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Illo Friday: Wired
2007-03-11 15:33:00
The Falli took no chances but held my groundtrying to reach up i fall aboutthere's two sections in an inter-cross stateone was to get you high one was to shakea thousandth time i gave my pagethe higher you rise the deeper you crashso go on straight or up a littlebut remember to not let gofrom the fine line of your title.-----note: entry for | a [light painting]pub-7079080684070653
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Tomorrow Is Already Here
2007-03-06 18:39:00
M                O O                 G                 I                 E pub-7079080684070653
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Illo Friday: Communicate
2007-02-27 21:56:00
"A woman can say more in a sigh than a man can say in a sermon" - Arnold Haultain"The Wrrrath of HellcatAtomicVelvetSigh"MS Paint(orig. 650 x 770)this 15-minute collage is a result of a mixture of insomnia, skipping lunch and dinner, listening to Ride's songs "Dreams Burn Down", "Decay" and "Paralysed" within the dark confines of a room with no internet connection and uncharged mobile phone at the dead time of unwaking in surreal dreams..and they said im a strange guerrrrrl.. hey now, am i?-----note: loom over the domain of hellcats to unearth the poetry within the imagepub-7079080684070653
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Lens Day challenge: Triptych
2007-02-26 23:23:00
"the morality of art consists in the perfect use of an imperfect medium." - Oscar Wildeleft hand   |   hold my hand, i shall follow   |   right handA triptych is a work of art which is divided into three sections which are collected together. The central panel is the most important one, and this is flanked on either side by two lesser but related images. The whole is intended to be greater than the sum of the parts.This is my entry for this week's Lens Day Challenge .Just to share, i took these shots using the only available light in my room, one mid-afternoon.. the sunlight reflected by a mirror and my mobile phone. and with the help of my red curtains, navy blue ceiling and walls, these features seemed to unintentionally add to the effect.-----note: click the links below each image to see the original size.pub-7079080684070653
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Illo Friday: Gravity
2007-02-19 15:28:00
what does one need to shoot a perfect picture? the proper balance of gravity, stillness and light. so, what is the result of improper balance of gravity, stillness and light? a classic example of camera painting..And what does one need to not be kicked-out of the (seven) circles of Hellcat? The improper balance of rationality, creativity, TIME and the right sharpness of one's fangs! bwahaha..bite me };-}pub-7079080684070653
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Lens Day Challenge: Green
2007-02-14 15:50:00
Life is the flower for which love is the honey. - Victor HugoThis is to pay tribute to this day of the badly heart broken, dreamers and lovers alike.. -----note: photo taken behind a green window.. which produced this effect.pub-7079080684070653
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Lens Day: Light
2007-02-12 19:25:00
Love of mine some day you will die But I'll be close behind I'll follow you into the dark No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white Just our hands clasped so tight Waiting for the hint of a spark If heaven and hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark... -----note: text above is an excerpt from I'll Follow You into the Dark by Death Cab For Cutie. To listen to the song, click the upper left icon on their site.been listening to this on repeat mode.. sorry, i just feel mushy today.. bite me, if you dare };-}pub-7079080684070653
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Illo Friday: Sprout
2007-02-08 00:56:00
She shot him downshe wakes up with the sun beaming to her eyea heat cluttered stuck to her brainspinning her head to unmemorybrink of blindness unsustaineddigging back from her yesterdayforcing to remember what words were saidstill nothing - as far as she can seefrom the ten thousand scenes that twisteda sudden spring of image clicked to herfrom going back and forth and rewinda shadow that made her laugh but not smileis this the one?she didn’t care where he’s beenand don’t care what he plans to doa fool’s numbness sprouted and lingeredas they both let the day pass tooshe waited for that moment that never cameand all her patience came burningso time has sent the signal to haltand she knows he always had it coming..---—–note: Oh, was i listening too much to Stone Roses or not? lol..a poem to pay tribute to Feb 2nd.. and the camera painting entry for illo friday..pub-7079080684070653
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Illo Friday: Red
2007-01-29 10:08:01
The wind was blowing where were we?MS Paint(orig. 840 x 650)-----note: my mind goes blank with the mere sight of this.. *sigh*
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Lens Day Challenge: Peaceful
2007-01-25 10:04:02
waiting for the sun to setin the stillness of the momenthis brightness radiate by the distanceone of those gleams of genial firethat darted across all oceansfrom a standpoint of her dillydally lifewhom was once aquainted only with the grey twilightnow saw that there is more truth to admit than be inclined so unlike the calm lake, she danced and sparkled and prattledin a no nonsense senibilityawaiting his fire to come closer-gaining the shadow of his presence in a forbidden proximityand wraped in the blinding light they floatslowly burning the velvet horizonwith the scene of life that passes before the eyethey create, destroy and restoreover and over and overand as they let go of their last breath,a final etch painted across the sky..that their passion shall burn forever. -----note: this is a photo for those who miss Tagaytay. although as for my poem, i think i need a more dramatic image..bite me };-}
