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Back again
2010-10-28 23:17:00
I will report the excitement of the last few days of relative freedom- of course I remind myself now to switch from the negative to create a new habit, and this is when there isn't that much wrong to focus on besides a bit of isolation. Besides my usual weekly visitor on Tuesday it's just been me the rest of the time, and with all the major jobs now complete (just an eye test and car service to get done now) can relax with good teeth and enough tablets for some time. The magazine I had to stall as my article went to the new people now has an article I wrote for them and hope they like it.As it was just on I may as well mention the second TV programme about child genius, the followup after 5 years. If there was no other opportunity to mention it this would be it, as it reminded me so much of my own childhood. I had exactly the same route through playing up at school, being sent to the psychologist and having an impressive IQ. I think all I gained from it was knowing I was sane and ...
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Getting there
2010-10-26 01:28:00
I have actually been pretty busy since even before the last entry. Thursday night I was doing a standard search for old road signs and one turned up in the centre of London, I couldn't get the exact spot so spent a couple of hours checking the following day and then got a photo that night while there was a lot less traffic and free parking. I was supposed to take the camera with me for a non-official one at the weekend and as I forgot ended up discovering a totally new part of Richmond Park I will now be returning to with the SLR and tripod for the 180' views of London. I am also working on an article for another magazine I originally wrote the previous article for but was used before their date to see it. I hope I can now produce something else they want but have a good few ideas.While being fully aware of my own shortcomings, mainly in the reactions area, it's going to be an uphill haul changing any one of them. I know what they are but my own symptoms of anxiety are so acute i...

Continuing progress
2010-10-21 22:56:00
I really can't be arsed to go through the Firefox revelation routine just to get a different font so will just have to captivate with the words rather than the presentation.The car was in and out within an hour today thank goodness, with 7000 miles on the clock no reason to fail an MOT but less chance they'd be free straight away as I also had absolutely no alternative plans after finding some yesterday. I also had to stay up till nearly 4am last night as they were talking about psychic readings on the radio and had to phone up as someone earlier didn't believe them. The presenter and a few more listeners certainly do now.So only the car service (at my relative leisure) and eye test left. That's three dentists, a doctor, a garage and anywhere else I've forgotten out of the way. Once these were all routine, especially when I had my father to take me to the garage or the mechanic collected the car. Now it's just me, my neighbour used to help (as I did a lot more for him) but he...
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Progress so far
2010-10-21 03:26:00
I'll do today's entry more as a list. I'm trying (with advice) to organise my life more. Look at the good side of everything and see if I can attract it, as per Abraham-Hicks and The Secret.The garage was closed today so used that glitch to go to the outdoor gym, and then came back and carried on working on the spare room. It should be normal now within a few days after years of storage. I also collected all my global warming data (the flat lines and the hockey sticks for exactly the same periods) and sent it off to see if someone would write an article from it. There is a consistent theme now of massaging raw data to get a hockey stick, Dr Jim Salinger appears to have invented it and may end up barred from any organisation at the very least if gets busted. Madoff got about 120 years and they've ripped off way more than that.Tomorrow is attempt 2 for the MOT which may well be a week off as Tuesday is blocked as a council inspector is coming 'in the afternoon' to look at the bu...
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Monday, a week ahead
2010-10-19 01:13:00
I seem to have a completely clear run at the moment to test the latest teachings- nothing's happening either way. If I can use a single trick (as I prefer to call them as we are cheating our own minds) to make it look better then I'll have learnt something pretty useful. It's basically having an open mind, and then twisting what I know so far round it may start pointing me in another direction.So very little more to report, it's another week and should clear the spare room completely first, then work on the next room and at least will have got that sorted out. And for a very rare change I've got little more to say. I've collected quite a bit more over the last few weeks- the main thing being the media career addition, plus a couple more old signs and a few calls to the radio as usual. If I can change this vibration to attract women who aren't severely peculiar and prefer not to have around for very long that'll be the biggest thing I can change, and would probably cover a go...
