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Updating time
2008-12-26 02:36:00
Not here for a while as I've found a new albeit short lived hobby. I hadn't been able to collect train tickets since the last small ones stopped in 1996 and besides taking photos didn't have actual items to collect besides model cars which cost a fortune and take up room. But when I found the pre-1963 signs we still have some of in London had been slowly vanishing recently I realised I had to get pictures of every one I could as the government are the enemy. I've spent the time at home researching locations and of course each lot I get is a bit further away so did 60 miles altogether on Friday for the cause. I think they've run out but each day I find another so far and long may it last.The two women who called me on Friends Reunited are around, one not since then but the other (married...) is back and really wonder how I get the unattainable ones like her although I am well aware marriage in itself is not always a barrier to availability, but usually is to me. And I have looke...
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Keeping busy again
2008-12-17 23:17:00
Before I get into my stuff I just heard the latest unemployment figures on the news. Up of course as you'd expect. Now coinciding with the new blitz on benefit claimants, the government have declared war. Not only have they attacked those least able to defend themselves, the sick and incapable, they have done it when the job market is shrinkig drastically. I don't like revenge but believe if someone has to suffer what they do to others it is more like a lesson, or karma. So if Gordon Brown got kicked out, had a breakdown and then had to do tests written by him to claim benefits he may realise what he's actually done. And he knows what he can do with the 2.5% (temporary) VAT decrease. We are being run by heartless sods of all colours politically and would be far better off without them at all. Except possibly Boris Johnson who is moving towards the decent side. There's always one in every pack thank goodness.I've been chasing up old road signs over a week now, and got 30 differe...
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Old road sign collections
2008-12-08 23:08:00
Willesden Lane signOriginally uploaded by satguru.I have been tracking down and taking these pre 1963 signs as my latest project before they all go, which has provided a fascinating lesson into road history and geography as a result. In 1963 these were replaced by the new ones designed by Worboys, but I remember them as the norm well into the 70s and plenty still exist. In 1994 the local ones which had blue edges became black and strangely fewer exist and are filthy as you can see.I also saw my second red triangle sign and forgot where, the first being on the corner of my old road and pretty sure I forgot to take it, and also forgot where the new one was although have a vague idea. I'll have to wait a week as it was in Surrey. I've got quite a collection now and half aren't on any other sites either.In other business after being discredited last week, EON UK announced they couldn't drop prices when wholesale energy went down as the government forced them to spend it on fucking w...
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Friends old and new.
2008-12-04 00:30:00
I'm still working my way round new scenes, a park nearby I saw online on Monday for the first time was the venue for yesterday and a bus in Southgate today. I've had two bunches of calls for work enquiries and one actually booked and he hasn't called since. I had a set of accounts to do over the weekend so slightly busier on the work front but that pays peanuts. But better than nothing. I've continued sending messages to people with a complete lack of results, fancy that. I can't find the list of women I was going to try on the dating site (usual occurence here) but keep looking for new ones. You never know. Just for the curious the main focus of my own social life for years now has literally been the YMCA. It took (like most places here) ages before I even spoke to anyone in the gym where I spend most of the time, the cafe everyone keeps to themselves and at least they've had the odd party there where I chatted to one woman and danced with another older than my mother (appare...
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It's Monday again
2008-12-01 22:47:00
Besides a slow but steady stream of facts about global warming (there isn't any), nothing much has happened for a while. In fact the whole year has been the year of non events and disappointments. No new media work, most emails ignored and hardly any other work (that is expendable though due to certain legal restrictions). I really see a war between good and evil, or truth and lies in this global warming bullshit. The two sides provide opposite data, but both can't be right. The actual climate is shit as usul and 40,000 people in this country are expected to die this winter from the cold (they don't usually die from heat) this year and they want us to try and stop it getting less cold (like it was actually possible). But the fact the truth has to win as it displaces lies, like CO2 displaces water vapour, means they can't keep it up for ever but they'll bloody well try.My plans for the week run out after tomorrow. Nothing besides putting stuff in my new (old) desk, finishing the...