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Photo Friday: Fast
2007-01-23 22:02:02
just a quick post..Sidewalking - The Jesus and Mary ChainChilled to the bone and five miles to homeI'm messing in the dark and feeling all aloneI got ice in my fire got the heat in my wireInject a little heat I'm burning up the tyresSidewalkingTalking like I'm on and I'm the only oneI'm making like I'm done and staring like a gunSidewalkingAnd I got to get a carAnd I got to get a rideGotta get a carGot jesus on my sideMessing in the dark and walking all alone inThe streetsKnow just where I'm goingSidewalkingChilled to the boneHotwired heat all the way home-----note: photo above is my entry for and my tribute to that cool album by JAMC.. one of the greatest bands that ever lived.I just found a vid of this song online, poor quality tho.. [youtube]
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Sweet, I blame you not, for mine the fault was, had I not be
2007-01-13 21:54:14
Sweet, I blame you not, for mine the fault was, had I not been made of common clay I had climed the higher heights unclimed yet, seen the fuller air, the larger day.From the wilderness of my wasted passion I had struck a better, clearer song,Lit some lighter light of freer freedom, battled with some Hydra-headed wrong.Had my lips been smitten into music by the kisses that but made them bleed,You had walked with Bice and the angels on that verdant and enamelled mead.I had trod the road which Dante treading saw the suns of seven circles shine,Ay! perchance had seen the heavens opening, as they opened to the Florentine......Keats had lifted up his hymenal curls from out the poppy-seeded wine,With ambrosial mouth had kissed my forehead, clasped the hand of noble love in mine.And at springtide, when the apple-blossoms brush the burnished bosom of the dove,Two young lovers lying in an orchard would have read the story of our love.Would have read the legend of my passion, known the bitter ...
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Lens Day Challenge: Ice
2007-01-12 21:54:09
At your feet i dreamton the other line i heardhow i lost contact with our realityhow our dreams left afloat in the backgroundnow i am confessing of the wrongness i didi am not worthy of your passionbut your undying touch has kept me aliveyour fire has kept the warmth in my psycheand that i did not see for a momentfor i got lost in a wrong turn and raindropsfroze in my ice-cold confines,but here am i againthough was never gone, my injured soul was hangedplease dont let go of my handpull me back againas you once didwake me up from dreaming the off beamcatch me from my paralyzed transgressionyou are my faithyou are my exaltationwith you i only want to be...-----note: yeah this is kinda off-topic. it's not literally "ice" but you know i am like that. so, for violent reactions please leave in comments section }:-}
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Illo Friday: Phoenix
2007-01-02 21:46:01
Cynical Silencei see you wading at the waterin the equal twilight of the razor edge dustblows through the empty echoessilkening the mirrored seaevery single night a part of me dieschanging tossing what?s on my behalfno laughter can overflowno dance can ever coloras i see myself fadingleaving myself in the tossing of the moonfrom back and beyondfalling down deep i don?t wanna see myselftrapped in the illusion of cynicismof a cynical world you have createdof a world i stepped intoof the uncertainties i was willing to pursueholding? waiting? wanting? yearning?but around me i film in stepsthrough the phoenix eyes i've seena belief that would never beholdand i am not naïve to not seea block of thorned oathswithout sympathy you ripped, slashed and shredblade-sharp folds and innate cutsfrom innocent souls you stole -them holding? them waiting? them wanting... them yearning?now i?ll leave you with that worldlet me cross back to my timelet me go back to the crossroads of the wrong turnbefor...
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B&W Photo Challenge: silhouette
2006-12-06 09:25:02
Photo Friday: StillnessSilence in the Skybut it was a warm day and the night was clearthe wind was damp as invisible dropletsfloat by the airand the sky, bare and cloudlessi stand and wait to see the first stari could almost touchthe scent of flowers floating in the airi taste the air with warm shadowsas i rest my wings a momentbecause there was no windstill waters carpet the seaas i glance at little ripplessilently moving towards my feeta sudden laugh filled the airas i look by the distanceto find you.. just therestaring back at me.-----note: this is my entry for Black and White Photo Challange. But currently, their site is showing a 404. i hope they fix the prob soon.For now, just click the image to view it a flickr, or see the full sizeupdate: also posted this for "Photo Friday - stillness"
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Illo Friday: Ghost
2006-12-02 15:22:14
  Boxed upI am torturing myselfLocking up myselfTo a seclusion of frailtyOf my own weakness;Of my own grief.I have goneNot knowing when to returnIf I should returnNot knowing what?s ahead of meNot caring.I have crossed the boundaries   Of my own feelingsAnd I detest what I have done.What?s left of meIs your shadowCreeping my every moveMy every breath   Stands for youAnd I have to go furtherFurtherUntil your image fadesBut my thoughts I can?t competeI have to destroy myself,   Before it destroys me.-053101-----note: poem was written in May 31, 2001. illo was made today.strange that after reading thru my old poems, i realized that part of me was still being haunted by my past..it's just a case of not being affected by it negatively, and instead, learn from it.
