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Done.
2007-11-17 15:38:00
Really? I am so done with guys. So done. Last night we were all hanging out when a few of the jackass boys decided they wanted to go to a strip club, I declined the invitation. You know what happened next? BB got up and left with them and went to the fucking strip club. So I got really drunk and called him and left mean messages on his phone, like the 12 year old I am. I am so over it. I don't think he is going to be around tonight and that is fine with me. I won't be calling him to see if he is going to be around either.Asshole.

Thumbs up dude
2007-11-16 14:44:00
Here is a public service announcement: THUMBS ARE VERY IMPORTANT!! Ladies and Gentlemen,Please pay close attention to your thumbs this holiday season. They are a very important part of your body. One that you might overlook, until it is too late. You don't realize how much they actually do for you until you can't use them anymore. Case in point: I cannot put my hair up in a ponytail because I cannot use my left thumb. You see, I was cutting up potatoes yesterday because I had a wicked craving for mashed potatoes. In the process of cutting said potatoes I also cut the top of my thumb. As in, I almost cut it off. It was gross and it gushed blood and there was a skin flappy, basically it was disgusting. Not only did it skeeve me out, but it also hurt like a bitch and now it is really sore. I am now rocking a band-aid extravaganza and it is so not easy to work around.So, please pay close attention to your thumbs. They need love.Ok, I'm off to venture upstate! Wooooo hooooo. Amazing ...
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Join me
2007-11-14 17:25:00
Who's on Myspace? I know you all are. Add me as a friend. I'll love you forever and ever.Thoughts of a crazyredhead on Myspace
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Well, here we go again
2007-11-14 01:53:00
So, you guys remember Birthday Boy right? Guess who is backkkkkk? I am going upstate this weekend to celebrate Thanksgiving with my dad, yeah, don't ask, it's a long story. One that ends with me saying, "And that is why I am going to be in Toronto for Thanksgiving." See? Told you.Anyways, Birthday Boy is back. I figured I needed a little cuddle time this weekend, so I called him and told him I was going to be around. He is going to be at my brother's apartment this weekend too and he moved just down the street from my brother, FANTASTIC! I have missed him a little. The only reason things didn't work out before was because Mr. Ex got in the way, but that is not a problem this time. So we were talking on the phone a little while ago and he informed me that last weekend while hanging out with my brother, after a night of drinking, my brother flat out says, "So I know you were hanging out with my sister and I don't like it". Well, that's a surprise because my brother never said ...

Perhaps
2007-11-13 13:30:00
I was invited to...to visit a friend who is apilot.Did I mention that I like guys in uniform?