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Busy so far
2010-10-14 23:41:00
I've actually been getting on with things the last few days- Tuesday was decided when my usual visitor announced her imminent arrival, and used the time waiting for the surprise call any time like a furniture delivery starting to clear out my spare room. The lack of a dry garage meant it was lost as a room and despite the garage being the same was fed up with it. Yesterday was free and thank goodness was fit enough to get to Uxbridge where I got a very rare (unique?) studded speed limit. No paint but quite legible and all studs present. Today was free again and just went for a little walk where I used to live (it's still better than anywhere else) as I did all the bigger stuff yesterday. Then I carried on with the spare room and now the majority is done, having chucked a load of stuff the first go and moved it today. I've got a booking tomorrow before going out so that's covered as is Saturday.I am using what I consider the pretty vague advice from Abraham-Hicks (look it up, it...

Hal Lewis the prophet
2010-10-11 22:30:00
Back again and under strict instructions not to moan. New trick, old dog, but better than doing nothing. Part of a pretty large and far more complex plan than it appears, see Abraham-Hicks for more details, it's all out there.The good news being after a gap of a few months after finding the old road sign that completed my collection I managed to find another one, after covering maybe 80% of all the roads I wanted to on Streetview. Otherwise it's business as before, that will always be one way or another so the theory is I have to change. I did see my own recollection of being like a rubber band, I can be stretched a bit but always snap back to more or less before, as that appears to be my nature. If there's any way to fix that it'll be worth it.So being limited to not mentioning the war or anything like it, I've covered the past, most of my philosophy and am only really left with the everyday stuff only a few of us are moved to tell the world. So I have to look both ways now, s...
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It should be guided
2010-10-06 23:14:00
I will take three alternative scenarios today. That which says there are no coincidences and everything happens exactly as it's designed to, including what we think are our own decisions, the middle new age ground that says we are given opportunities by design but down to our free will what we do about them, implying personal growth is totally down to us, and the third control scenario of science which says there's no meaning in anything and it's all random.I'll just look at the first for now, that everything including our decisions is planned. That means today everything that happened including my tiredness which led to the very limited usage of the time was totally unavoidable. If that's the case there is a goal and the only way to reach it is for everything to happen exactly the way it does, like a good film with no loose ends. Every event large and small contributes and has a significance, and without a single one happening the final result may not be guaranteed. In my case...

I'm not changing
2010-10-03 23:53:00
It's all gone very quiet. The work has been done, the muck has been cleared and even the money has been earned, and I'm left with whatever is left. There's nothing wrong, but nothing else really, unless I'm missing it. So if I make the first move, what move exactly is that? No ideas or inspiration coming. And I've got yet another bollocking for complaining here, but seeing if I can analyse it am basically who I am, and however much I am stretched will nearly always snap back to usual unless I'm actually broken. I grow by learning, not by changing. I don't change really, unless I lose something and that's shrinking. But growing? The only growth I know is spiritual growth, and rather than piddle about with small changes in your reactions and habits etc you transcend the lot and meditate. If I learnt to meditate and didn't then I'd deserve a bollocking but in 37 years (the age when I learnt) I'd never found anything else that did a thing really in comparison. So although I'...
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Is Al Gore Nigerian?
2010-09-30 03:09:00
No one wants to know, but as it rained all day today I had one work call, streetviewed for hours (one old no through road discovered, same as 20 others I already have), cleared lots of old messages and replied to comments, and did another piece for Youtube as well as watching lots of videos there. I'll get the food tomorrow now, it wasn't urgent and more something to do than needed although it soon will be. I hope I can get hold of the new UFO magazine tomorrow as due out, I have to phone a few shops first as no idea who has it locally, and get the other shopping done wherever I do if I can. I don't mind one day in a week but more than that you run out of material as you'd expect. I'll also be interested to see what the earwax drops do as I've never needed them before. It is the little things...I get regular Herberts dropping in telling me science has already established global warming is man made so why do I tell people it isn't, as I doubt any of them are the very people wh...
