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illo friday: enough
2008-07-20 16:43:00
one moogie wish is never enough... "always keep that moogie smile"and let me just get rid this song out of my head (lol)..Never Enough - The CureHowever much I push it downIt's never enoughHowever much I push it aroundIt's never enoughHowever much I make it outIt's never enoughNever enoughHowever much I doHowever big I ever feelIt's never enoughWhatever I do to make it realIt's never enoughIn any way I try to speakIt's never enoughNever enoughHowever much I try to speakIt's never enoughHowever much I'm falling downIt's never enoughHowever much I'm falling outIt's never enoughWhatever smile I smile the mostIt's never enoughNever enoughHowever I smileI smile the mostSo let me hold it upJust one more goHolding it up for just once moreOne more time to fill it upOne more time to killBut whatever I doIt's never enoughIt's never enoughIt's never enough-----note: i made this doodle while waiting in a hospital lobby.. listening to my ipod and coincidentally writing down the ly...
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moody monday: sleepless
2008-07-07 06:07:00
moogie month-day seventh.."All our dreams can come true if we have the courage to pursue them." - Walt Disney and yes, once again my insomnia attacks on a monday afternoon. i have work tonight so i must sleep, but i just can't.. i lay in bed and i can't clear my head of the memories of Paris..i (we) have been daydreaming of going there for years, and finally, last march, it came true! so for everyone out there, remember.. always dream! and hold on to those dreams, for you can't do it, unless you imagine it.have a great week everyone..especially to my moogie *.*pub-7079080684070653
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photo frames experiment
2008-07-06 02:45:00
i know i have skipped illo friday last week and i think i would be skipping this week as well. let's see with the coming days..well, the reason why is because i am busy building a blog for my officemates where we can all upload photos, thoughts and announcements in one location. i'm not even half way done but i promised them i would only do this on my free time..i made 19 cute little photo frames that are customized for each of my colleague. but, what the heck! let me just share it to all. pink hearts | pink make-up | red lipstick | butterfly & daisies patrick pin | lavander stars | moogie moon | guitar on blue green abstract | fairy & flowers | weed camo | black swirls blue tiles | blue clouds | flying balloon | blue stars (mine) brown girls | bunch o'smileys | double piano my fave is the blue stars. i will be using that for my photo.click the image and it will open in a new tab. feel free to grab anything you like. don't forget to tell me what you think! like what do...
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in memory of a friend
2008-07-01 08:35:00
I can't stop crying today at a loss of a dear friend. And I didn't knew sooner..Even though I met Deity from online, she is one of the few whom I trust with my non-anonymous life. And in keeping some things private, let's just say, we have so much in common, and one is we both maintain a long distance relationship with a loved one. So in so many ways, I feel her pain. But I couldn't bear to imagine what she feels now especially when she heard the news about Chaos. And I, am still but at a loss for words.All I can say is, if it were me in her shoes, I can't imagine how I'd live my life.Dear friends, Please take a moment to pray for the soul of a dearly departed, a fellow blogger, poet, artist and friend... Curtis aka Chaos. And for Deity, that her wounds may heal soon..Deity, we are all here for you. I do pray that you can move on, and live the way Chaos would want you to live and love life.---note: please visit The Wandering Deity's Worlds.. Blogger | Multiplypub-707908068407...
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illo friday: hoard
2008-06-25 06:17:00
emptiness insidebehind that big maskall that he ever wantedwas to hoard her smilesbut he is just so far away...&mbsp; emptiness inside560 x 730 (orig.)MS Paintpub-7079080684070653
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illo friday: punchline
2008-06-13 16:10:00
feed me with your kiss..the velvet kiss1000 x 777 (orig.)digitally altered photo on picasapub-7079080684070653
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illo friday: forgotten
2008-06-07 16:55:00
the only solution to avoid forgetting the places you've visited..is to take pictures. or draw. or both.no place left forgotten900 x 450 (orig.)photo collage on MS Paint(colors added thru picasa)moogie seventh honey!!pub-7079080684070653
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illo friday: baby
2008-06-01 03:08:00
"Shift work sleep disorder is a sleep disorder which affects people who change their work or sleep schedules frequently or work longterm on other than the day shift.Such recurrent interruption of sleep patterns may result in insomnia and/or excessive sleepiness." - wikipediain dreams515 x 630 (orig.)MS Painti think i have this disorder. no, i really do have this. but is there a cure?working at night, sleeping at day (or at least trying to sleep). this is my routine during weekdays for the past 3 years. and prior to my night job, i have insomnia. and it was not bothering me at all. i can read, draw, surf online, watch a movie and do more, while everyone else is sleeping and nobody is disturbing me. i move carefully tho for i dont wanna wake up or disturb anybody as well. so, no noisy neighbors playing their boom boom music or people shouting, talking loud, babies crying, kids playing on the street. blah! it's more peaceful this way. and when i got my job on a night shift, i thought...