Stay in the past
2007-11-12 15:36:00
What do you do when someone from your past who you don’t really want to see just pops up and wants to grab a drink with you? No, it’s not Mr. Ex. It is a girl from high school, a girl who at one point I was friends with, then she turned on me. She was such a mean person and even caused me to break up with a boyfriend. She got wind that I was going to be upstate to see my dad next weekend and she sent me an email. I’m not sure if I want to see her, but I agreed to go for a drink, at least for now. At this point I am a little hesitant but I want to give her the benefit of the doubt. Hmmm, this could get interesting, at the very least it will make a great blog post!
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Something good, for a change
2007-11-11 21:22:00
So I did something awesome today and it made me feel a little better. My brother has been a lifelong Dallas Cowboys fan, like for as long as I can remember he has worn Dallas jerseys, watched Dallas games, etc. Even when we were little he was like a diehard Emmit Smith fan. But there was just one problem. He has never seen the Cowboys play in person, ever. Well, today that all changed. I have Giants season tickets and today the Giants play the Cowboys and my brother gets to go see the Cowboys, finally. It makes me feel really good that I can do that for him. It actually lifted my spirits a little bit I guess. So go look for my brother, he is probably the only person in Giants Stadium today wearing a Dallas jersey.
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Randomness
2007-11-09 21:01:00
I just got this in my inbox:If you see a bearded guy walking around New York City’s Bleecker Street and The Bowery this weekend (11/09 – 11/10), giving out hugs to people… have no fear, it’s not some crazy NYC homeless person –it’s Chris Barron, fame ex-vocalist of The SpinDoctors. Barron, who nearly lost the use of his voice, is thanking the world by giving out hugs in his new video being shot by WoozyFly.com, the online music network devoted to independent musicians. The video will debuting on WoozyFly.com and is part of Barron’s upcoming new solo album, Pancho and the Kid. So feel free to give Chris hug, he is looking for some lovin!So, go get a hug if you need one or want one!
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Whatever dude.
2007-11-09 00:27:00
So I did it. I took a shower and went outside, I went to buy some makeup thinking that might cheer me up and you know what happened? I caught another fucking cold and I am right back on my steroids. Exactly where I didn't want to be. This is insane. I thought I was putting all kinds of good karma out there in the world but apparently it was not enough. I am so over this.So I made a phone call, that I didn't want to make, to someone who I didn't really want to talk to. I am going to Washington DC to become a science experiment. That's right, I am going to be the girl in a bubble. A family friend is a Chief Resident (like Callie on Grey's, but way better) and he also happens to be a pulmonologist and he has been wanting to study me. So in desperation, I agreed to let him. I'm not sure when yet and he has to get all his shit together but it should be interesting. Maybe they can find out why as soon as I get a cold my body goes bonkers and freaks out. It would be really great if t...
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Back to bed.
2007-11-07 15:19:00
So I just heard about 3 more of my friends that just got engaged and 2 that are having babies. Seriously, I didn't think I could get any more depressed than I was and now it's like I don't even want to leave my bed. Not to mention my dad keeps telling me about my step-sister's white trash wedding that is happening next year. I am so over it. I have wasted the last 3 1/2 years of my life with someone I thought I was for sure going to marry and here I sit, alone, with my dog. I feel like no one wants me and I feel totally alone.I'm going back to bed.
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M needs your vote.
2007-11-06 14:10:00
Please vote for Molly in the World's Coolest!
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Internet vs. fate
2007-11-05 14:31:00
Does the internet get in the way of fate? Are people we were never supposed to meet now entering our world because of the internet? Or was this supposed to happen? Where were supposed to be so connected that now we will meet people we never would have in the first place without the immediate connection of the internet? Were Sally and Joe from Match.com meant to get married via internet dating or was the process just sped up? Instead of meeting in a coffee shop 8 years from now in Cheboygan, Wisconsin they met while they were both in their pjs at home. Are we messing with the universe here?
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Still here
2007-11-04 01:40:00
I'm still here, barely. I've been a big pile of mush on the couch. Literally. I haven't moved in days. Well, I've taken my pup out and gotten up to get the take out but other than that, I've been stationary. Sick? Yeah. Sad? More like it. I've been trying to be such a good girl but the steroids turned me into a raging bitch so I just stopped talking to people. Didn't answer my phone, nothing and it was kinda ok. I mean, I felt a little lonely, but whatever, that's not new. When you are in the ER sitting on a bed by yourself and you get discharged by yourself and you come home by yourself, you kinda get a little sad. Mr. Ex is no where to be found, of course, he told me he was too busy to be around. Yeah, whatever. There is no point in fighting that. I don't want to waste my energy on a lost cause. I really just can't get up the motivation to do anything. I really just want someone to cuddle with on the couch, but I bet that would probably mean I would have to get out of my...

So over it
2007-11-02 14:27:00
Seriously, I am so over this. My brain is foggy.
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You just don't get it
2007-10-30 15:46:00
I really, really hate feeling like this. I feel like I can't control my thoughts and I just have anger boiling up inside me. I wish there was another way to control my asthma, but there isn't and I hate it. People don't get to see this side of asthma. They mostly see the "geeky" stereotype that goes with it. I used to get made fun of so much because of my asthma, I wish everyone can see this side of it. The side where I am sitting in an ER bed with a needle in my arm and a mask around my face, basically in a haze because I just got shot up with steroids. Or when I have to stand up to go get an x-ray and I feel like I am going to pass out and throw up at the same time. I wish people could see that side and could understand. Asthma is a debilitating disease and sometimes people don't get it. One of the reasons I don't have a "real" job is because I can't hold one. I get sick so much that I just can't make it to work everyday. People basically think I am lazy and sleeping in, bu...

