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Back on track
2008-04-26 11:38:00
So I just updated my web page and mainly I just wanted to start my blog.. You can find it here:http://www.stevensworld.load4.net/Fi rst_Step.html I hope you enjoy...
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Long time.. No Blog..
2008-04-16 23:42:00
Stay tuned for the refreshed blog... I will be returning to the blogsphere in a bit. Hope you subscribers like it because I'm doing it for you. Good luck and see ya soon...
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Check it out
2007-09-11 19:47:00
The blog goes on here: http://stevensworld.load4.net/
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Limits
2007-05-15 22:10:00
What a day. I didn't feel like doing anything all day. Don't understand why. I just wanted the day to end so that i can right about what are my plans for the future. I mean i'm coming to a part in my life where it said that everyone know what he want and goes out to get it. I feel like I don't know what I want. I feel like this choice that i have to make isn't fair. I need more time to find out what where my life is going. And i feel nostalgic already. I miss the time when time didn't matter, when everything took as long as you wanted. The only thing that i think will change my life is what i set my limits to be. When I set my limits then i know how far i have to go, and what is the best way to get there. The people that don't set there limits are either "superman" meaning that they could take their limits as high as they want to without being afected, or potheads who don't need limits and take life for grantedSo lets set a limit, and reach it. Can we reach it? Tell me what ...
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Back from my trip
2007-05-13 22:02:00
It's been a while. Don't worry I haven't been on a trip, I haven't encounterd any fun these days. I can't belive my exam is coming so fast. How is time moving so fast? Or are we moving to fast? I think we are to blame for the loss of time. You have to stop. NOW. STOP AFTER YOU FINISH READING, and look around, close all your senses and fell with your mind for a second. Start to ask yourself who are you? Where are you? What are you doing there? Does it have a purpose? Does it have a meaning? Start to think about life. Look out the window and observe all the people that pass you by, or sit on a bench in the park and start thinking about them, start observing them with calm. They all have a story to tell and from looking in there faces you can learn from them. Don't judge them try to figure out what they are thinking about, what their problems are.When you do this it feels like time stops. Let it stop, this is the time when you feel.You start to feel the big picture that is life. ...
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No more parts.Just you
2007-04-01 21:28:00
What a weekend! I couldn't feel my feet from all that dancing. Back to life. Not that dancing wouldn't be life, it's one of the greatest gifts of life, and when you take it to the extreme it's beautiful. Off course the more "serious" people out there will say that dancing is not important in life, i heard this once or twice, maybe that's because they never got the chance to express themselves the way they should. This night i don't really think I'm going to say much but i will let somebody else say. Guess which person says the following lines and tell me what is your opinion. I dare you! :DIf, manners maketh man as someone saidThen hes the hero of the dayIt takes a man to suffer ignorance and smileBe yourself no matter what they sayModesty, propriety can lead to notorietyYou could end up as the only oneGentleness, sobriety are rare in this societyAt night a candles brighter than the sunTakes more than combat gear to make a manTakes more than a license for a gunConfront your e...
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Break from promise
2007-03-29 22:22:00
Ok now, even if is said i will continue to talk in this post about masks and fakes, i won't. I'm to tired to write about this stuff, so I will just post the poem for tonight, it's actually my first. Good night.Apa...Coborand in deal, coborand in valeApa se scurge tot mai tare,Duce cu ea durerean spinareUitata in timp, uitata-n mare.O lume-ntreaga de ar sta in caleApa ar trimite-o spre uitare,Ca un orb ce nu stie,Care-i mort si care-i vie.Gusta apa caci sunt eu,Ca si ea ma zbat acumLanga mine sa iti spun...Cat de mult te iubesc...Dar cum?
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The masks...Part 2
2007-03-26 22:45:00
So, back to the truth. To start of let me just say there is no such thing as the ultimate truth, there is no absolute truth. Why? Because the truth is a perceptual notice, it depends on the one stating it and the one observing it. The truth is the one your mind links to the truth. You take for granted as the truth what you hear, and know that this is the truth.This could be very helpful in situations where knowing the truth doesn't help, it only makes a person feel bad, it takes him into those "bad states" that we talked earlier. We will always try to avoid those bad states like i said, and if this means avoiding the truth then be it. There is one thing to lying you have to do on your own, you have to be convincing, and this depends on you. I can teach you but this is something you have to learn yourself. Don't forget when you lie you are trying to help a person avoid a bad situation, not make it worse or trying to do harm.Let's make it easier, the truth isn't always good, even ...