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Out of school
2010-09-29 01:49:00
Oy a broch, he's back, and fully medicated. I got the thumbs up from the doctor in around three minutes flat, a possible record of efficiency and can now get my botty tablets from the chemist as well which saves a prescription. I'm now free to do basically sod all, get my food tomorrow and possibly an eye test if he's free. I hope I can actually get my magazine article the following day, I've no idea who sells it round here without a number of phone calls and not sure if it's being posted to me either. The shops I checked hadn't heard of it so not that simple.So I'm a free man (as far as that goes) for now anyway. No plans, no ideas, inspiration or otherwise, and that's about it. There are more global warming graphs for the files and nothing less than a worldwide fraud which is impossible to hide for long as the graphs clearly vary from the alternative data. Climategate was the only thing that lost them a few supporters, as worse than realising your rulers are crooks, no one...
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Getting nowhere?
2010-09-28 01:35:00
I'm at such a loose end at the moment I've almost become circumcised again had it been possible. I've done a bit of work so able to pay the bills for a few more weeks and precious little else. I found yet another before and after temperature chart, this time the whole USA showing they've swapped cooling for warming figures with no shame at all. But we know and that's the biggest shame of all. Their wig, false teeth and eyelashes and padded bras have fallen off and we see the pathetic dying joke that global warming truly is.My other inner life is as quiet as the outer at the moment, although I know something out there can communicate and arrange my life it still leaves me to it most of the time and not conscious of anything there as if there never had been. Just staying out of trouble is a start but must be more than that to actually enjoy life. My research areas- ufos, psychic and the like haven't really produced a lot besides the guidance I mentioned over a year ago now which...

Space, the big picture.
2010-09-27 02:29:00
Let's try Firefox- yes, the theory holds. The fonts are arguing with IE.Anyway, my current phase is filling space. I've been given plenty of it as if I need to learn to do more or get totally bored. Edgar Cayce said you have to make the first move before the world follows earlier today in a book I randomly picked up- they usually answer my questions and shows something is controlling at least the parts that appear to be controlled. I watch the world outside do the same irrelevant things it always has- friends with problems, lunatics becoming elected leaders, celebrities doing stupid things and politicians lying. I can't get anything out of the outside world when all it does is imitate a bad evening on Channel 4. The first step I felt needed taking was to get a more suitable woman than the one who won't. I don't want a woman who won't, whether she wants to marry me or is the most attractive woman in the world. I want a woman who is attractive, does and couldn't care less about...
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Guidance and bugger all else
2010-09-25 01:38:00
I think Firefox will probably get the fonts working here, it's always IE's fault when features are disabled. Not now though. Two halves today, real life (oh dear) and higher stuff. Although I'm close to my publication day it doesn't make anything different at the sharp end, and although I've done plenty this week I ran out by today. There's a pile of very hard maths I can't do on the global warming work, which is how they've managed to catch people for so long. The raw data has in fact been hidden in many cases simply as the variation between that and the hockey sticks they turn out like dogs squatting in the park would have them all locked up for fraud.I have no other plans, a doctor's appointment at last next week (no quick appointments now the law's changed) and that's it. It gets boring so I get bored, not exactly complicated.On the other side I did think that since I've been getting all sorts of information in my dreams- names, places and music then someone had to k...

Caught between a stool and another stool
2010-09-21 20:25:00
I've just tried the fonts after noticing they all looked the same and turned out they haven't been working for months. Very odd. Blogger support isn't worth the days involved but at least I know why not.I've been doing a little more than usual, although the peak of the work has only been booking a doctor's appointment before the tablets run out. For almost 15 years they only booked the next day as although it was the law many didn't follow it. Now it's been dropped it was a week. Surely if they can make it the next day when forced they can full stop. Stupid buggers. I've done the front garden for possibly the last time since spring, finished my supermarket vouchers and dropped more stuff off at a charity shop. I've got a visitor tomorrow so covered and won't think beyond.The good news (it does happen) is my first publicly published article should be out next week, I'll put up a link when it does but that's another step along the career ladder after 9 years of ufo investi...