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Life playing God
2008-11-27 03:24:00
I've been unusually busy today. Wednesdays are usually free as today was, and having shlepped to Wood Green yesterday (it's a shlep from even a mile away) didn't have to go anywhere special today if at all. As it was it was sunny so went to Kensal Rise nearby for another bus photo, and with my stool got over another railway bridge to see the view from there. Then shopping in Golders Green to return home to clear an old set of drawers in readiness for a desk I'm being given on Friday. One whole box of crap now binned I'm glad to say. Then I fixed my bike tyre (as not a puncture) and went to the supermarket with a hard back tyre for the first time in weeks.I've started sending the NASA global warming (negative) findings out already, first to a local MP and called the radio but didn't get on. If we don't spread this data when we find it people will assume it isn't there. The BBC or regular papers all steered clear of this bombshell at the time and I was very lucky to find the ...
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Where's heaven?
2008-11-26 01:25:00
Well I've managed to keep on my travels, driven by the desire to collect, this time bus numbers. Not my idea but a logical one to get a photo of them all. After 3 years on the road with a digital camera and no holidays or interest in them I need places to keep taking them. I got a good bunch today anyway so used the short period of time the light was there when I could.I was also sent a link to 'The Australian' newspaper, that mentioned back in March that NASA discovered water vapour reduces as CO2 increases, cancelling out its effects. That got reported and responded to widely didn't it. My arse. Yet again it's me and anyone who can be bothered to join me who will be reporting this. Can you imagine the left wing Arab loving BBC announcing this on the 10 O'Clock news as a headline? "NASA discover CO2 in the atmosphere is cancelled by falling water vapour?". The fact it's true and fucks up the total basis of man made emissions causing global warming (which stopped in 1998, muc...
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Have I got anywhere?
2008-11-22 01:21:00
Being on a hamster wheel means you do a lot but get nowhere. OK, I have helped a couple of others this week which counted for them, but my own activities just provided more photos of new bus routes and stations. I may well advertise for a woman again, having realised I can specify where I want to go out as well as who I want. You get replies from people who are interested anyway, not who you want. Just say nothing about them as people from around the world will reply regardless as well as all ages and other variations. You just eliminate all the dross first time round and then deal with what's left. Internet ads don't work for men, and newspaper ones vary depending where you advertise, but can produce a flood of calls. None got me anyone but spend days on the phone saying the same things to each person, met one I liked first, saw her again, got dumped and as the others weren't as nice let them go.I will mention I'm not reading as many blogs as I used to for one main reason, as s...

Various points
2008-11-18 01:15:00
Nothing known to report really, but one point is I've worked out here from presenting my ideas and the feedback that there is nothing wrong with my sanity. Different, yes. Insane, no. Just too sensitive, but that's hardly grounds for certification. That out of the way, what else?I have certainly had to live within the clear boundaries of the mediocre and mundane. All around the middle, no highs. None. Not for ages. So of course if people can tell then that's the reason why. Less than anyone's fair share. And whatever work I'm not doing now to 'earn it' (old and wrong idea for a start) I have in the past and built up plenty of credit if that scenario was true. I may try another ad for a woman, purely as I will also list my own limitations so it doesn't create a problem waiting to happen. Restaurants are compared to torture chambers and cinemas being buried alive. I have been hundreds of times but have lost the will for some time. Partly I did all this so much (although never ...
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Filling the space
2008-11-12 02:11:00
The obvious subject is what I've been doing but it is such a routine I ought to just say 'see last week' etc. The details of what I'm now doing will sound so trivial I may as well pass over them and see what else can be extracted from a mind which has been emptied of material over the period of writing here, and has apparently not changed, at least not from this side. Not that anyone else does very often, but I do work on it for various reasons and for the critics who would like to see changes will add these are for how I feel, not for how it is presented to others. That suits me fine and people who don't like it just don't like me.I've been reading more channeled material now I've got the website, and sadly how both the readers and producer of this and nearly all other channeling I've read don't spot they are actually saying nothing new and often nothing at all I'll never know. Having said that the only exceptions so far are my own alien abductees as they give solid fact...
