I Will Not Eat The DarknessI Will Not Eat The DarknessA personal journal where I bang out the dents in my head. Articles
What Is A Mood Disorder?~The Symptoms of Depression and Mania
2007-01-26 18:03:00 I've decided definitely to start incorporating the posts from my other blog, Humanus Vegetalis, to this blog and just to use this blog for all of my ideas and what not instead of spreading them out. Some people may say that my blog needs one definite subject matter, but I don't see why. I don't remember who said it, but it goes something like this, "Whatever you do, pick one thing and do it well." That's what I intend to do. All of my posts from my other blog will be labeled "Humanis Vegetalis" and all future posts on the subject of Psychology will be labeled as such because I don't want to create, like, a billion different labels for them. With that in mind, here is the first post I made on Humanus Vegetalis:Mood Disorders~The Symptoms of Depression and Mania-DepressionONE:What Is A Mood Disorder?Mood disorders are disturbances in emotions that cause subjective discomfort, hinder a person's ability to function, or both; depression and mania are central to these disorders.A. W... More About: Sion , Order
Happiness Is A Warm Gun
2007-01-25 23:58:00 Bush wants to send more troops to Iraq. Who's going to be killed next? Your son, your neighbor's daughter? My cousin? What about the Iraqis? Which of them will die next? I'm tired of it. I'm sick with it. The whole country is sick with this bullshit. The Iraqis are more than tired of it. They can't do anything but grieve. We can't do anything but grieve either. Bush has infected the whole world with his noxious violent infection. Just STOP.Jesus,George Bush is bathed in blood, he eats it as if it were manna from Heaven, and on the Day when he has to stand before God and give account of what he has done, those myriad of souls who died at his hand will cry out against him.Tori Amos More About: Happiness , Ness
Poetry Thursday
2007-01-25 14:38:00 So, I decided after all to participate in the assignment of this week's Poet ry Thursday . I wrote the poem below first, but it took me a while to figure out "Why I Love Poetry". So here goes nuthin':I don't love poetry. It loves me. It's inside me. In every particle; every atom; every electrical impulse of my brain. It loves me and I can only love it back because, like a symbiont, it lives from me and I live because of it. It opens my eyes; opens my heart; makes me realize myself where otherwise I would walk around my life in a daze of not thinking (kind of like when you're in Wal-Mart and unconsciously buying shit you don't need). It's hard to shake that medicated feeling that society wants us to be in. Poetry keeps me sane and I keep it alive within me by opening my veins and letting it bleed from me.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~SisterMy chest feels so heavy and yet emptyLike you carved a hole in it.You crawled in ten years ago and made your...
I'm Having A Thought
2007-01-24 06:36:00 I know it's unbelievable, but true. I'm thinking of incorporating what I've posted on my Humanis Vegetalis blog onto this blog and just deleting that one because I don't really post in it often enough for it to be helpful to anyone. I could just post that stuff here and add a category or three for those particular posts. I'm not sure, though. I'd like some input. What do you guys think about this idea? More About: Thought , Ving
Cat-O-Nine-Tails
2007-01-20 23:40:00 Sometimes praying to God feels like playing Red Rover.Over The Rhine~Happy To Be SoSally is punishing me for freaking out on her that night right after Christmas. The other day, I went up to where Tanya works and talked with her. At first, she was defensive when I asked her if she'd listened to any of the messages I'd left on her voice mail. It was the I've-been-at-work-I've-been-at-school-I'v e-been-with-my-boyfriend-I-haven't-even-s een-my-mom defense. I listened to her being defensive and I said, "I know you're busy, but I thought you always checked your voice mail." Again with the defenses. She said on that night, even though I didn't speak directly to her on the phone, that what I had said to Sally and then Sally related to Tanya had hurt her feelings. She said that she felt like I had blamed her for my Christmas being so shitty. She then shifted to blaming me for being sick-You-never-want-to-hang-out-with-me-a nd-Sally-you-never-want-to-go-anywhere-yo u've-been-pushing-us... More About: Tail , Tails
Gel Asked For Three Songs