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The nature of God
2010-09-18 01:07:00
As requested by Roger, my current knowledge on god. I am no believer but suspect there may be something quite different behind the religious view. But for everyday life something few have thought of- 'who cares?'. Everything is exactly as it is. If god exists it's a bloody mess, if not then that's random and as you'd expect a mix of the best and the worst and everything else in between. But if god made it then so what? It's just the same however it came about.Religion however is manmade. Does anyone who's followed their rules for a lifetime done better than those who haven't? I don't think so. It's made some quite normal people do some very bad things however and believe we could all do far better without any at all.But there are areas we can't explain. Our senses only go so far, as do scientific instruments. If you can't see it or measure it today doesn't mean it's not there. I did just read something by the German Abd-Ru-Shin written almost 100 years ago saying god w...
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My guardian angel
2010-09-17 00:29:00
So who thinks we have a guardian angel? And who would like one? And if we do then how do we still manage to get in so much trouble? Good question.Anyway, I often find that if I have a subject (and often when I don't) I start writing about something and the information just comes to me. I've barely ever paused on any of my writing since I no longer needed it to be marked, and rarely had to edit anything for publication or had it edited (although the bad ones grammar wise do need eviscerating by me first but can usually spot them before they get sent away). Conversations with God is written that way, half anyhow (that's the God bit), as many others claim. It's God's own job to justify some statements when apparently written for me, and just have to be patient and hope the proof comes out somewhere else later, although I'm usually quite confident it's correct regardless.Maybe we have to show we can look after ourselves before it starts happening? Tough love? I certainly only sta...
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Living in my fantasies
2010-09-15 03:40:00
I think I'll stay in fantasy today. There are two worlds, that of our wishes and that of our lives, and there is a small overlap where the two coincide. There are a few details added, that being happy is more important than the details and that we don't know in advance how many wishes will make us happy, but if it makes us happy imagining them we tend to be on the right track.I'd start with women, the Venn diagram there is abysmal, Two circles of who wants who, roughly equal sizes at least but a very small intersection after nearly 40 years of dating. Then there's the media career, and would like a programme of mine on terrestrial TV and an article in a national paper. I've been close already and quite possible however slight. Then any actual good news or even miracles. Those are by grace, or maybe from things we did long ago which appeared to have no result but has been delayed for later. I've missed or lost many valuable things so to have a second chance for any would feel l...
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Back to me
2010-09-14 02:40:00
I may be busy on the global warming project, but still have my philosophy working and observing. All the division between people is based mainly on misunderstanding, as well as greed where those either want what they don't have to be shared with them, or want it for other people who haven't asked them to work for them. In the end we all need the same things, and want more or less the same things albeit from many different ways. But people focus on the differences, see others as not like them and fight them as they aren't. I may as well use global warming as a good example as any, if there was global warming we'd have to deal with the consequences. Trying to learn the causes is one thing, but trying to prevent it before we know and before it's happened isn't going to change anything besides what they've done to our world through their policies.But we all want to avoid disaster, but some have less understanding of our limitations, more so even less understanding of what a disas...
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How they do the warming trick
2010-09-13 22:17:00
I think I'm getting there. The official figures say double CO2 from around 300ppm to 600ppm and you'll get a 1'C rise, then subject to positive feedback which could be as high as 6.5' at the top estimate. On paper the first figure would work as is the same as filling a greenhouse with CO2 and doubling it, and then extending that to the atmosphere. They even added that every other factor is irrelevant as the CO2 automatically raises the temperature by an exact base figure per amount increase.This is a pretty clear equation even I have trouble disputing. But as I could see from such a simple (and purely hypothetical mental wank by statisticians and climatologists) formula so much more had been assumed I had to look into it further. Not being qualified in any area beyond O level, although I took (and passed) one maths/stats unit at degree level, I was no better at deciphering the following studies than anyone else, but had to try.What I found may well explain how they can start (as...