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Illo Friday: Invent
2006-12-02 15:22:14
No poems this time. But I owe this blog's visitors a worthwhile post, since i was on hiatus for more than a month, without prior notice.This is my contribution for Invention. Painting with light; poetry in motion. literally.."lady behind the shadows"I first came upon the term "Camera Toss" over at flickr. I had accidental shots with my digital cam [sample] and MagnaCam [sample] that resembled disfigured light trails but ended on my faves folder. I knew I had use for them someday. Then I chanced upon a group that shared amazing shots of lights whirling in different angles and lines. I could not totally consider my shots as "camera tossing" because, technically, I don't toss my camera to gain these shots. But as Ryan Gallagher puts it, "Camera Toss is photography technique, the singular action of throwing a camera into the air intending it take a picture while in free flight. As with all techniques however, where the photographer, hobbyist, or artist chooses to go from there is hi...
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souvlaki
2006-12-02 15:22:14
Slowdive n DaggerThe sunshine girl is sleeping She falls and dreams alone And me I am her dagger Too numb to feel her pain The world is full of noises I hear it all the time And me I am your dagger You know I am your world I thought I heard you whisper It happens all the time I thought I heard you whisper It happens all the time She whispers while I'm sleeping I love you when you smile I didn't really lose you I just lost it for a while The world is full of noises I hear it all the time You know I am your dagger You know I am your wound I thought I heard you whisper It happens all the time I thought I heard you whisper It happens all the time ----note: this is not the album where "Dagger" is found, but i like this cover better than Souvlaki and I've been trying to post the souvlaki cover but since it's in zip, I can't anyway.

B&W Challenge:Bird (oiseau)
2006-12-02 15:22:14
bird, can you still run in the morning sun?there in your cage, are you locked up or just safe?can you still see the memory of your past?or would you rather forget what you left?bird, do you still recall where you've been?are you willing to stake out everything?did you once have a name, a family, a flock?or would you chose to let go or lock yourself up?bird, i know you do notbut do you see what i see, feel what i feel?i am tempted to open the gate and set you freebut i am afraid of what lies beyondand what's gonna happen after crossing the line?maybe you are too..i'm sorry if i can't do anything.i have no power to move or shape things.now i see, you are a bird but you cannot flybut so am i.-----this is for this week's black and white challenge
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Photo Friday: Destruction
2006-12-02 15:22:14
seething rainby the distance i look overfrom the other side of the sea i stareawaiting for the rain's seetheto cleanse my being, my soul,to touch me and make me feelto awaken this numbness in me.as i see it comingand i froze as i gleam,locked in the trance of unknowingspared from the adamant dullnessof the vast trenching sky -wave down to move forwardstickled my glued feet togetherto the green earth;but somehow i still seehowever i close my eyesthe devastation that i have leftstill haunts my every glint -now the clouds liquidifiesand so does my psyche;as time has told me repeatedlyyou are your own freedom,you are your own wrath.-----note: this is my entry for Photo taken at Dencio's Restaurant in Tagaytay, over-looking Taal Lake
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B&W Challenge: details of the body
2006-12-02 15:22:14
(Un détails du corps)"Don't walk behind me; I may not lead.Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow.Just walk beside me and be my friend."- Albert Camus [quotes]-----note: something simple for Black and White Challenge
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Illo Friday: Safe
2006-12-02 15:22:14
for this Moogie Day...maybe it's SAFE to say(even if it's late)that this is my contributionfor Illo Frida y ..and just like IF:Runprotests are still welcomeat comments section }:-p
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Illo Friday: Quiet
2006-12-02 15:22:14
beneath the silencebeneath the silent watersi hidefrom the muddled days that passfast paced motion i can't catchi wash my cluttered sorrowuntangling each stranddying for a fresh tomorrowholding on to my mind's commandbeneath the silent windi floatcarrying my thoughts to somewhereputting down the option of running offhauling my dreariness to fleeto gain satisfaction of what's enoughbeneath the hidden volatilityi stirin the quiet of my own beingnobody can shatter meas i unravel what's beneathmy own existencerelentlessly..530 x 700MS Paint-----note: i havent made an illo in MS Paint for a while, so it took me about 4 and a half hours to finish this piece. pfew! now time to sleep...
