My Crazy LifeMy Crazy LifeI have CIDP and OCD. This talks about my life and the craziness that comes with it. I love acting! I also am working on becomming a professional actress. I have done a few things in the state I live in.
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SCARED!!
2008-03-18 00:23:00 The last week now I have been getting numbness, burning, and tingling sensations in my feet which seem to not go away. It also moves up my legs and my chest, throat, hands, and my head-these all come and go. My feet are just annoying. Everything else scares me. It seems to be worse when I am freaking out about my life. I worry constantly. I am not sure if it could be a panic attack. However, it More About: Scared
GET SET GO
2008-03-10 04:00:00 I love Get Set Go. They are a band that should be more well known. I stumbled across them in Nov of 2006. I was on I-tunes looking at songs from Grey's Anatomy. Sadly I didn't have enough money to buy the whole album. Anyways I came across their song- "Wait", looked them up on i-tunes and have been hooked ever since. Their lyrics are funny in a messed up sort of way. Oh the irony. Their music is
Sick and tired of feeling sick and tired!
2008-03-04 23:44:00 The title is a cliche'. It is so true though. Yesterday I felt so tired and worn down. I went to class and after awhile my back started killing me and would not go away. I was trying to concentrate on finishing my work, but my back was in so much pain that I had to keep cracking my back which then made me out of breathe and then I feel like I have been run over! I know that if my back was More About: Sick , Feeling , Tired
This video is so funny!
2008-03-03 23:29:00 So after the Oscars last Sunday Jimmy Kimmel was on. Jimmy was so funny. He made a video to get back at his girlfriend and Matt Damon. And now here is the video..... JIMMY KIMMEL-"I'M F*CKING BEN AFFLECK" More About: Video , Funny
IT'S BEEN A WHILE..
2008-03-02 00:10:00 I have been really depressed the last week or so. I took the whole week off from school and just cried basically the whole week. I hate CIDP. I think 17 years is more than long enough. I really want to get better, to get stronger so that I can be INDEPENDENT! I have been researching STEM CELL TRANSPLANTS and it seems like this would be a great option for me. I really want to get this done.
Help?!
2008-02-09 04:28:00 The begining of today was hell. So I went to the shrink. This lady is supposed to be helping me work on myself and my problems. Instead she fishes for information about my family. She's like your late,and your always late. Why? Then she says what seems to be the problem? I was like well my sister, she has been really sick and my mom has been running her from doctor to doctor. That is why
SO VERY FUNNY!
2008-02-04 06:15:00 I love Jimmy Kimmel. I think he is so funny. Anyways, his girlfriend, Sara Silvermen, made a music video for him to celebrate his 5th year being on tv with Matt Damon. I find it pretty damn amusing and thought I would post it in my blog. More About: Funny
Crapage...
2008-01-29 00:16:00 I think it has been a week since I have written in here. Nothing much has happened. Third quarter started and I finished 2 chapters and only have 7 more and then I will have 1 credit and I have 7 wks left. I plan on finishing two books and therefore earning two credits by the end of third quarter. I am going to take two eds tests this quarter as well,and if I pass them both that will give me
MY WEEKEND RAMBLINGS....
2008-01-21 08:26:00 I feel horrible today. Like I have been run over by a truck,bad fatigue. Then there is the fact that my back seems to be killing me more than usual-I firmly believe I have developed a tolerance to tramadol. And that sucks big time. I also have a crap headache. Oh what fun! I feel bad too,cause when I went to sit on my couch I moved my laptop and it's cord knocked down this snowman and well More About: Weekend
BORED,HYPER,AND MORE POINTLESS RAMBLINGS!
2008-01-19 02:50:00 I am really bored today. My sisters and mom left a few hours ago to go to a cheer comp in Indy. I really wanted to go,but we are saving money for a cruise we are all going on in March! Anyways all they are staying at is the Sheraton this time. Last time when I went they stayed at The Omni Severin Hotel and Conference Centre! It was so nice. I loved it. It was also really cool cause my More About: Bored , Hyper , Pointless
A LITTLE ABOUT EVERYTHING
2008-01-18 00:33:00 I am so glad today is my last class for the quarter! I hated environmental science. I just hate it. I have learned nothing. It is trivial crap. She really did not teach either. She would tell us to read a sec,do the questions,and take the test. So boring. I am also pissed because she told us we had to read a sec in the book and then make a poster about it. So,silly me I did it and guess what? No
WISHING I WERE PAINFREE...
2008-01-16 20:31:00 Last night,I could not sleep. It was horrible. I was in so much pain on both sides of my back and I felt like I could not breathe. The pain was that bad. I just kept tossing and turning. I could not take it anymore and I started crying until finally I feel asleep. I think I feel asleep around 3ish in the morning. I woke up at 7:30 in the morning and my back was killing me and I could not More About: Wishing
MISERABLE PART 2!!!
