Unexpected TwistUnexpected TwistTranny Medical Student talks about his life. Poetry and bitching included 
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Turn Around
2007-03-30 10:34:00 Ok, yeah my blog has been really depressing lately. I need to change that. As of now I am going to try to make it more cheerful and positive! Still, there will be the odd venting on here (it's still *my* blog). I do feel I have to appeal to more transguys out there and try to pull them into my site and make a community.Any help from my readers would be good. So, any transguys you know...please tell them about my blog!This way we can create a positive environment for us! More About: Round , Turn
Death
2007-03-24 09:21:00 He's standingOnly just thoughSupported by mere hopes and dreamsThey seem to be fadingDeath haunts himAll he can see is blackNothing seems to be workingIt won't happen on its ownTime to do itThis man is dyingStanding there smilingHe faces his deathHe looks death in the faceLaughsCriesAchesThe pain is getting severeIn cases of severe pain, admit the patient for pain managementNo doctor can hear this manNo doctor can help himHe has to help himselfPick himself upOpen booksFigure things outWith his mind cloudyWith his heart heavyHe must somehow do itAgain....alone
Between The Lines
2007-03-22 13:45:00 Her: God I miss him so much! I hate him...Me: So, in the hospital u have ampules or vials?Her: *with a strange look on her face* Huh? What do you mean?Me: You know, amuples or vials!Her: Yeah but of what??Me: *casually* Testosterone of courseHer: Why do you need Testosterone?Me: To change so I can marry you of course!Her: *laughing* yeah that would be goodMe: No, seriously I need it *thinking to myself she doesn't know how true and desperate this is*Her: Look, If I gave you Testosterone...nothing would happen ok? You're a boy!Me: *laughing but really wanting to cry*We go upstairs, I get hot dogs for us.Me: *in my fave italian accent* You know...I need the T!! THE T!!!Her: *laughing* yeah you need E not T!!Me: NO NOOOO!!! Not the evil E!!! That is my poison you know...Her: You are crazyMe: What to do...it's cos I have no T!! GIMME THE T!!Her: *laughing more*Me: Oh!... *sexy voice* How nice and warm these 2 sausages are..mmmmmHer: *surprised look then laughs*Me: You know...I need ... More About: Between , Line , Lines , Ween
Poll
2007-03-20 19:23:00 Ok heres a question for all the transmen that come to my siteIf when you were a baby you could speak, what would you have said?Now, see where it says comments below this post?Click on it and comment thereYes, anyone can comment even if you aren't a bloggerSo, please do comment! Looking forward to the response.Oh and here is mine "Oh My God! Put me back in! I lost my penis in there!"Have fun! hehe More About: Poll
Soldier
2007-03-17 14:00:00 Today I sit under my coatUnder the rainUnder my lifeI am undergroundTrying to break outClawing desperatelyMoving what suffocates mePushing a breathing tube to the surfaceIt's not enoughHallucinations are happeningA single bottleRight there floating I reach out to grab itBut my hands can't moveStarting to have visions of my deathAn accidentA shootingAll of thisFor my freedomI will die for what is in that small bottleIt is my lifeMy cure More About: Soldi , Soldier , Sold
Visiting Dad
2007-03-03 12:13:00 *Knocking on my Dad's door*Dad: Come on come innnnnnnnn!!!Me: Hey Dad it's me!Dad: Darling!! I missed you sooo much*hugs me very tight*Me: Daaaaaad!!! Come on! I can't breathe!Dad: Uffff let me love you sweetheart*Getting away and sitting on the sofa*Me: So, whats the plan?Dad: I thought we'd stay in and talk.Me: Great plan Dad *rolling eyes*Dad: Oh come on I know how much you like to dance!!*opening my eyes wide*Me: Dance?? huh??? What??Dad: Yeah I thought you could give me some pointersMe: Oh nooooooooo you have GOT to be joking Father.*Dad goes to stereo and puts this song on*Me: Oh nooooooooooooooooo *cringing* More About: Visi , Visit
Under The Radar
2007-03-03 10:12:00 I have begun to realiseI possess the best disguise in the worldToo bad its not by choice...I imagine myself under my skinA man without skinRaw and redMuscles bulging and screamingMy mouth open and silent with the painMy eyes heavy with tearsI am standing under my skinScreaming silentlyStuck in one poseTensing all my musclesWilling myself to break freePleading with my disguise to melt awaySometimes I see myselfIn my musclesI can see myself rippling underneath itThrough the fine hairs on my lipI see my thick dark mustacheI frown and my eyebrows look darkerI play with the hair on my tummySeeing the patternThen the fantasies comeI am sitting in a dark roomMy needle in my handI stick myself in the thighSinking in that painful needleAs I depress the plunger a tear fallsA lump in my throatThe joy makes me freeze and pantI am looking in the mirrorAdjusting my tieBrushing off my white coatI smile at myself and run my fingers over my mustacheI feel the stubble on my faceGlance at my watch and... More About: Radar , Under