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Masks...Part 1
2007-03-25 20:12:00
Why do people always want to here the truth? Even if that truth hurts them badly and deeply. Why do you chose the negative part, and not stick with the good side of things? Because people are addicted to the truth, they hate to have something hidden from them. This is why they explore every piece of this earth and every trace of life on it, even if that thing may hurt them. The best example here is the nuclear bomb. After they explored everything on nuclear energy they said, what the hell let's make a bomb. After that they started using it as energy supplier. This is just how things work at a global scale, and they work the same at an individual scale. You have to be prepared to handle the truth, it shouldn't just be offered to you directly, because some people can't handle the truth. People that get the truth directly without being prepared for it will be hurt, because the truth hurts most of the time.The worst truth is that most people are bad, when they see vulnerability in o...
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Tonight I stopped and looked at some photographs. ...
2007-03-24 22:29:00
Tonight I stopped and looked at some photographs. Photo s I never wanted to see. I never wanted to see the past, but tonight I did. Even if those photos were taken a long time ago, i couldn't help it. So tonight i decided to introduce a poem expressing how i personally feel at the end of almost every post from now on. Most of you reading this blog wont really appreciate my English poetry, those how would like to read it you can find me at www.poetry.com, and search my name there. Why poetry? Because i find it very easy for me to safely lock meanings in my poetry that only I can see, and still express my main ideas. Maybe some of them are sad, or depressive, don't worry I'm not that depressed, it's just my style. Hope you enjoy it.Dupa secole...Lacrimi ma cuprind,Printre pietre se-ntretin,Unde lumea lor devineParadis sentimentelor straineAcolo, la granita cerului cu mareaMa aflu si eu,Cantand abisului ce este,Draga mea poveste.Uimit in expozitiune, incantat de intriga...M-am dus...
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Back on stage
2007-03-22 18:50:00
Long time, no blog. I just didn't have the time. To bad you can't buy time. But if you could i bet it would be expensive, knowing how many people need more time, and would like to have more time on this earth. This is the thing, a lot of people would "buy" time to finish their work or have enough time to pay their bills. Only the ones that see beyond their existence would like to buy time for the need to live. If you don't have time to live, MAKE time. This is the reason i haven't written in a while, because i didn't make time. Some times you lose something, or someone because of time. But you can't blame time, you only have to blame yourself. I've been trying to convince people not to make excuses and blame time for all their wrongs.Making excuses is the easiest way to get out. Some people come with the most stupid excuses, but if that's the way they feel, let them, because you can't make an excuse in front of life. "I wasn't successful because of that....." "I couldn't ...
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The genius
2007-03-14 21:31:00
Back in my bed with my trusty laptop, getting ready to go to bed, but not before i post what I think on this blog. Even if nobody is reading it, I'm still going to write it, knowing that one day someone will read it and learn from it.Now the thing i noticed in life is that you will always want more. All people are greedy, they never care that enough is enough. I'm not looking at this from a bad point of view, not at all. You have one life, live it, as long as you don't hurt other people. There are some special people out there that have a general view of life. They see life wonderful, from beginning to end. This is the genius, he sits isolated on top of the world, looking down on all of us. I know i must be talking as if he is godlike. He isn't, but he is very close. Why is he so close? I'll tell you tomorrow... I have to find a more comfortable position in bed with this laptop. There is someone out there who know all about these laptop using positions. Damn wabbit'. Good night.
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Recovery.Time
2007-03-13 21:40:00
Long time since I last posted it seams. Hope you missed me. Just kidding, the fact is I'm getting used to post every day. It has become a part of my life style. I don't know why actually, a few months ago I didn't even knew what a blog was. Well life is going back to it's normal path, but I admit that the past few months made me think different i some ways, and I'm not talking necessarily in a good way, but that's what you made me and that's what I'll be.You see situations, and bade states leave a good or a bad scar on your soul and mind. It is said that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I don't really buy that, because if it was meant to harm, the idea of you getting out alive isn't so reinvigorating. What I'm saying and what I have observed in my case and in many other, after you have been through a bad state you usually get a scar that marks the way you think, the way you act, and the way you interpret the world around you. Lets say you have been through a ba...
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The life you live (final part)
2007-03-11 16:08:00
Well, I'm back. Hope this final post on the "The life you live" will get your soul going and get you motivated to take a big bite out of life. Every day you get up, go to school, go to work, or perhaps you just go back to sleep, in any of those situations you forget that life isn't just about that, about your every day works or habits. Going to work is a habit, so is going to school, time just passes by and you can't even remember how the week went. This is due to total commitment to things that in time pass, and in time you won't use them, or you will forget that you ever learned about them.Some things are not important in life as much as others. Why take time to be happy when you see the Alps, or go to Italy, when you can be happy every day? Because those are rare occasions? Try to make these rare occasions not so rare. You have to enjoy your every day so the happy parts of life be longer, not shorter.Don't think so much about work, and forget about family. First there's fam...
