, but I'm not sure if you really want to know all the details. Well, I will think it over and maybe will reveal the whole story in the next post.
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INTRO
2007-02-14 12:43:00
Intro Hi,My name is Amelia, a strange name, isn't it? My parents have always thought that this first name will bring me good luck, happiness-but now they know they were wrong, they know it very well...All my life I have been looking for love and self-knowledge, most of us spend time doing it. But for me this quest has been a dramatic experience, which makes me think there is no love for me. Moreover my quest has resulted in total disappointment concerning the human nature. Now I am pretty sure we, as human beings, are not creatures made by God. There is so much evil in our minds, how would God create such an imperfect being? Would He really say about us- "you are similar to Me, you are good by nature, you are the rulers of this world"? No doubt, God wouldn't have made such a mistake.But coming back to me-I am going to tell you the story of my life. I wonder if you agree with my statement (mentioned above) after reading this story. Maybe some of you, it doesn't matter. What really...
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