Raging on the juice
2007-10-29 13:59:00
So here is my new theory, be sure to write this one down, it might be very detrimental to society. Steroids + Buddhism does NOT = good friends. I have been awake for almost 26 hours right now cracked the fuck out and raging on steroids. I have tried in my best abilities to remain calm and cordial and to remember to breath and to take a minute and center myself, but it is so hard when my brain is floating is angry juice. I find myself snapping at everyone, telling people off and generally being an asshole. But it is like I can’t control it. Like my brain is just on auto-pilot straight to Potty-Mouth-Ville. Everything is making me angry and I really do not like it. I am trying to be good, but I really can’t help it. I hate feeling like this. Why will I outgrow my asthma? I was promised so many times as a child that I would soon outgrow it, I am fucking 25 years old, when will this end? Why can I not get a simple cold without having my body go all fucking haywire and needing steroi...
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File this under jobs I would never do.
2007-10-28 15:28:00
Have you seen the show "Ice Road Truckers" on the History channel? If not, you totally should. In the last hour I have found myself screaming at the tv and literally sitting on the end of the couch. If there is one thing in the world that scares me more than anything it is water. Now add to that water that is frozen with big huge heavy trucks driving over it. Hello? Insanity. They just showed this diver who went under the water to check the ice and I was hyperventilating thinking of being trapped like that under the ice. I mean yeah, he has oxygen and whatnot but still, trapped under 3' of ice. On my god this show is going to give me a heart attack. But I HAVE to watch it.
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Achooooo bitches.
2007-10-25 14:08:00
Anybody know where I can get one of these? I need one.
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New find
2007-10-24 14:47:00
Ok, so I found these new trendy little accessories and I absolutely love them. They are from a company called SugarPeace. Basically they clip right on to your belt loop, no pin pricks in your favorite sweaters, no big belt buckles, no clunky necklaces, all you need is this. Try the Rockstar piece, I love it!And keeping with the Buddhism theme of my life this company has an amazing "want to change the world" attitude. How can you not love that?Check them out, SugarPeace
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All you can
2007-10-23 03:23:00
Sometimes you reach a point where there is nothing else you can do but wait. When you have done everything right that you possibly can, you just have to wait. You can't force or will somebody to do something, all you can do is wait and hope they will make the right decision. That is where I am right now. Just waiting and hoping, for the right decision to be made. Now, I’m not sitting by quietly and lonely. I am out doing things and enjoying myself which is a big change. Normally I would get pissed and introverted and full of anger, but it isn’t worth it anymore. It doesn’t hurt anyone but me. I guess ultimately, that's what love is about. Waiting and giving so many chances that it becomes illogical to do so, because your heart keeps hoping for that one right chance. But when that chance comes, I might not want it around anymore. I guess that is the chance he will have to take.

It's getting hot in here
2007-10-21 22:18:00
If this isn't a result of global warming I don't know what is. I have never in my life been out in NY in October, nevermind the end of October, in a tshirt and flip flops. It was 75 degrees today! I mean I am not complaining, well, maybe I am. I like fall, I like getting all bundled up. This is my first fall back on the East Coast and I feel like I am in California again. I love NYC is the fall with the crisp air blowing through Central Park. The leaves raining down on you as you walk in the Village. The smell of fall in the air. Call me crazy but I love it. I want to wear my sweaters and my boots. Where is the cold?!?!PS. Yes, I realize now that I will regret that in January when it is -30 outside and the wind is blowing like a hurricane.

Well, I am a NYer
2007-10-19 15:08:00
So, I don't really care about baseball, but I do like gossip/news and I can't help but hearing all the talk around the city. So, chime in, what do you think of what is going on with Mr. Torre and the Yankees?
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Well, this is a new one
2007-10-18 14:35:00
*Red: Job offerWe have found your resume at Monster.com and would like to suggest you a "Transfer manager" vacancy. We have studied your resume and are happy to inform you that your skills completely meet our requirements for this position.This is a part-time position. Your job will be to transfer money between our clients.Your job will consist in the following:• Receive the check by mail• Cash the check within a business day, excluding days off• 8% of the amount are left for yourself as a commission. • You take it immediately the rest of the sum is to be sent via western union to us to the address which will be mentioned in the e-mail. Transaction fees shall be paid out of the same sum. Your schedule will be flexible. You will need to spend on average 1-2 hours per day, Monday-Friday.This is a work-at-home position. All communication will be online.This job will allow you to:- Increase your income;- Efficiently work at home;- Get additional free time; General requirements:-...
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I got tizz-agged.
2007-10-17 15:16:00
Cinnkitty tagged me. Now apparently there are some rules to this sick little game. I cannot repeat anything Cinnkitty said and I have to list "5 things that I do, did or like that I’m proud of, but that others may think are totally lame. Plus, I get to tag 5 people to do the same." Sweeeeet, well here I go. Let the spiral into lameness begin!#1. I talk to my dog, alot. Like I have conversations with her. I mean she doesn't talk back but it makes me feel better.#2. I am a wicked germaphobe. You can always find 2 sometimes 3 bottles of hand sanitizer in my purse. I put it on constantly. I realize that at this point my body has probably become immune to it's germ killing possibilities but it makes me feel better, ok? Leave me alone.#3. I have neurotic tendencies. If I go to a restaurant and put my bag on the ground, I make sure the straps are around my foot so I can't loose it. I bend down a lot to check to make sure it is still there. Or I open my bag and feel for my ...