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Not quite lost for words
2008-11-10 00:14:00
Looking back on the week it was really the next of many of keeping busy. I keep busy but get nothing really. More photos, more messages left and not a single reply. I suppose I can keep this routine up indefinitely, but is only filling time. And it only takes one person to fix it. I keep being reminded that of course you can't rely on the world outside for anything, which forced me on the spiritual path, but there is a long, possible never ending overlap between starting it and being it, and in that time of course you know the nature of the outside world but are still affected by it. Not a good formula.I don't really dare to mention plans for next week as it may make people feel the same as it does actually being there. I found the London Bus group is waiting for a bus near me I didn't have or even know existed, so will be waiting around, probably in the rain, in Wembley until either I see it or get fed up. When all else runs out I'll be checking up on my little business items t...
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Digging into the past
2008-11-07 23:57:00
Well the week was making the best of my own imagination. I looked at a map to see various new geographic features for photos and have a list that should take a while to get through now despite getting dark at 4pm for the next 4 months. The phase of being ignored has reached new levels, there's now the TV producer (bit of a waste of space from what I've seen), journalist (no power even if she liked my material), two women (no comment needed) and any other bastard I've forgotten including the twat who booked an appointment and made me sit on my tuchus all afternoon waiting for them to arrive. As it's a personal contact a bollocking is in line.The most basic skeleton is in place to keep occupied for the week ahead, the photo calls I haven't made yet, a check on my business cards usage and the photo list. Plenty more paperwork if it's raining as well. Dull but for anyone within a family a pretty easy life. But alone is just killing time. Again my clients have deserted me after a w...
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We get what is given
2008-11-05 01:38:00
There are two possibilities. Either things get better or they don't. I keep busy regardless but will always know what I'm missing especially as I've experienced enough to know the difference. But all the activity won't change the outside decisions. I asked someone else from the past to meet me a couple of days ago, despite the distance, just in case. Otherwise it's like waiting for the rain to come. You can play video games, watch TV, wander around but it doesn't change the lack of rain.Meanwhile life goes on. My own philosophy seems to simplify life more and more as it is really simply a method of trying to get as much pleasure from our time here as possible. The problems arise when something or someone tries to stop them, or they are sabotaged by circumstances like illness. It's not easy. But the cack so many people let ruin their lives will never cease to amaze me. There are so many spoiled children out there that don't just get free ice cream but scream the house down as...

A week's rubbish
2008-11-02 01:44:00
I am beginning to wonder if my 'outer' life (as opposed to my spiritual inner) is ever going to produce any more than neutral again. I sent out some more reminders yesterday which will no doubt fall on deaf ears but if I do nothing people will just say (as many do) it's my own fault. But either way nothing will happen but at least it feels like I've done my best if I follow up every possibility anyhow. And that includes the area of women, I can't even think of anyone dodgy who's available any more, and as I won't pay for it am at a loss for where the next experience there is coming from. Quality aside I've always got something regularly and the last supply stopped and even that is now producing a lack of service.At least I've trained myself not to look ahead now, if something needs doing it goes on the list but I don't think to what I'll be doing any further than the next day now as it takes care of itself. Knowing that I know there's enough available to do on my own eve...
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Principles of enlightenment
2008-10-29 00:35:00
Having finally understood enlightenment I've done a video explaining its nature as learnt from Sage Amrit on Youtube. Here are the principles which led me to follow all the meanings the teachers use but are rarely clear or complete.1) You do need to work at it. Take a practice from a teacher and stick with it. The few who become enlightened automatically are saints and an exception. Most involve focusing on the present, and I describe these in the video.2) It usually starts to show gradual results, few go from nothing to all suddenly.3) Just because we are told the world is a dream or illusion that only applies after you're enlightened. Until then it's damn real and we have to deal with it.4) Enlightenment is of two parts. One is dropping the ego, that which tells us we are a person who is separate from everything else. This is done indirectly through practice. When this happens, then the calm, peace, bliss etc comes with it. If it doesn't you're probably not there yet.5) You c...