Anatomy Take Two
2007-02-28 17:16:00 Two years ago I sat through incredibly boring Anatom y lectures.So, yesterday we learnt how to place in a wonderful Foley CatheterMale and FemaleI went home all happy with my catheter inserting skillsI decided to find my own urethraSitting there at the edge of my bedI got a mirror and had a GOOD LOOKUnder, over, sideways...Nothing to be seenI got out my old trusty Netter's AnatomyGot my bearings again and went back to lookNothing AGAIN!Now I was getting worried...So then as my friend suggested I went to PEEArmed with a mirrorI stood there in the shower POISED to see where the stream came fromYes you guessed itNOTHINGThen it dawned on meI got TRANS-Anatomy Netter's doesn't cover that kind of anatomyNeither does ANY anatomy atlas out thereI was on my ownAlone....yet againLiving on the fringes of genderBeyond the normal boundariesI almost sang to my genitals .."I think we're alone nooooooow"....ahhh Tiffany was so right!There needs to be Netter's TRANS-AnatomyFrank H. Netter, M.D I... More About: Take , Atom , Nato
Funny Moments
2007-02-20 11:26:00 Ok so here are some funny moments (about time I know)Me and C talking Me: I feel like going to buy those testosterone capsules and opening them the putting the gel on my dickC: lordMe: To feed itC: Well thats trans-psychosis at its WORST mijitoMe and my friend at university that I recently toldFriend: So, we have the 2 week break coming up... I think you should go and transition in that holiday and come backMe: If only it was that simpleMe thinking to myself: She wants meeeeeee i'm gonna geeeeeeeet her *internal smirk*Ok now for the video....Ummmmm how trannyfag is THIS??? More About: Funny , Fun , Men , Moment , Moments
My Precious
2007-02-19 09:28:00 My bags dropped to the floor as I walked into the pharmacyThe guy waved at me from behind the counterWe often joke about patients and medicationsA woman was asking about cough medicationGiving him a hardtime about the mechanismsI gently explained it to herHe smiled and mouthed a thank you to meI lean over the counter and ask him in a low voiceme: "Got any testosterone?"him: "Sure, but its capsules and its controlled"me "Yeah I know (I didn't), Can I just see it?"him: "Sure"He goes in the back and brings out this blue boxI search for the dosage on the boxQuickly calculating in my head how much I would needI hold the box carefullyAlmost stroking itFeeling the hard corners of itI look at it long and hardI put it back on the counter and wave to him as I head outHow I managed to let go of itI do not knowI don't even remember it leaving my fingersI wanted to swallow the whole boxLike in the cartoonsThen he would be running after me shoutingI would start sprouting a beardMy clothes would... More About: Precious , Reci
Reflections
2007-02-16 17:09:00 I pull up in my carKill the lightsIt's dark...I think to myselfGetting out of my carI run my fingers through my hairI walk towards the bright lightsBut insteadI slip into a dark alleyThat old favourite alley of oursI adjust my clothes and walk slowly Savouring every momentI see the light of the back doorIt's openThen I see a dark figureHe movesFacing meI can see his face changeHabibi!He motions me overI stand infront of himAbout 2 feet away We look into each other's eyesSquinting in the darkHe nodsI smirk and raise my eyebrowsWe both laugh loud and longGrab each other in a tight hugDid his teeth brush my neck?He pulls me inside to his officeA woman walks inHe lets go of my handWas I clinging?I greet the woman politelyThen he ushers her awayHe turns to me and grinsSitting opposite meI am wondering to myself"Why is he sitting so far?"I long to be near himTo feel his handsHe gets up and walks towards meTouching my shoulderStanding over meHe squeezes it"Working out little bro?Wow! yo... More About: Reflections , Reflection
The Syndrome
