Don't Take the RepeatsDon't Take the RepeatsLiving in the South with my Yankee husband, stepdaughter, and 2 dogs. I write about me, my family, life losses, and the things that hang around my brain with nowhere to go. Articles
We do these things
2007-07-02 14:44:00 Feeling helpless is my least favorite feeling in the world. I am a doer. I like having a goal and a method to get there. It doesn't bother me to be the boss, and it doesn't bother me to be a part of the team. Whatever it takes to complete the task is fine by me. I just love taking the steps to completion and getting it done. When someone you love has cancer, there is nothing you can More About: Things , Thing , These
Project Numero Uno
2007-07-01 18:28:00 So one of the fabulous women on Team Whymommy is organizing a project. It is a secret project, but I can say that anyone can participate. If you have known Whymommy for 3 days and only through her blog, you can participate. If you have known Whymommy for 3 weeks and only through her blog and email, you can participate. If you know Whymommy, Widget and Little Bears' mom, and know her kids More About: Project
Some people don't have way
2007-04-04 21:20:00 Some people have a way with words . . . I don't think I did a good job of conveying my news last night. Again, sometimes I don't say things right. Plus, for the life of me, I can't figure out how to reply by email to comments that are left here. I get a comment in my inbox, and if I hit reply, it always just comes back to me. So I read these great comments that are left by the kindest people, More About: People , Have , Some
When we do our scales
2007-04-04 04:23:00 I don't always ask the best questions. I don't always say the right things. I don't always give good first impressions. I'm a connector. Guy says so. I make connections. Between people. Between stories. Between points. Today, Bach came to her piano lesson and worked her way through some arpeggios. She wanted for me to fix them so badly. She knew there had to be something she was doing More About: Scales , When , Cale , Scale
Tomorrow
2007-04-03 01:57:00 Tomorrow morning I go back to the doctor. I wrote that first sentence about 3 hours ago. Then I walked away. Then I walked back. Checked in on some of my favorites. Karaoke Diva has a new blog design, some great pictures, and a scary story about her son (he is okay now though). Kristen is talking about divooce. Nancy is doing parental madlibs. I'm just delaying anxiety. Tomorrow More About: Tomorrow , Morrow , Tomo
Done
2007-04-01 04:02:00 Alright, so my first live blogging experience is a huge disappointment. UCLA is getting their butts kicked and I'm just sad. I was kidding when I emailed The Dude and told him that I was turning off the North Carolina/ Southern Cal game because everytime I watch a game, my team loses. Anyone who was watching knows that Southern Cal was kicking them up and down the court. I turn it off, mourn More About: Done
And UCLA?
2007-04-01 03:39:00 They have GOT to make shots that are gifts. Put the ball in the basket, boys. Especially when Florida is still running down the court. Pu-leaze. And every pass - every single pass - was just tipped off of at least three hands before it made it to the pair of hands for which it was intended. You boys are killing me. It is hard enough rooting for a California team. But come on. We hate
Joakim pouty boy
2007-04-01 03:36:00 Did you just see that? Noah is pouting like a baby. He's pulling at his shirt and flailing his hands about after having a foul called. Puppies, I'm telling you. The man would kick puppies just because he's mad. Sit on that bench, Noah. Sit there and chew on your nasty mouthpiece. Ha. More About: Pout
Is this live blogging?