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Photo Friday: Difficult shot
2008-05-27 01:26:00
here's my plan: i'll be collecting my posts about my vacation in europe, if ever i finish writing it all down, and have the links in one post. i may be posting them not in chronological order as i luv remembering things as they strike mei lost track of the holy week. we chose the perfect season for a vacation. we based it all on when the cure will have their concert, then reserved the first weekend flight to Amsterdam.Prior to the flight, i wanted a day to day journal, i even bought a small scrap notebook, but i had no step by step plans, no schedule to strictly follow, nothing but pure adventure and unconditional trust to my tour guide *.* Thus, i let each day pass with spontaneity. i lost track of my plan to write down a diary, but thats the least of my worries. in fact, i had no worries at all.so, this will be my first entry. maundy thursday, march 20, 2008, franeker.After our afternoon walk (dont forget the fotoshoots - lol) in the streets of Franeken, and an early dinner of d...
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illo friday: worry
2008-05-25 03:24:00
there is so much positive energy for this week's IF entries. well i broke my rule today as i went over to check some of my fave artists entries before doing mine. but i already have an idea before doing so. and here are some worries that i would luv for you to see.. first, i got worried about.. anon's missing parrot, jack (thanks to ces who made a tribute for him). i also got worried on how studiololo saw rude people living behind their cats, they just couldn't see how cats can be companions too, unlike sketched out. they can be like dogs too as they worry of having their owners leave them behind, just like Rat, the dog of valgalart. yep, i worry like m heart. i also got bit worried of the people who swim too close to boats just like aynaku. what also worried me was the scary hand usually dreamt by kids, drawn by vhrsti. got scared too of the idea of not having ideas like rrramone. and although ginger's little girl is so worried of the frogs, it worried me more when she reminded...
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Illo Friday: Wide
2008-05-21 11:20:00
wide open sky900 x 650 (orig.)MS PaintAchlum.. yep, Achlum again. my third illo for this city. if i were to choose and re-live just one day of my stay in holland, i'll choose the day we went to achlum. of course i love all my days there (as short as it may have been) as each day was an adventure; with a new place to see, new museum to go to, new art to discover, new people to visit, new food to taste and new things to do.this illo is based on a photo i took, as well as the other two:         ; well, what can i say? i just fell inlove with the place.. and fell inlove with my moogie *.* all over again..pub-7079080684070653
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Illo Friday: electricity
2008-05-11 00:44:00
i cant believe that a week just passed by so fast.. i wasnt even able to finish my illo for the topic "seed".. well ok, not even started with one. but i have the image in my mind until now.so here goes a couple of camera paintings that is well suited.. but dont touch your screens or the electricity will stun you! };-}when work eats you alive... ...you have to fight back or you're dead.coz life without art is not life at all. you are just in autopilot.pub-7079080684070653
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illo friday: wrinkles
2008-04-25 16:41:00
we dont need sound to feelwe dont need sight to seeyou can see from miles and mileswithout the need to open your eyesjust pause for a whileto feel what we cant seethose glittering gray eyeswould walk with me thru eternity.. "in mint"4" x 5" (orig.)green gel pen sketch on recycled paper[color added thru picassa]-----illo note: drawn while listening to The Cure's "Mint Car" on repeat mode.pub-7079080684070653
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illo friday: primitive
2008-04-18 18:29:00
a famous dutch quote -"If the world will end, I would go to The Netherlandsbecause everything happens there 50 years later.""achlum in blue"4" x 5" (orig.)sketch on recycled paper[color added thru picassa]pub-7079080684070653
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A.W.O.L.