Subway Surfing, duh?
2007-10-16 14:57:00
Newsday.com Police: Man, 23, dies surfing subway train in NYC4:46 AM EDT, October 16, 2007NEW YORKA 23-year-old man surfing a New York City subway train is dead after striking the inside of a tunnel.Police say the man had apparently wedged himself into a space in front of a set of closed doors on a southbound C train before he was killed at 6:30 p.m. Monday in the tunnel between 145th and 155th streets. He has not been identified pending notification of family.Police say the man struck a handrail on a catwalk in the tunnel and died from head injuries. He was not hit by the train.Transit officials say service on the track was suspended for about an hour-and-a-half, causing delays on the A and D lines from 125th to 59th streets.Copyright © 2007, The Associated PressPorque? What would possess anyone in their right mind to do this? Do you wake up one morning and say, "Well shit, I'm bored, maybe I'll go ride on top of a subway car and try not to lose my head.". Seriously, I know t...
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Vet-etiquette
2007-10-14 17:43:00
Dear Patrons of So-and-So Veterinary Hospital, I understand that we are somewhere that neither you, nor I, nor or wonderful little furry bundles of love want to be, but still, can we TRY to make it a little less painful next time? I was just there for a routine exam, so my nerves were cool. I understand however, that some of you were there for an emergency, I get it, I've been there, it is really nerve racking. You don't know what to do, your little furry love bundle is sick and you don't know how to help it, well, you are in luck, here is a list of things NOT to do at the vet hospital, just to get you on your way.1. If your dog is puking, please, don’t sit in the seat right near the front door. Take the poor thing outside or run up to the desk and scream, “MY DOG IS PUKING IT’S FUCKING BRAINS OUT, CAN I GET SOME HELP?â€� You’d be surprised how quickly they will help you. If that doesn’t work please step away from the front door. My dog isn’t puking and I donâ€...
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Question
2007-10-13 03:10:00
Is using the handicap bathroom stall the same as parking in a handicap parking spot? What about if you have luggage and you can't fit it in the regular sized stall with you?
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Wash over me
2007-10-11 16:55:00
He walked into the room and I felt a wash of calm run over me. He walked over and hugged me and it felt like I was home. We didn’t say anything for a few minutes, we just stood there and hugged and it was amazing. We laid down and took a nap together and as I fell asleep in his arms I knew it was going to be ok. We woke up and went to get some lunch and then went and played in Toys R Us and as he was attacking me with a plastic dinosaur and I was running away through the store it hit me and it was like a cold bucket of water ran down over my body. I have always made the negatives between Mr.Ex and I the things that I focus on the most. I focus on when he hurts me and when he makes me cry. I didn’t focus on moments like this. Where we have not a care in the world, where we are running around a toy store and where we are carefree I need to focus on when he calls ahead to the hotel to make sure everything is perfect for me or when he puts his hand around my waist and we wal...
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I made it
2007-10-10 23:22:00
So, I made it. I made it to the hotel. I walked past it 4 times before deciding to enter. I went and got coffee and sat and thought about what I was going to do. I walked across the street and took the elevator up to the lobby and checked in and then I waited. I waited for him to arrive, I waited for things to progress and I waited to see if I still felt something. My heart was beating so fast I thought I was going to throw up. I sat on the bed and watched tv and looked out the window and paced. I sat down and did some meditation and read my bible, Zen and the Art of Happiness. I read it and I took everything into account. I did not will myself to be there, I allowed myself to be open to the idea and allowed my sub conscious to guide me. I trusted my instincts and I knew it was ok to be in that room. I calmed myself down and again sat down on the bed and waited. So many questions ran through my head and I told them to stop. I stopped questioning and stopped thinking and ...
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Keywords
2007-09-27 14:55:00
If you remember I started doing this a few months ago. It is always fun. Let's explore how people found me, shall we? Some of these things are insane.Xanax and coffee (not a good idea)The Pick Up Artist (is a tool)I am NY (Yes, yes I am)Soulmates (we all have them)McDonald’s don’t use gloves (ok except for the bad grammar, this one is gross. Don’t go to McD’s in Canada)Foo Fighter’s Irving Plaza (Ticketmaster is a sham and that was a major asspunch)black music bitch get out the way ( interesting…)crazy red head (that’s me)Redhead blogspot (you found it)Redhead quote (I have lots of good ones)Jessie Baylin lyrics ( love her)Lyrics to “Better when we’re together� (good song)Crazy redhead (again, she’s right here)Blowjob barf (I really don’t understand why this picks up on my blog, but someone keeps searching for it, like every month)New York Redhead (me, me, me)Redhead bitch (who, me?)ich me diche (ummm, I don't kn0w)Kobi Yamada +She (good shit)The Red Head O...
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