2007-01-19 10:02:00 1.I love these guitars here.I freakin' love this song.These two are the same song. So, listen to the intro and then the song right after.Fleming and John~A Place Called Love-Delusions of Grandeur2.Blue October~Consent To TreatmentBlue October~Conversation Via Radio (Do You Ever Wonder?)3.Susan TedeschiLooking For Answers-Just Won't Burn More About: Songs , Three
Poetry Thursday
2007-01-18 14:12:00 SleepyScarves floating like ghostsTwirling and twirlingtickling my kneessilken pink slippersplaying gypsy dancerGossamer wings to fly and flitpetals waiting on the wind floating softlyfairy boats on the waterdappled sunlight playing warm on white stonesmermaid sunning blue-green wetscalesOphelia's petal hair singing sweetly siren songs of Secret Gardensfollow Robin redbreast to the iron-keyed doorwhere swings are twining vinesswallowed in sweet scentof pollen bees buzzingSlowlyAnd Leprechans have houses of goldwhere the rainbow ends.© Robyn Fenner~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~I decided to copycat from Gel and podcast an audio of myself reading this poem. I'm a bit nervous. My first time and all. I hope it's ok.Be forwarned. I sort of sound like a 12 year old girl. I don't think my voice ever made it to puberty. Anyway, this is the audio recording of the poem I wrote entitled 'Sleepy'.This is where I lived in my mind as a child and even as a teenager. An escape mec... More About: Poetry , Thursday , Poet
Organic Baby
2006-12-08 02:26:00 Because of my Celiac Disease, possible CFS, allergies and other health problems, I started eating organic about 8 years ago. I can't tell you the difference it's made in my overall health. I don't get sick as much and the food tastes better, believe it or not. Plus it's easier for me to find gluten-free things at a place that sells organic food than anywhere else. When I walk into an organic food store, I feel like I've just entered heaven. I can spend hours and hours just looking at all the different foods I've never seen before.I've been thinking that someday I'd like to have a baby and if I did (assuming I was married first-let's not get the cart before the horse here), I'd want to go with all organic baby food, because I'd want my baby to be as healthy as possible. And if, by some unfortunate chance, I passed on some of my health problems to my child, I would be in a perfect position to give him or her the special foods he or she needed in order to remain healthy. I ... More About: Baby , Organic , Organ
m/ m/~~I'm A Rockstar, Baby!
2006-12-05 13:41:00 This is Pete The Pirate (who, by the way, is definitely not wearing ballerina tights. so he says). He's the Director of Coding Stuff at PayPerPost.Here's what Pete's Pals say about him:We quite fancy this British rogue. The only guy we know who can do an 'American' accent while downing pints of lager. We fear he misses his homeland, and is often seen wandering the streets, weeping. I think he just wants bangers and mash, though.He's this month's featured face/employee of PayPerPost's new web reality show, Rock Star tup. The website says that you and I will get to watch these guys go through the process of building up PayPerPost. The good, the bad and the ugly. (Isn't that a Clint Eastwood movie title?) Or maybe the sort-of-good-day-since-I've-had-enough-ca ffeine, the I'm-having-a-bad-day-don't-even-touch-me, and the I-haven't-slept-at-all-and haven't-brushed-my-teeth days. Whatever it is, they say we will get it all. Reality shows make me, for one, feel better about myse... More About: Baby , Rockstar , Rocks
Hope
2006-12-04 22:22:00 If some of you haven't noticed, I've started blogging for PayPerPost. I hope I haven't been too annoying. I know I don't like to watch commercials on tv and these seem like they might be sort of the same thing. I've been trying to make them interesting, though. You know, kind of off-beat. I'm loving PayPerPost because it's so easy for me to write about things. I write. That's what I do. (Well, I can sing pretty well, too, but I'm too shy to put it on here.) Anyway, I'm hoping that writing for PayPerPost is going to let me be able to buy some Christmas presents and maybe to buy books next semester and to help with my tuition. I like it also because they don't tell you exactly what it is that you have to write. They leave it up to you. I mean, they give you guidelines to go buy, but as long as you meet the guidelines, the rest is all you. I like that. I like being paid to post my opinion and to show things on my blog I think are worth showing. I like that the money I earn ... More About: Hope
Area 51 Here I Come!