2007-02-12 16:51:00 It is that time of the year...The Syndrome is upon us againHere is a list of its signs and symptoms* Depression* Nausea* Gastritis (only observed in senior students)* Generalised Anxiety * Insomnia (usually pre-exam night)* Chronic Fatigue (from 2nd year and onwards)* Loss of appetite* Unable to concentrate* Short-term memory loss (yes its true)On occasion* Tachycardia* Hypotension* Hypoglycemia* AcneMedical Student Syndrome.Pathogenesis - On admission to Medical School the patient at first does not aquire the syndrome. It usually occurs during the 2nd year, possibly to some sensitive individuals it could begin during the 3rd trimester of the 1st year. Generally it is observed that the student population (regardless of year), will manifest the syndrome together. This leads to possibility that it is indeed contagious in some manner. Since there is no bodily contact between students, it is safe to assume that the syndrome is airborne. Treatment - Graduation from Medical School.P... More About: Rome
Sex Change Ballet
2007-02-07 17:10:00 Tap your baton to signal the orchestraWait for the audience to quiet downThere you stand in all your confidenceIn all your professionalismIn all your unwaivered doubtsYou glance at me...I am hiding backstageYou raise your hands and as you bring them down in timeThe music starts to playI stride onto the stage I look at you for directionYou smile and tilt your head to the sideYour baton guides meThe music rises and falls...As does my bodyUp and down..side to sideMy body respondsChan g ing...Flowing...Moulding...Y our eyebrows knit and you demand MOREI respond and change MOREBulge moreStretch moreFlex moreThen you bring me down for the finishing touchesFirmly yet gentlyYou guide mePraising me with your eyesI stand and stride proudlyI look at you with fire in my eyesPrideBeautyConfidenceYou raise your arms and signal the orchestra to stopTurning, you take a bow to the audienceTo that my dear Doctor...You deserve a standing ovation.*This is the soundtrack it was set to. More About: Change , Ballet , Ball
Climbing
2007-02-05 10:02:00 I always asked myself...Until when?How long will I wait?Now those questions have been answeredToday was my first appointment with a crazy docOk...so here is how it wentI walk in, wearing my white coatGreeted the doctor with a smileHe asked me how school was (he's at one of our teaching hospitals)I said "great I'm having fun....so, tell my Doctor...How much do you know about Gender Identity Disorder?He smiled and said "You're not my first patient"A wave of relief washed over me..The doc then proceeds to ask me to tell my storySo... as a good patient I gave him a complete historyHe kept nodding and writing things downThen I told him his globe is upside down ( a globe sitting on his desk )He said "You will make an excellent doctor"To this we both laughed!I watched his face as I told him my storiesHis face said to me "of course you felt that way!"and occasionally "yup this is textbook"At the end of our brief 30 minute session I asked him "so, do you agree with my diagnosis?"He said "... More About: Climb , Climbing , Bing , Limb
Fourth Year Musings
2007-02-03 08:46:00 Exams exams exams!Thats all I seem to worry about these days!You know what is puzzling to me?We are so burnt out right?So therefore...any new material they give us..We just go right back to basics and USE THE BASICSNow I understand those damn first year professorsProfessors: "You must have a strong base!! STRONG BASE!"What they *really* mean"You got to have a good understanding of the basics cos you are going to need them when you cannot think anymore."Four th Year is certainly an eye opener in more ways than one.Fourth Year's are burnt out and fed up!CLINICALS ALREADY!!But then you get that deep seated fearThat fear that someone will "find you out"That this whole time you've been bullshitting your way through med schoolThat in the clinics you WILL be found out!Love/Hate?You got nothing on me.Now for some therapy.... More About: Musings , Sing , Sings
Alone
2007-02-01 17:31:00 Standing between the two extremesI look and lookSearching and dyingWhere do I belong"Yeah you know how girls are! So precise!"Here?"Did you get the latest Chanel makeup?"Here?I get some food from the kitchenAs I step out with my plate She is standing thereBetween the twoLooking at meSmiling at meCringing for meI stride out and lift my head to look at herWith those eyes..You know the onesShe fusses over meHer: "You need more food!"Me: "This is fine! really!"She looks at me and shakes her headI shake mine tooI find a quiet spot out by the tentAs I eat my food I realise, there is no tasteAs I taste my salty tearsI ask myself...Where do I belong? More About: Lone , Alone
Feed
2007-01-29 10:53:00 Let me touchLet me feelLet my hands wanderI want to feel every ridgeEvery riseEvery fallLet me lickLet me suckI want to taste itTaste the manhood I so deserveDrain you of all that you posessFeed me Desperation has set inFree me from this cruel bondageFree me with your body....Feed me the Testosterone I so deeply crave.