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The life you live (part two)
2007-03-10 19:06:00
So, another day has come, and my mind is still cloudy, not to mention my soul, enough about me, and lets talk about us. We talked last time about those two different states that drive the human purpose. We talked about the happy state, and the misery state. Now we agreed that it's impossible to know when these state come and go, the most important thing is not when they come, but how can you go through them keeping your head up and not giving up on life. The best way to do so is to know that even if this state is bad and the pain is awful, you know that good times are to come, and you are waiting for those times to arrive, even if the pain was larger than the happiness, in time this will even out. Now I am prepared to say that even if I give out this advice, and I speak the truth about these state that I notice, there is time of doubt, when even I don't know what to do and what path to choose. This situation is just like the one I am in right now. After all this pain I have to go ...
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The life you live (part one)
2007-03-08 15:54:00
Again I write on this blog, knowing that everything is for nothing. The day you see the light at the end of the tunnel that's the day you will find freedom. The state of happiness is very short, and for those that think happiness is forever lasting, will have a big disappointment in the end. You see when you think about life, and you think about the fact that everything in this world always has two sides, the only thing you wish is not to stay to long in the bad side. What goes around, comes back around. And after the state of happiness leaves you the only one who will help you get through life is you. Don't think you will be happy forever. There are some people that can't get over a bad state and they quit on life. This is the way to admit that life is greater than you, and you couldn't handle it. I have a theory, and this is it. After you begin your life get ready to go through different states, there are only two conditions the humans have to bare with, the first one would...
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Nearly free from your mind
2007-03-05 21:43:00
The night has come, and my laptop asks me for mercy. But tonight i won't give it the satisfaction. The day was calm in my hometown, but the weather of kind of cold. Not to fear the human body can stand it, right? I mean how much can a human body take? What are our limits? I think the only limit we have is the one that we set in our mind as being a limit, I mean the human body is very adaptable, and very flexible, then why not go beyond our limits? I think the question lies in persons mind. Every one has at least once a day a question of doubt in their mind, if they can do a certain thing, if they can react in some situation, or if they found the right solution to a problem. I'm talking in general now, but bare with me.Why not think from the beginning that we already have a great solution to our problem, and why not think from the beginning that we can do a particular task, without having the fear of doubt wrestle in our mind. Every challenge we face can be done, and their is not a...
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Back from time
2007-03-04 19:54:00
I haven't posted a word this weekend. Maybe because the thoughts didn't appear so focused, I haven't had time to think about what I know and what i feel. The good thing is that i feel, and i think feelings saved my weekend. That's the good part of life, there are times when feeling don't come in a negative package. My weekend was great, I tried to be alone with my self, and get out of this human body, enter a state of meditation beyond the realm of imagination. They say normal people are rocks beside diamonds in comparison with the genius that a man can be. I'm not trying to say I'm a diamond, what I am saying is that we should some time get out of this state of normality and enter a state of meditation and think on the things that matter to you more than Money, Mortgage, Wealth, and other life passing situations. It's a sad site to see that the only thing a man has achieved in life is a number in a bank account. Wake up, get out and start to know what is your purpose in lif...
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The day of cloudy eyes
2007-03-02 14:04:00
Another twist today, brings me closer to the saying that your heart was meant to be alone. The one you give it to has to much control over you and this thing can make you spin, not in a good way. Maybe I'm being pessimistic, or maybe these are the thoughts of a man in pain, but who know what i fell, maybe this is a fake feeling, and the world was meant to make your soul and body go weak. After all you don't end your life at the peak, you end it at the bottom. I think those for which life ended before time, are the ones that truly fulfilled there purpose. I'm to young to talk about life and the way it should, or not, end, but I am young enough to know what damages love can have to your soul. The way love clouds your mind after it leaves you, the way the world starts spinning around you, every time i think that the feeling doesn't make it worth the effort. Love has two sides and you will taste both of them in your endless hope to make a relationship work.Now after this hard day, ...
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The first night of freedom
2007-03-01 19:57:00
Why did i make this blog? I don't know. Maybe because the best friend we will ever have is the written word. The night hits my head, and i can't even imagine the day of tomorrow. Should i keep writing? My English isn't actually perfect.Why is every day so hard? Shouldn't life be a non stop holiday? It should be. You should wake up in the morning not to ask yourself if you're going to make it through the day. But this usually happens. Worries usually cloud our mind and they are increasing from day to day. Find a way to free your mind, and your soul will find comfort. I think i will continue to write on this blog, who know maybe this way my mind will be free just for the time being. Tomorrow the day will be harder than today, and life will give me a new twist. The twist for today was love, stand by for tomorrow and I'll tell you what life brought before me now.
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