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Photo Friday: Thin
2006-12-02 15:22:14
sometimes, i feel like i'm walking on thin linesthat my tendency to fall off is very steepas i am no clown to be able to balance accordingly,clowns do not walk on electric lines.but if they do,there is always a net to catch them. -----note: a random thought when you're not yourself. this is my silly entry for this week's It's October.. so have a fun Octoberfest weekend everyone!trivia: unlike the Oktoberfest in Munich, Germany, which held this year's feast on Sep. 16th - Oct. 3rd [read], in Manila, it's a full-month event. So, bottom's up! };-}
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B&W Challange: A look over your country
2006-12-02 15:22:14
(Un regard sur votre pays)losing sight of the seahere i am strolling back to realityback to where lost weeks have beenlost in the grasp of a continualityholding on to my beingi should sleep to be able to wake upto hear the thunders to my skinwhistling the echoof a fast-paced dreama film circling in my mindflicks of memory glances of himi feel the numbness of the airas i swallow in deeplytightening the gripweakening my standi could almost touchi could almost feeli could almost tastethe bitter-sweet nuisance of the seadrifting me afloat...and until nowyes, until now,letting me be.-----note: Photo taken last August 20th at Subic Bay's Ocean Adventure Park, dubbed as "the first and only open water marine park in Southeast Asia".This should have been for last week's topic: The Sea (la mer), but yeah, it still applies for this week's theme.
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B&W Challenge: Picture of Holidays (Photo de Vacances)
2006-12-02 15:22:14
Yeah, i know holidays are suppose to be cheery...September marks the first month of the Christmas Holiday here in the Philippines. Because it?s the beginning of the "ber" months.. Oh well, but for me, it's around this time of the year that a certain fear creeps back to my being. My old readers would know why, it?s because I have this fear of December. The reason? There is always, always, either tragic happening on this fateful month, or something so significant that it changes my life from then on. If you care to find out what, the archives on the sidebar remains there for a reason.. But I hope this year would be different. As a close relative will have their wedding on this month. Sincerely wish them all the happiness. I hope they wont end up as most abrupt marriages do.Sorry, but if this December would not be tragic, then that would make me feel at ease. This photo was taken on Christmas 2004. Year after my mom passed, the year i got my surgery, and year before somebody i love go...
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Learning to Illustrate
2006-12-02 15:22:14
MS Paint Illustrations:                                                      Collage with Illustrations:               Digital Collage:         Camera Painting:   Edited Photos:      Watercolor and Pen:     -----note: These are my contributions to Illustration Friday. Although future illos will be added here too. I'm making a shortcut to this post at the sidebar, and get rid of that long list of thumbs.Just click on the thumbnails to see the full version. (Some thumbs are zoomed) I know they're not great, but these are but results of only having MS Paint and Picasa2, and no Photoshop whatsoever. And yeah.. I'm still learning to illustrate...
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uncovering what's beneath the silence
2006-12-02 15:22:14
it started with two peoplewho marked their initials on sandcamouflaged beneath the linesof their strenuous futile liveswhose darkness both were only what they seemarking the world's superficialityand then a brightness slipped ina shade that remained as a symbolthat there is something morethat there is something to look forand what they foundwas something that erased those lineswhat they found haveplaced all the darkness behind.-----note: this is the progress of both my illo for IF:Quiet and my life..click last piece to view at flickr.
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Photo Friday: Silver
2006-12-02 02:13:06
silver sea let your slow ripples envelope meas the breeze catch my pleaslow tidessuccumb me to your endless embracelet me drown with your illuminating dazesetting sunmelt away the pain and numbness let me shrivel and sink to your caressuntarnished sandcover me with your immaculate whiteinto the safe haven of the endless nightlong journeyfloating across the waves the silence runswashed away, you left my sorrows gone.-----note: Photo taken at Snake Island, Palawan, last July. We were the only tourists left at the island when I took this shot. And just something to share.. on our way back to Honda Bay, the sun has already set, and as we passed by Bat Island, we saw bats swarming out of the caves to the sky.. the boat guide said it was rare for tourists to chance upon these bats for they always never reach that time on the sea. My contribution to
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Illo Friday: Change
2006-12-02 02:13:06
... from MS Paint to Camera PaintA face among the crowdlike a passing storm  her rain passed thrushe once knew the incomprehensible viewcast the twilight into the ravinecraving the desire of falling inshe must confront the inanity  of the monsoonas she sprinkled the stardustto her eyes too soonshe could have carried her shadowas she listened to the silence of the nightsweeping the echoesmaking her senses fadethe guerdon of what she knewis not the virtue of what she oweshe shouted to the oceans to haltas she felt her feet slidecarrying her consciousness aside.she woke up and saw  that she was alone againin the vast emptiness of her yearnings,as all surroundings, time, and landscapeswere blanched, robbed of color and reliefan impassioned poet in a voidoccupied by an empty rhythm and beatall around her was an endless oceana great soundless hole swallowing her.hearing whispers of undecipherable wordsteaching herself not to cryto make that big leap, that big...
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