Makers
2007-01-26 08:40:00 They come they goShaping here nicking thereThrowing and mouldingAdding the essentialsWhy do we let them?Oh noIts not a choiceThey take itMould itMake itSome seeSome don'tThose that doGet the best resultsLet it happen my friendsDon't be afraidDon't be fearfulRelax and let herTake youGuide youListen and cry with youShame doesn't exist with herThe only shame is not letting herMy loveI am yours...Teach meMake meLearn these words brothersBecauseOne day.... you will realise...Women MAKE Men More About: Maker , Makers
Crack
2007-01-20 08:45:00 Last night I went to the airport to pick up my best friendAs I spotted her between the crowd with her nose all taped upSomething ripped inside of meI could feel it trickling outI hugged her and told her she looks fabulous! (she does!)I grabbed my friend "A" (the guy that went with her) Gave him tight hugs and went outside to smoke with himWe waited for the girls to finish talkingAs we were outside..."A" looked at me with those eyesI looked back at him with my eyesPiercing....longing....He looked back at me with a soft lookWe finished our cigarettes and went back to the girlsWe laughed and grinned as we carried the bagsShoving them into the back of the carHis arm brushed against my chestThat look againHe pinched his own....to make it okAs he doesOn the way back home that long rideMore leaking more gushingWe were of course force fed by her fatherI love himDuring dinner"A" begs me to eat a banana (our code for dick)I grab one and when the parents aren't lookingProceed to give it a BJM... More About: Crack , Rack
Pimp This!
2007-01-18 18:34:00 Dedicated to you C! YES YOU hermanita *wink*Oh yes and in perfect timing with the start of the Gulf Cup! WOOHOO! More About: Pimp , This
Distress
2007-01-18 11:29:00 Something distressing happeningI did feel it but I didn't know what it was until this morningAfter my morning classes I usually log onto msnWell I saw a very cute trannyboy friend of mine from KuwaitHe seemed rather upset...So naturally I asked what was happeningHere it is:Me: Hey bro whats up?Q8boy: Omg man haven't you heard???Me: No whats wrong??Q8boy: Oh man, something awful is happening to us trannys in Kuwait!Me: Oh no.....tell me moreQ8boy: Ok well, they are trying to supress trannys!!!Me: *in shock* WHAT??? How do you MEAN?? Like in PUBLIC???Q8boy: Yes at the schools and universitiesMe: Don't tell me they are trying to convert boyas (term for trannyboys) into GIRLS!!!Q8boy: *angry* YES THEY ARE!!!!Me: Don't they realise its not a PHASE??? It's REAL???Q8boy: EXACTLYMe: So, tell me what happened..I am listeningQ8boy: Ok, well, in high school there was this well known boya and he had a girlfriend, everyone knew about them. So, before graduation they broke up ...big drama!..... More About: Stress , Tres
Polyglot
2007-01-18 10:21:00 As you have noticed I am pretty fluid about a lot of thingsMost of you know that I speak several languagesOk, so now that fact is over and done withWhat significance is this?Well here goesEver hear something in a different language and think..Hmmmmm that sounds like *blank* or that sounds FUN!Here are some examplesKiss (english) means to place ones lips on anothers and kiss them right??Kiss (arabic) is a slang word for a women's genitals!!Tease (english) means to make fun of someone or to tickle or *ahem* other stuff.Tease (arabic) means ASS hehehehe yes ass..... *smirk*Culo (spanish) means ASS (hmm ass is coming up a lot here.. wonder why hehe)Coole (kreole) means "its leaking" Conejito (spanish) is "little bunny rabbit"Con (arabic/farsi dialect) means ASS (yes its back)Ok watch this.... when I hear "conejito" I think "small cute ass" hahahaAs you spanish speakers know the "ito" part of it makes it smallSo there you have itA complete fluidity of the spoken languagesMaybe this is w... More About: Poly |
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