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People, throw away your beliefs!
2008-10-28 01:16:00
Having a bit more time than usual I return here. I've spent the last couple of days filling the last spaces on my London Transport groups for Flickr round Barnes and Ealing, added a little more to the weights in the gym after nearly 6 years next month, and that's about it. I know my email target is busy so is likely to reply when she has the time, very hard working and kids. My cat was enough for me with no help. This week having checked the website will try and sell a few more photo albums now I see they haven't deleted them (my property I PAID FOR) from their website as expected. Flickr and here (which is free) never need to clear space by deleting stuff (and what would it do for visitors?) so why should a commercial site where people store their work to be printed by them? More unanswered questions of life.I still imagine the chances of anything nice happening to cheer me up (life has becime incredibly boring) almost zero now, having seen more projects die this year than possi...
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Passing through the vacuum
2008-10-27 00:17:00
If there is a message in my life somewhere it's incredibly well hidden. Even dreams of better places and things just return me back to normal after I wake up. Taking the risk she may even read this (not sure how but this is the internet) I am hoping for a reply from one of the few people like those I meet in my dreams, distant and unavailable but in contact. There's no shortage of right people for us, just ones who are interested. I'd marry at least 50 women I know, probably many more. Not because I compromise in any way but I just have learnt what I'm looking for and they all have it. There is a hierarchy of course, but doubt I'd mind if I had any of them and not another.So if I look for a message all I can currently see is being poked towards enlightenment, which means equally being poked away from caring about what goes on in real life as whatever happens here is irrelevant to that. But even within the teaching until you get there you still suffer down here. That is heaven a...
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Detritus for the day
2008-10-24 02:36:00
I've been working my way through the map for new photo locations each day, and beyond that it's like the Twilight Zone where the rest of the world has frozen. I will say despite the standard 'different country and taken' scenario, an ex from schooldays has proved even better than she was back then, and if no more an inspiration to what I need now. In reality after a while I forget what women are for besides the obvious as lack of contact means the memory fades and just have to assume having a girlfriend was better than not, without actually being able to relate to it any more. She has just about reminded me as with so many others having turned nasty over the years (I tend to search them out from time to time as it keeps me occupied) she has done the opposite, and gone from being bloody good to even better than bloody good. Knowing more or less exactly who suits me by now she would probably have all that it takes to cover all the areas, and can't be the only one like that can sh...

Stream of consciousness time
2008-10-23 01:58:00
Well the mind wanders and however it does sometimes thinks of something new to dig up. I just made a list of every decent verse from the diarrhea song from many contributors, as many are made up you have to sort the wheat from the chaff, figuratively speaking. I nearly posted it all here but will save that for when I've got absolutely nothing to write, besides 'It's brown and it's mushy and it squirts out your tushy, diarrhea, diarrhea'. I'm quite sure Shakespeare would have used it in King Lear (or Richard III of course) had it been around at the time. A horse a horse my kingdom for a horse. It dribbles on your feet when you're running down the street. You get the picture.Anyway, from one of my favourite subjects to real life. Plenty of shit there of course but when it's your own carpet the joke doesn't happen. I think had I been in a different situation now (and had better health but the two probably go together) I'd have a pretty good life, had I been free and unobligat...
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Little more
2008-10-21 01:51:00
Just to clarify yesterday (as I did to the comments as well) I still have a few friends, but either away, busy or both plus one I talk to but never see any more. The effect is similar but the people do exist.Back to today, one thing I have at the moment is free time, one reason I'm here more as well. They don't charge or limit what we write here so why should I be restricted? I was reading a book yesterday that says we should find just one thing in life we can do something to change and give it a little poke. If I can think of anything I will, although in the way of publicity any more would either just irritate people or make an idiot of myself (no comments on that thank you).I still chase women from my past, and that can work as I see around me. I'm slowly collecting TV programmes from the 60s and 70s although many were destroyed before anyone could save them, no VCRs back then. There are a few major gaps I haven't tracked down yet but filled quite a few as well, including in c...