2008-01-16 02:32:00 I am so sick of all of this. All I ever do is cry or think about crying. My mom,dad and sisters do not care. No one does. How many times do I need to tell everyone-I AM DEPRESSED,MAJORLY DEPRESSED!!! If my mom does not call tomorrow,then I guess I will. Only she will probably get mad at me and tell me to shut up and she will call when she is ready. Only I cannot take it anymore. No one More About: Part
Blog Top List
2008-01-16 01:31:00 This site is pretty cool. They will list your blog on their site and in return you put a link to them on your page. It also tracks how many people come to your blog and then if someone likes your blog they can vote for your blog! So if anyone ever does read my blog and you like it,then click on the button that says vote for me. Thanks! More About: Blog , List
Miserable
2008-01-16 00:38:00 I keep feeling like no one cares. I am depressed and miserable and all anyone in my family says is shut up. I keep telling my mom to call the phycologist and she says why? I tell her so I can get on new antidepressants and she says why do you even want them,when you had Cymbalta and I kept begging you to take it you did not want it. I say it did not work cause I was still miserable and
Pain and Misery
2008-01-15 06:44:00 I am really tired of all this shit. I hate having scoliosis. If my orthopedic surgeon will not straighten my back then I will find someone else who will. I cannot live like this my whole life. I have to do something or I will be miserable my whole life! More About: Pain
MY BIRTHDAY!
2008-01-14 03:15:00 Well,as the title implies today is my birthday. I am 21,which sucks. The only good thing is when I go out to eat,I can now order alcoholic drinks. And that really is the only good thing. About three weeks ago,while I was waiting for my food from Bar Louie,this guy who was drunk started talking and told me once you turn 21 it is all down hill from there. Well,I fear he is right. I mean I More About: Birthday
CALIFORNIA PIZZA KITCHEN
2008-01-12 08:41:00 I went to California Pizza Kitchen today. I loved it. I went with my dad and sister and celebrated my birthday early. I love their food. I have a lot of leftovers though. I wanted to make sure I could eat the ice cream that I love before they closed. So I ate double chocolate and pumpkin which was so yummy. So now I have my birthday cake all planed out. Half will be double chocolate and
DEPRESSED AS USUAL!
2008-01-11 02:07:00 I feel like shit. In pain as always. I am so sick of it. I want to have my spine straightened again,and make the pain go away forever! I want to wake up and not be in pain. I want to be able to go to class and not need to keep cracking my back and feeling like I cannot breathe because I am in so much pain. It consumes me. I need stronger drugs. If I were not in pain,I would not be as More About: Depressed
Hellish Yesterday. Funny Today!
2008-01-09 10:00:00 Earlier or should I say yesterday? Okay fine,yesterday. Yesterday was hellish. I am sick of being in pain-back pain is horrible. I am going through 4tramadol a day and I am still in pain and freak out about running out. The last couple of weeks have been horrible pain wise. Yesterday in class I was in so much pain I could not stand it. I just kept cracking my back over my seat and everyone knew. More About: Funny , Today
WHY?
2008-01-09 00:18:00 Like I have said before,nobody gives a damn about me. That I am depressed. That I need new anti-depressants. Does my mom make an appointment? No,all she does is tell me to shut up. That is how everyone in my family is. I hate myself and my life. It is a slow miserable hell,that just keeps getting worse and worse. I just want to escape and not suffer anymore. I hate myself more than
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2008-01-08 10:29:00 My back is killing me. I am soooooooooo tired of this. I need a stronger opiod. I hate this. Nobody even cares. I am watching Intervention. I love that show. The epsiode is about this girl whose 24 and takes lots of pain killers,her family thinks she is a drugie even though she has RA. She is miserable and her family does not even give a damn. I hate people who judge everything. If her
ughh
2008-01-08 07:54:00 I wish I did not suffer. Everyday is hell. I am in horrible pain day in and day out.
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2008-01-07 10:52:00 I cannot sleep. I hate life. It is almost 2am and I am tired,but it will take me hours to get to sleep. I am so miserable. I cannot deal anymore.
CIDP GO AWAY AND SELF PITY!
2008-01-07 03:35:00 So I have been really depressed lately. More so than usual. I do not know what to do. I feel like it is never going to get better. I know I would not be depressed if I were normal. I want to kill CIDP,make it leave my body! I have really been thinking alot lately about doing treatments again for CIDP. Maybe chemo would work. I have read that 5%of people with CIDP go into remission. I want to be More About: Pity
Funny Day
2008-01-06 15:00:00 It was a funny day yesterday and some of today. My sisters,mom,dad and myself went to my dad's friend's house. No,big deal I thought. I went cause my dad's friends' wife makes really good deserts. I love them:) haha.. There were a bunch of people over,dad's friend's wife friends. My sisters,mom,and myself and were eating our great food. Really good. Anyways,so the one lady and alot of More About: Funny
PAIN,AGAIN!
2008-01-05 04:57:00 Well my back is really bad lately. I am in so much pain and I feel like the tramadol is not working very well,if at all. I hate pain. I am to young for this crap. Ahhhhh....I am still really depressed as well. The anti-depressants suck. I need a stronger dose!!! More About: Pain
DEPRESSED!
2008-01-05 01:21:00 I hate life. I hate cidp and I hate being depressed. I cannot deal anymore. I am really sick of it. My anti-depressants are not working and nobody cares. I am depressed all of the time. It is tiring and it sucks. I am worthless. More About: Depressed
LIFE...
More articles from this author:2008-01-04 04:20:00 I hate hate hate my life. When will it ever get better? I am sick and tired of all this crap. The only good thing is class starts Monday,not today. So this was pointless,but whatever I felt like writing something. More About: Life 1, 2 |
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