2008-04-14 13:26:00
the sunset is only the beginningas i relive the dream of our past in my mind i bathe with the promises now showered and cleari drink the wine of your fulfillmentas i untangle your giftof once unfathomed desiresi am not afraid anymorefor fear is a snow dropthat melts as it hits the floorand i lay myself on your warm handsas you open the window for us to seecome...come soar with me nowas we unravel whats aheadwhile the blue horizon changes its hueshining at our every footstepglistening to our wingsnothing is indeed impossibleas long as we hold onto our dream...-----note: photo taken at Holland, poem written soon as i got back to Manila..awol - yep, i owe my friends an update of where i am and how i've been. first, that i finally went to Holland and Paris. now im back and my head is still floating. please slap me i feel like im only dreaming..pub-7079080684070653

villose velvet velvetine
2008-03-09 02:16:00
i found a meme from andrea and tho some find it easy i dont.. for there are just a handful of words i know offhand that starts with V..anyway here goes..> your name??????Velvet > 4 letter word????????vamp> vehicle??????????volkswagen (i used to drive one)> city???????????Versailles (i'll see you soon!)> boy's name?????????vladimir (nabokov) or vincent (van gogh) who to choose? who to choose? lol..> girl's name????????vivianne> alcoholic drink????victoria bitter> occupation?????????ventriloquist> something you wear?????victoria's secret (*giggles)> celebrity????????Vin Diesel (not that i like him.. he's just the only "v" celebrity i know lol)> food????vallée d?auge chicken receipe> something found in a bathroom??valium (well, not in my bathroom that is..) lol> reason for being late?????visa card! (oh no!)> cartoon character?????? victor - one of three gargoyle statues at disney's hunchback of notre dame> something you shout?????voot!> animal?????????veery see photo> body part???...

illo friday: garden
2008-03-07 15:27:00
Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless gardenwhen the flowers are dead. -Oscar WildeHAPPY THIRD ANNIVERSARY TO MY MOOGIE!-----note: here's an ms painting that i have done 2 years ago. click here [IF: spring] if you wanna see the progress of how it was madepub-7079080684070653
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Illo Friday: Leap
2008-03-03 09:17:00
"A dream you dream alone may be a dream, but a dream two people dream together is a reality." - John Lennondo you believe in dreams?do you believe in fate?he said you'll never know unless you take the leap..he leaped.now its my turn..dreaming of paris5" x 8" (orig.)pen and ink on recycled paper12 days to go..pub-7079080684070653
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Moody Monday: Colorless + meme
2008-02-27 10:52:00
my world would be colorless without booksand lifeless without musichere's another tag for this week. isay passed the baton to me to post 5 random weird things about myself. i had done one of these before as i posted 5 weird habits.. but here's to add another 5 then!6. i have more cds than books. and the photo above shows only a fraction of what i have. 7. i buy a book 90% of the time i pass by a bookstore. even though i have tons of other unread books calling for me in the middle of the night (well technically "day" because... read no.8)8. i have insomnia and im up all night. thus i work at night and sleep at daytime. and my body clock only allows me to sleep for max of 5 hours or else i get a headache.9. among my old high school peers (barkada), i used to be the quiet one. until i met them again a few years back and they were almost shocked that i was not as timid as they once knew. (*.* thanks!)10. i am a geek and my hero is dexter.now i tag: Anto | Teri C | Forever Young | Anon...
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illo friday: multiple
2008-02-22 17:10:00
and aside from playing with my digital camera in the dark, im also fond of playing with ms paint and making collages from my paintings.playing in the milky night1155 x 775 (orig.)MS Paintpub-7079080684070653
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love liefde mahal
2008-02-20 23:21:00
February is almost over and st. valentine's day have past. but a tag from a generous and artistic friend, zari, has inspired me and many others to remember the origin of this holiday. and to quote.."St Valentine?s Day; a holiday named after various early Christian who became models of selfless love surviving in cruel circumstances. Yet nowadays, this holiday is mainly associated with romantic love; it is just a day to spend on chocolates, flowers, trips, lingerie, and romantic dates?I think it?s time we forget about this meaningless stuff to focus on the true meaning of this day; love, peace and global unity."and as i have mentioned previously, love and giving should not be shown only in one day..so share the love and spread the love to the world and join us..Here are the simple rules:1. If you get tagged or not (and want to play along), take some minutes to meditate about love and peace, pray for countries that are facing troubles, for those people you love and those you don?t 2. ...
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illo friday: theory
2008-02-16 19:56:00
"The speed of light in a vacuum is the same for all observers, regardless of their relative motion or of the motion of the source of the light." -Albert Einsteinmy theory about light is that it can be bended by extending time.i cant decide on what image to post, but here are 3 more from the same series. i created them when i was watching disney on ice with my son. fun huh? whats your fave?         read more about:speed of light, andlight painting (notice the links at the bottom?)---update: please visit share the looooooove for an art raffle.pub-7079080684070653
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share the looooooove!