2006-12-02 22:22:00 Does anyone remember Sea Monkeys? I had those when I was a kid. Begged for them, actually. When I got them, they hatched, but I could barely see them and then they died soon after. What if you could have something like a Sea Monkey, but that didn't die 3 days after you got it and had a computer chip brain and could communicate with a website?The Birth of the Test Tube Alien~Part 1The Birth of the Test Tube Alien~Part 2Evidently,all you have to do is add water to the little aliens, a chrysalis emerges and the moment it hatches, you can go to Alien Adoption World (linked below) and it will start communicating with the website. Y'all know, of course, this is a Japanese invention. Who else but the Japanese could conceive of something like this? Cool yes? Especially if you have kids. (I don't have kids, but it still sounds cool to me. It brings back childhood memories. The good ones.)I swear there is a part of my brain that is still 8 years old. Ok, the technical stuff:Orders placed ... More About: Come , Here , Area , Area 51
Does This Lock Make Me Look Fat?
2006-12-01 06:03:00 This is a fingerprint door-locker. The website says that it will eliminate the problem of lost keys and such. I think that's great, but I'm still sort of wary about technology like this. It seems a bit like Big Brother to me. I like my keys. I like the sound of them. I like carrying them. I don't know why exactly, but I just know that carrying my keys gives me a sense of security. I freak out when I can't find them. I was actually talking to my dad about this very thing the other night. If I go into my purse, when I'm out somewhere, to look for my keys and I can't find them right then, everything has to stop until I do find them. Also, if I look through my purse several times and still can't find them, I panic. I actually have a panic attack. I know it sounds silly, but that's me. I'm weird like that. I have faced down men who have beaten their wives/girlfriends so badly that they need hospitalization, but I freak out when I can't find my keys.I guess having a door lock th... More About: This , Make , Look , Lock
Money Does Grow On Trees, Mom.
2006-11-30 00:01:00 I was trying to think last night, as I was Christmas shopping for Tanya, what exactly is it that I like about the "Holidays", specifically Christmas. Christmas has never been a great time for me. Something always seems to happen that knocks the wind out of me or my legs out from underneath me. I don't know if it's just me that this happens to or if the stars get somehow misaligned at Christmas-time or what. What I do like is giving and receiving gifts. Actually, I like giving more than receiving. I know, I know it's hard to believe and it sounds like I might be lying about myself, but it's true. I'm a sucker for giving people things I think they might like or know that they really want. I love the suspension they get before they open the gift and the smiles afterward. Plus I get hugs, which is a bonus. In my family we draw names at Thanksgiving to see who gets whom a gift. We started (actually I wasn't really part of the starting because I was too young) this as a way of savin... More About: Money , Trees , Tree , Grow , Rees
Snowbird
More articles from this author:2006-11-29 20:17:00 I love to go on vacations. Usually, Sally, Tanya and I go to Florida (Destin) every year and rent a condo. I can't describe how much I love being near the sea and how much I love the smell of the salt air. I would love to have a house right on the beach just so I could go out on my veranda every morning, drink my coffee, breathe in the salt air, watch the waves roll in and be comforted by the ever-present sounds of the ocean. That's my dream. Well, one of them anyway. I've always wanted to go to Hawaii. I even mentioned it to Sally and Tanya a few years ago instead of going to Destin, but I don't think between the three of us that we had enough money. (Poo.) I've been to the Bahamas (that was way back in 1984), but according to what I've heard, Hawaii is totally different from any other place I've been that is bordered by ocean. There are active volcanoes you can go see and the beaches are totally different. When I was younger, I heard a lot about the North Shore because some... More About: Snow , Bird 1, 2, 3, 4 |
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