The world today
2008-10-20 02:42:00
One question that comes to mind at the moment, am I getting anywhere? In what I call duality, ie the world before enlightenment where everything is real despite being told it's not, sod all. Absolutely zero. Every plan this year has ended up in landfill, women, media work and any other plan that could have improved my life had it actually happened.Thank goodness outside duality my own inner work as been shifted as there is now no mental blockage to enlightenment. I'm even noticing little things for the first time since I began this path in 1997 and know they are signs something in there probably is happening. But until and unless it keeps doing so I'm still in this world and would like it to provide some more than there currently is.I've got nothing left in the way of work or social projects, the last lot delivered what they did and that's it. Some of the old ones will crawl on, like selling a few more photobooks and postcards, but they are at a loss more or less and won't get...
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Plans needed now
2008-10-18 03:16:00
Another week has passed, or passed away, I'm not sure yet. Routine is the word, and the high spot was probably when a door to door hawker came today trying to sell me Sky TV and was not only honest but I was on the verge of asking her out. A few more minutes and I would have but she won't be back so too late. It does show how people come to us though if nothing else, just like my late pussycat did in 1999. I have ticked off a series of jobs, I cleared my whole laundry basket for the first time since I had it, bought a week's food, got my postcards back they didn't want, got my 2nd excerpt from Mystery Hunters online at last although with a logo in it, filled in some official forms for a job I did, as well as the usual photos and family visits.I see a path ahead where this happens endlessly, killing time and just doing what I either have to do or can think of to occupy myself. I reject as many people as reject me as we all find some people more trouble than no one at all. I may h...
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A threadworm of hope
2008-10-15 01:52:00
OK, we're all back to normal again. Although the 14th October ufo had 'cack' written through it like a stick of rock, all the other disappointments in my recent life all had a chance of actually happening, some almost changing my life as much as a real ufo sighting would have.There has been: New girlfriend of one date replacing me for ex. Ex girlfriend still interested decades later drops me like a handful of worms. The Sun interview me for an article they didn't use (possibly only chance to reach big time). Two people refuse to appear in latest TV programme delayed 3 years already. No record of my IQ test now Mensa accept outside ones.There are more, and a few that actually worked but not much for a while, but with such a list wouldn't anyone get an attitude?So life is ordinary. Very ordinary. My purpose in life is taking bus numbers for a photo pool, helping a few people at work and in my family and blogging. In case it goes over a few heads much of these blogs is intended as...
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A thread of hope
2008-10-14 03:09:00
I've had a really boring last few days and possibly next few and many more ahead. But it's odd that through my voluntary work (ie ufo investigation) I was told about the prediction (due today) about the ufo. Now that itself is BS like all the Nigerian letters offering you 30% of TEN MILLION US$ and variations thereof. But it's given me a lot to read and see the full range of world opinion on such things, and be sent piles of links to similar places. Had I not heard about it I'd have played online trivia and made comments on forums and life would have carried on as it always does. Nothing's happened or will happen but at least I've found some people feel the way about the world that I do. I'm actually far from the only one fed up with watching crap from the outside by the majority, and despite my best efforts to talk it down get not very far.So that at least is heartening. It's not me, the world stinks and needs something to clear it out before we all get swamped by regulatio...
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Intuition, with examples
2008-10-12 22:40:00
Following the last entry I will freely admit I see the supernatural as an escape from the otherwise boring and unfulfilling world. But it does not and has never used predictions and a word of advice to people about the natural and supernatural, don't listen to what people say is going to happen ahead. It's not possible to do so and also takes your eye off the ball in the present. It's a form of mind control like hypnosis that makes you focus on the date or possible future whether you want to or not, the seed has been planted and our minds are designed to accept them despite being poisonous to them.And I don't mean when people can see the end of a current path, like this credit crisis which mirrored history since money was introduced. That's just a bloody obvious equation by offering more than could be returned eventually it would stop flowing back with interest. That is not the same thing.So whatever the present offers I can only live within its limits. Thank goodness the Indep...