2008-02-14 00:00:00
after a week off from work, another nice surprise awaited me.. some of you illo friday folks may have seen justZHM?s post for the topic 100% (link).. and yep, monica c link) and yours truly, are the lucky visitors to win the raffle.. 100% luck indeed! what i got was a very cute bookmark! and zari was also kind enough to throw in a cool personalized post card!Happy 2008 too, Zari!i really luv illustration friday!here?s an idea! i?d like to pass on this chain of IF creativity, i am having a raffle here as well. anyone interested should just drop a comment on this post and choose any artwork or photo found here at my blog. if you don?t want to choose, its fine.. just say so and i?ll be the one to pick one for you. whoever wins will get a post card or print out of your chosen artwork or photo and i will inform you by email or comment on your blog. i would recommend to pass on the chain and give out something to a lucky visitor as well.there is no exact closing date tho, but hopefully i...
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Moogie Seventh Moonlight Kiss
2008-02-07 11:03:00
"...Sudden Stars"by: StereolabSweet smellingessenceshugs and smilessweet kissesmovementstowards meembracereverietendernessvelvet skintreasured dreamsintimatesilk and goldnuit d'amournaked soulAfter such distanceCome to me, precious being, come to meAfter such ennuiCome to me, delicious, enfold meAfter such a long droughtHere a place for flowers to flourishBut if you must,And if you must,If you must go, go--The wind will take youIt will lift youAcross the oceanInto the skyTowards the sunIt will take you, high--So if you must,And if you must,If you must go, go--Sweet smelling windAnnouncingL'amour de ma vieWhen you're readyMon bel amourSimply come to me.-----illo note: sudden stars sudden kiss, 800 x 650 (orig.), MS Paint collagepub-7079080684070653
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illo friday: blanket
2008-02-01 16:26:00
Wanted: a needle swift enough to sew this poem into a blanket. - Charles Simicare we staring at nothing?820 x 620 (orig.)MS Paint... or sew this blanket into a poem.i am constantly having a writer's block. geesh.. i wonder why?anyway, id luv to know what you see here.pub-7079080684070653
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and the countdown begins...
2008-01-27 00:46:00
yep.. a few more hours of sleeplessness awaits..layoutcodez.netsee another version of the countdown herepub-7079080684070653
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Illo Friday
2008-01-25 11:21:00
Tales and Legends: Diwatain philippine mythology, a "diwata" is a mythological figure similar to fairies or nymphs. they are said to reside in large trees, such as acacia and balete and are the guardian sprits of nature, bringing blessing or curses upon those who bring benefits or harm to the forests and mountains. it is a filipino spelling for the Sanskrit word devadha, but the name is ultimately derived from the Sanskrit word dev, meaning deity.Maria Makiling is my favorite diwata. she is a guardian of the mountain, responsible for protecting its bounty and thus, is also a benefactor for the townspeople who depend on the mountain's resources. in addition to being a guardian of the mountain, some legends also identify Laguna bay - and the fish caught from it - as part of her domain.it is often said that a mount in Laguna, Mt. Makiling, resembles a profile of a woman lying down which is believed to be that of Maria. this phenomenon is described as true from several different perspe...
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illo friday: plain
2008-01-19 01:19:00
i had an interview before and results just came in.. the agony of waiting is almost over.. on second thought.. a few more days of nerve racking excitement shall consume me. buthow can i endure more days? if i am there would it be true? how could i know reality from not? how could i be there but really be here? how could i be here but be there? maybe in dreaming of being ..under your roof.. Flatlands around.. cows.. water.. rain.. cold.. and.. you... *.*"there but not here"4" x 5" (orig.)sketch on recycled paper[color added thru picassa]pub-7079080684070653
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Illo Friday: Stitch
2008-01-13 03:33:00
The WombI have a 3-inched stitch from below my navel running downfor six years now.this dark brown, reddish thick skin lineis a symbol, a reminder,of the reason why i try so hard -breaking my bones stretching my veinsand splitting time in nano-secondsand i would trade everything just to see -that astonished stareice melting smilerunning to me.and to feel -that heartskipping warmthof those arms wrapped around me.and to hear -the words that will shatter all wallsstop all the wars in the world.."i love you, mommy" -----note: as of the moment of posting, flickr was down so the image was temporarily stored somewhere else. soon as flickr is up, the image will be transfered there.pub-7079080684070653
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Photo Friday: Mountain
2008-01-11 08:09:00
i would only love to sleep now if i wake up and go here, not work---for this week's Photo Friday pub-7079080684070653
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