2007-04-01 03:29:00 I hate Florida. Not the whole state, just their sports teams. Florida basketball plays dirty and enjoys the blood they draw from other teams. Just now, I watched two Florida players end up on the floor, with the expressions on their faces reading, "Who me? I was pushed and shoved onto this floor! Pity me! Call the foul on UCLA!" They are so full of sh*t. Acting lessons must follow each More About: Blogging , Blog , This , Live , Blogg
Because I have no pride, I give you Prom
2007-03-31 17:37:00 Mamma has invited us all to the prom. BooYah. I was so excited. Then I started looking back at all of my pictures and couldn't remember which dance was which. There were too many different dances due to having a boyfriend at a different school and then by being all of my guy friends' back up date. Lucky me. So I'm going to give a collage of dance-goodness. A montage of my favorite dance More About: Ride , Prom , Have , Give , Because
Prom prom prom
2007-03-30 19:40:00 It turns out the first post I've ever written and then saved as a draft is my prom post for the Blog Prom hosted by Mamma. Coming up on Saturday. Today's post is supposed to be a post about whether or not we went to the tanning bed or got a manicure or whatever. I can totally say no to all of those things. What I was most likely doing the day before prom? Calling all my friends to see if I
Thursday Tunes
2007-03-30 00:18:00 More of the Moi Choir. This is not really going where I had hoped. The idea was to put new recordings out there. Instead, this week you get another tune from the Dude. Now, don't get me wrong, it's a lovely tune. I'm just hoping that the recording gets going soon. For this week though, enjoy this song of the Dude's. It's the title track on his newest CD. More About: Tunes , Thursday , Tune
The Secret
2007-03-29 04:13:00 I am supposed to being doing a music meme from Momma. And, I'm trying to get ready for the Prom as well, but my scanner is not cooperating. Man, Momma is asking a lot these days. The pressure is getting to me. Kidding. Instead, I am playing with a Fortune Teller that Lovely made. Lovely has been watching "The Secret " with her mother. If you don't know about this DVD, then you can find
Me think pretty one day
2007-03-28 17:04:00 Gerbil. I read a blogger named Gerbil. I think she is awesome even if she is named after a rodent. Seeing as how I am named for a small decorative, usually salty, hors d'oeurves served at cocktail hour thereby encouraging people to drink more, I guess I really can't talk. Guy gave me this name right after we watched "Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil" together. Alison Eastwood presents More About: Think , Pretty
Ahhhh, Alfred
2007-03-27 05:10:00 Tonight was the Alfred Brendel concert. Really, it was. We ended up having Lovely with us after all, so instead of getting one of my students to babysit, we bought two more tickets and took Lovely and the student too. It's not like they are going to have oodles of opportunities to see him perform. It was amazing. Again with the ticket mishap though. When we arrived, we discovered that the More About: Fred
I have smart friends with smart butts
2007-03-25 06:09:00 If you need drugs, you need drugs. You gotta get in a better place for the bambino yet to appear. He/she needs to arrive in an okay place...too much weight on bambino to cause the happy place. You know what, I don't know shit about what you are feeling so feel free to chalk the previous statements to "T is talking out her butt again". I have some of the smartest friends ever. Evah. In the More About: Friends , Smart , With , Mart , Friend
Either pour a drink or move on
2007-03-25 01:53:00 Tipsy blogging. Never a good idea. So here I go! Best thing about starting your period? Damn straight. Drink ing. On the bar tonight? A lovely bottle of 2004 Estate, Sonoma County, Pinot Noir by Nicholson Ranch. Yummmy. I have had one glass and I'm hitting the delete button at least half as much as the letters I am typing. And yet I continue. Brilliant. I hate selling my house. We More About: Move
Gratitude
2007-03-22 22:45:00 I'm starting a new blog. This one isn't going anywhere, although I'm about ready for a new template of my very own. I just have to decide who I want to ask to design it - and how much I am willing to spend. Anyway, back to the new blog. A few weeks ago, a former co-worker of mine and I were chatting at a piano event. I'm thinking that we are having this pretty standard catching up chat when More About: Gratitude
Thursday Tunes
2007-03-22 21:52:00 This week's Thursday Tune was supposed to be Johnny Mathis doing the Hallelujah Chorus especially for Karaoke Diva. Alas, I cannot for the life of me figure out how to convert it, so you will just have to imagine how fabulously awful it is. Truly. Instead, you get to hear one of Dude's songs. This is on his latest cd, which is quite lovely. He does most all of the recording himself - we More About: Tunes
And so it is
2007-03-22 12:54:00 I'm so not pregnant. This is the second month of negatives. I do not know how people survive infertility. There are some amazingly strong women out there. I mean, I'm whining about two months. I almost feel guilty, but then I remind myself that it is my own sadness to feel. This dividing my life up into cycles and weeks is not great for my mental well being. Tomorrow, my period will start,
Exhale
2007-03-21 22:32:00 Momma's ca125 level came back as 11. Lower than in November. With no additional chemo or treatment. Woot. Terminal my ass. More About: Hale
Limbo
2007-03-19 20:34:00 Every time I turn around, limbo is lurking at the door. Neither Guy nor I do well in limbo. We both hate it and crave stability. Guy is still laid off. He has a great job just dangling in front of him, but they won't lay down the contract and say "sign." The funding is still just out of reach to hire him officially. They call and email, reminding him that they want him, but come on, folks. More About: Limb
Shame on 60 Minutes. Shame on Scott Pelley.