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Still very quiet here
2010-09-10 02:16:00
I can now announce I am officially working as a global warming (skeptic) volunteer, and hope to get whatever messages we have across in an organised way and with science and truth on our side. Basically even if their story was true it would only mean 1) our mean temperature has crept up a little in a century as it was expected to anyway 2) we really have no idea what it will be in 10-20 or 100 years whatever they try and tell you- some officials have said it is more likely to cool for 20-30 years while others say the opposite, and they are working for the same side. 3) As these two issues are the present situation then as nothing is actually wrong then any measures made to restrict people's freedoms and raise taxes is illegitimate and basically criminal.So that is a new project and one with a great value even to the believers, as if we win the day they will as well, as no one actually wants power cuts, and a wood fire puts as many particles in the air in a day than a car does in a ...

Working with paranoiacs
2010-09-09 00:57:00
If I was in the gym now I'd say I'd hit a plateau. I got a load done yesterday- all important stuff here, haircut, house insurance negotiations (hundreds of pounds involved in a single call), shopping and the usual networking, and totally run out of steam now. I went on a dodgy local photo trip today, it poured the minute I left and then the phone went and was kept on all the way there and back, the house I wanted to take had been rebuilt like a prison and took a wrong turn and sat in traffic for nothing.I am however now pretty much officially a global warming campaigner, I am not the only one organising a coordinated effort and the main point of mine was to get everyone working together, which has now begun happening. The fact people are dying of cold and starvation from the low carbon economy (read pre-industrial, with extra taxes) is enough for me to work at it regardless of the insults I get daily, as they are simply wrong in any way you look at it and currently literally gett...

Why are people left wing?
2010-09-07 01:20:00
Peter Hitchens said in yesterday's Mail that the left are "Pro EU, pro PC, anti Israel and fanatically believe in global warming". He summed it up pretty well for me, and while noting this for the future, my only comment was "Yes they do, but why?". I think I'll do an essay on this actually as have roughly in the past, but he's tied it down very well. It's actually saying they want powerful and unaccountable government (EU) lack of freedom of speech (PC) anti Jewish and gullible. In the same people. Feh!As we all the want same things ultimately- food, comfort, friends and family etc, why would we then not just try and deny other pleasure to not just other people but ultimately themselves? Do they really want to live with power rationing, unelected politicians, Jews wandering the world whenever their country decides to expel them (currently being persecuted in ex-Soviet Union, as if that gets reported), being prosecuted or sacked for calling someone a spastic (not because they'r...
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Getting the point
2010-09-03 02:22:00
Firstly an update on my advice to change. It takes general advice some time to sink in but it usually does, and having looked at my situation firstly I realised you only work on one area at a time, and that area has to be finding a local friend. In the past I'd never needed to actively look for a friend as they were around all my life, so no idea how it'll happen, but I've aimed in that direction and will see what follows.Otherwise I've seen the not a date woman again, and sadly unless her mental issues are sorted out (unlikely after 20 years) we're both buggered as she won't be any use to herself or any man if she's constantly being persecuted in her mind. At least I know but typical of how only the damaged goods remain, while the others have a three day window or so when they're single once in a blue moon and then taken again. That's like winning the pools (who remembers them?) so not really within consideration.So there's really no system as yet, but as I've discovered...
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Seeing the obvious?
2010-09-02 01:58:00
In one of the few private sessions I had with a teacher he told me to see life as a soap opera. Not very profound I thought, but maybe did mean to watch it all as an observer as there's nothing I can do to change it as it's been written already. It does seem that way sometimes. With my clients with actual outside problems like illness, bereavement or disability which aren't of their own creation in any way it's a different ballgame from the usual confused ones. They are routine, but for people who can't change anything firstly few actually see them as an issue as most people accept their situation automatically. They go off on other tangents which I can work with, but if was just their fixed part could only say to do what they are able to, not focus on the problem, think of any activity they may have missed and try and lighten the situation in any way I can.So for my own situation if I had someone else with it I could only check those points and do little more. I can't cure th...