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Psychic research review
2008-10-10 02:38:00
I've been busy today (surprise from all around) on many different fronts. Some totally wasted effort, some real work (more surprise but despite no regular job I do some work and always have), and a lot of research. One contact pointed me to another prediction, that the ETs are going to appear in a ship on the 14th of October. Oh dear, not again. These buggers don't give advance warning. No one ever does. 'He shall come as a thief in the night' is thousands of years old and a quote that applies to every major event in the universe. Can you imagine the aliens putting an ad in the Radio Times 'Tuesday October 14th 6pm (GMT) Alien ship arrival in the skies. All channels'. If only. The only interesting part was all satellite images have had a kite shaped area covered up over the Arctic for days as the US Defense department who censor such things have something they don't want us to see.Of course it's actually all the money flowing out of Iceland who have just robbed the world of ...
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Sea level rises, the actual details
2008-10-09 03:57:00
Did you know... Mean sea level has risen 1mm a year since the end of the last ice age. Current measurements have increased to 2-3mm a year. That means (I must use Imperial now as I follow it) in 100 years the maximum level (ie the worst case scenario currently advertised) is a rise of about a foot. Many countries have large areas below sea level already, and with the time to protect or leave, people in both flood plains (ie irresponsible building and planning regulations that allowed it) and in those countries barely above sea level will have to make the inevitable move that had to be done anyway. London, however, the place Al Gore, Tony Blair and George Monbiot (more holes in his articles than Swiss cheese, trust me) love to quote to put the bejasus up you is not 1 foot above sea level, or 2. In fact the banks of the Thames in the centre are all artifical so they could reclaim more land and make it run faster to avoid sewage floating in it (sorry for the graphics but it is my local...
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It's raining so here I am
2008-10-07 17:42:00
I have now found a blog on agoraphobia that describes the whole thing far better than I can so O won't bother trying to describe something that took me over 20 years to understand for people who don't even believe I have it, let alone want to learn more. But however I try and describe it I do know what it is whether or not I can explain it here properly or not. Lynn does it very nicely and corresponds with what I said as well so that can be the source of education following it in its variations from day to day. We are not all housebound or unable to go to the shops but it can sure shit us up when we try.As it's raining I'm not out doing what I do within 'today's boundaries' which is the key phrase. Every day is different and they change like the Polish border. And god help me if anyone wants me to cross them. That's the phobia. It's not mandatory to follow it and do nothing as accused of. Not that I didn't go out today, but no fun or photos and am waiting on a phone call t...
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I'm doing nothing.
2008-10-05 02:28:00
It's odd how keeping a journal focuses you on how little actually happens in a period of time. I'm working my way through the usual process of elimination where I start one project after another, and one by one they either drop off (mostly) or make progress. One high spot is someone says they have tw TV programmes I've been searching for for ages and haven't seen for nearly 40 years. I hope that'll provide a result if no other. Other than that it was the usual out when dry and in when wet, about half and half, and did another video and lots of photos although I always think I've run out of places.All the apparent news stories really mean little besides to those involved, but need bigging up for the media. So Hurricane Ike (not to mention the others) blew 7 types of shit out of Galveston, but as hurricanes do that somewhere every year it didn't end up on our news. The US have bailed out the irresponsible lenders so waste has been rewarded. That's not news, it's fraud. And as...

Nothing left but enlightenment
2008-09-29 18:23:00
Well so far it's a pretty free week ahead, and I've kept busy enough since the plans finally ran out. No more projects or expectations, only the new belief in enlightenment which could cover all other areas if the effort pays off. Everyone I contacted hasn't replied, and the one who may (an official one) was probably sent to the wrong place anyway now I've done my homework. I still have little ideas for afternoons out but no actual projects aiming for success in any area I haven't got already.Not having enough has been the theme of my life really, I've made the list before and really believe compared to maybe 90% of people I've had a raw deal. If you look at the statistics I've lost out nearly every step of the way. OK, since then I've learnt to accept all of them besides being single which feels like a life sentence in solitary, but of course all the rest buggered up my life till I did accept them. They call it a challenge...I genuinely believe I'm not so repellent to bot...
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