2007-03-19 02:56:00 I am not typically a very political person. I was very opinionated and outspoken in high school, and then I figured out that the older I got, the more my views evolved. Having done 180's on numerous issues, I decided to just start keeping my opinions to myself, lest I end up sounding like an idiot every time I change my mind. Opinions should evolve I think. Your life experiences and the More About: Elle , Scott , Minutes , Minute , Sham
You can take the blonde out of my hair . . .
2007-03-17 03:12:00 My lands. Brunette has made me none more smarter. None at all. There is a pianist, Alfred Brendel. He is my most favorite Beethoven performer. He is also ancient and frail, so when he scheduled a concert right here where I live, I got excited. He scheduled one last year, but I was very distracted, and he got sick anyway, so I didn't miss anything. I bought Guy and I tickets for this More About: Take , Hair , Blond , Blonde
Thursday Tunes
2007-03-15 21:05:00 This past weekend, Guy and I bought a new hard disk recording unit. We have been tinkering around with it as demonstrated here, but there are no fruits of our labor yet. If fruits don't appear soon, this may have to turn into a quarterly feature rather than a weekly feature. So I present to you yet another 3-4 year old performance of a Tori song. "Waitress." Performed in the days before I More About: Tunes , Thursday , Tune
Butterfly Baby
2007-03-15 01:50:00 It's been several days since I have been very positive. About motherhood and pregnancy in particular. It's been several sort of down in the blues days. My homework this week from my therapist was this: When I start thinking those black thoughts, think of 3 things I am grateful for and how they make me feel. I could only think of two. She didn't take points off, but of course then I started More About: Baby , Butte , Butterfly , Butter , Butt
Y2K Larry
2007-03-14 02:52:00 We bought a shell of a house. It had new paint. Were you expecting more? A list of other great new things about the house? So sorry to disappoint. We truly think that the last family sold the house because they didn't want to fix anything. Except with duct tape. Any repair or "home improvement" that we have found (excluding those with done with duct tape) was done by the owner previous to More About: Larry
Maybe we should get cable
2007-03-13 03:50:00 This weekend, Guy and I bought a new hard disk recorder. The ginormous recording studio desk and computer and loads of gear are being replaced with one nice sleek Tascam. Plus, I'll understand how to use it. Bonus. Tonight, we played around with it until Guy decided that the pre-amps were all wrong. That is when I got bored. Until this: There were also songs about pot pies, Schmoopies, More About: Maybe , Should , Cable
The truth only hurts a little
2007-03-12 05:16:00 I do this thing occasionally. Unnecessary googling. I'll google Guy, even though his name is so common that I get way too many hits to find the real one, not to mention the fact a porn star shares his name. I'll google me, just to see where I might pop up and why. And finally, I'll google the name of the band that has the wretched cd from 1996 because I want to make sure that no one is still More About: Truth , Hurt , Little , Only , Litt
Coming up for air
More articles from this author:2007-03-11 22:07:00 Apologies. Friday was what you call a bad day. A really bad day. On top of not feeling good physically. Thank you for the kind words. I am grateful, but also slightly embarrassed that I needed them. Therapy is hard. In order to be able to work through all the thoughts I was having Friday, I have to be able to say them. In order to say them, I have to stop crying long enough to speak. And More About: Ming 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 |
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