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No change
2010-08-31 01:45:00
Having had time to think about it, I think people learn new tricks but don't actually change. They can try, discover a particular fault and work to fix it, but sooner or later the rubber will bounce back as that's who we are. We didn't choose it, we didn't design it and it's not our job to do any more than manage the worst of it through tricks. We can't change the feelings which drive these acts, just not act on them. That's who we are. I feel the same now as I first remember nearly 50 years ago. That's me, I feel like me and I always have. I've tested it on me, I've tested it on others and I don't think it's fair or realistic to expect anyone to become different other than by maturing and not acting on their lower drives.So I'm happy to drop the bugs but they're not changing me, they're just spotting mistakes and correcting them. I'm no different, and my reactions are no different from trying to change what's happening in a TV programme we're watching. That script...
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Updating time
2008-12-26 02:36:00
Not here for a while as I've found a new albeit short lived hobby. I hadn't been able to collect train tickets since the last small ones stopped in 1996 and besides taking photos didn't have actual items to collect besides model cars which cost a fortune and take up room. But when I found the pre-1963 signs we still have some of in London had been slowly vanishing recently I realised I had to get pictures of every one I could as the government are the enemy. I've spent the time at home researching locations and of course each lot I get is a bit further away so did 60 miles altogether on Friday for the cause. I think they've run out but each day I find another so far and long may it last.The two women who called me on Friends Reunited are around, one not since then but the other (married...) is back and really wonder how I get the unattainable ones like her although I am well aware marriage in itself is not always a barrier to availability, but usually is to me. And I have looke...
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Keeping busy again
2008-12-17 23:17:00
Before I get into my stuff I just heard the latest unemployment figures on the news. Up of course as you'd expect. Now coinciding with the new blitz on benefit claimants, the government have declared war. Not only have they attacked those least able to defend themselves, the sick and incapable, they have done it when the job market is shrinkig drastically. I don't like revenge but believe if someone has to suffer what they do to others it is more like a lesson, or karma. So if Gordon Brown got kicked out, had a breakdown and then had to do tests written by him to claim benefits he may realise what he's actually done. And he knows what he can do with the 2.5% (temporary) VAT decrease. We are being run by heartless sods of all colours politically and would be far better off without them at all. Except possibly Boris Johnson who is moving towards the decent side. There's always one in every pack thank goodness.I've been chasing up old road signs over a week now, and got 30 differe...
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Old road sign collections
2008-12-08 23:08:00
Willesden Lane signOriginally uploaded by satguru.I have been tracking down and taking these pre 1963 signs as my latest project before they all go, which has provided a fascinating lesson into road history and geography as a result. In 1963 these were replaced by the new ones designed by Worboys, but I remember them as the norm well into the 70s and plenty still exist. In 1994 the local ones which had blue edges became black and strangely fewer exist and are filthy as you can see.I also saw my second red triangle sign and forgot where, the first being on the corner of my old road and pretty sure I forgot to take it, and also forgot where the new one was although have a vague idea. I'll have to wait a week as it was in Surrey. I've got quite a collection now and half aren't on any other sites either.In other business after being discredited last week, EON UK announced they couldn't drop prices when wholesale energy went down as the government forced them to spend it on fucking w...
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Friends old and new.
2008-12-04 00:30:00
I'm still working my way round new scenes, a park nearby I saw online on Monday for the first time was the venue for yesterday and a bus in Southgate today. I've had two bunches of calls for work enquiries and one actually booked and he hasn't called since. I had a set of accounts to do over the weekend so slightly busier on the work front but that pays peanuts. But better than nothing. I've continued sending messages to people with a complete lack of results, fancy that. I can't find the list of women I was going to try on the dating site (usual occurence here) but keep looking for new ones. You never know. Just for the curious the main focus of my own social life for years now has literally been the YMCA. It took (like most places here) ages before I even spoke to anyone in the gym where I spend most of the time, the cafe everyone keeps to themselves and at least they've had the odd party there where I chatted to one woman and danced with another older than my mother (appare...
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