Brain Clouds Brain Clouds Hi, I’m Kelly. I’m an almost thirty something single lesbian living back home with my parents in Michigan. I smoke, I’m overweight, and I hate vegetables. I never finished college, don’t own much of anything, and can’t save money for shit. Articles
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2008-10-02 02:38:00 She’s beautiful and I’m allowed to tell her Allowed to speak to her Allowed to Well Simply allowed Which for me is something different Something interesting It’s not the chase But it is the mission To love again To define love To learn something healthy Something not so pathetic Posted in Discussions with Myself ;
Too Soon
2008-09-26 01:38:00 You didn’t have to tell me you loved me Not like you did Not with my life in the balance Because now I have to ask myself if I love you Ask myself if I can find meaning in someone else Someone unfamiliar Someone that I can’t help but think is too good for me Someone that presses buttons that I didn’t ...
My Symphony
2008-08-22 04:58:00 there’s no truth to me only memorized symphonies colored with untuned violins and broken cellos the audience listens ears taunt with anticipation they clap when my performance is done i can’t help but admire their admiration their tears of blood so beautiful with a smile proving that happiness is such a marvelous dysfunction i could play them the tape when it’s over show them that ... More About: Symphony
No Words = Happiness
2008-07-28 17:28:00 I can never write when I’m happy. My creativity has always come from pain, heartache, and loss. It’s almost like those deep and dark emotions cook up the sentences inside of me and if I don’t get them out in some form or fashion I will burn from the inside out. I haven’t written in a ... More About: Words , Happiness
This Vision of Us
2008-06-03 18:05:00 I thought my heart had felt the last of you Referencing the past I had long ago decided to let go of you But there is a vision that ceases to escape me A dream that I wish to have every night An answer to all that I ever wished could be It is with a delicate mixture of hope ... More About: Vision
If you were still here
2008-05-30 04:50:00 I’d like to tell you things are good. I’d love to tell you that I’ve changed and all my insane nuances have disappeared into the night sky. It’s just that you wouldn’t believe me. Better stated, it’s just that you would know that I wasn’t telling the truth. Things are just as they’ve always been, ...
Dear Dad,
2008-05-20 20:54:00 I finally talked Mom into putting the dogs down. Grant and James took them to the humane society yesterday and had it done. Khayman was starting to lose a lot of weight, and Coco was ready too according to the vet. Mom cried, and I found an odd sort of new found comfort in making the hard ...
Attention Lesbians
2008-04-23 19:55:00 This is Kelly here, telling you that you really need to get on the Gossip Girl Band Wagon. If only to be mezmorized by the amazing Blake Livley. Have you ever had one of those cruses where you know if the woman was in the same room as you that you would turn entirely stupid? ... More About: Movies , Music , Lesbians , Attention
Treading Water
2008-04-14 21:19:00 I’m a woman who has always wanted to be saved It’s the little girl in me The small piece of innocence that pretends to twinkle in my eye Selfishness To think the she could save me The truth so clean and pure in front of us both That I am here for only her A lost mind attempting to tread water Tired Sick of ... More About: Water
It?s good to dream?
2008-04-14 21:04:00 It’s better to be crazy… One thousandth of a percent of the population believes that they can fly. 3.7 percent of the population believe that they possess some kind of psychic power. More About: Dream , Good
11043 days alive and counting
2008-04-08 17:56:00 To my amazement I keep on waking up alive. This realization may sound odd to some, but not to someone who falls asleep every night positive that she will not wake to see another morning. To that person, it’s just another day. Tis the Brain Clouds. Tis the death that surrounds me. Tis my genetic disposition ... More About: Life Lessons , Days , Alive , Counting
My Own Personal Grey Gardens
2008-03-31 18:43:00 I have always been of the opinion that those deemed crazy know a bit more about the secrets of life than those that take pride in their normalcy. We can all fall in love, buy a home, have kids, and retire to Naples. It’s the people who spend their lives in institutions that have always ... More About: Personal , Movies , Music , Grey , Gardens
Thank You
2008-03-17 17:49:00 It was interesting to see your true colors, even if it was odd to read words from you that I never thought would be said. You have always towered over me, represented the dark in me. Even when we first met we could see each other in the others eyes. You yearned for my kindness ... More About: Love , My Life
Death Wants More Death by Charles Bukowski
2008-03-10 19:53:00 death wants more death, and its webs are full: I remember my father’s garage, how child-like I would brush the corpses of flies from the windows they thought were escape- their sticky, ugly, vibrant bodies shouting like dumb crazy dogs against the glass only to spin and flit in that second larger than hell or heaven onto the edge of the ledge, and then ... More About: Death , Life Lessons , Charles , Bukowski , Charles Bukowski
Protected: What?s the Point
2008-03-06 00:04:00 There is no excerpt because this is a protected post. More About: Love , Point
The research begins today
2008-03-05 23:21:00 I’m terrified of death. I’m terrified of all the things that are associated with death. Car accidents, cancer, hospitals, just to name a few of the thousands. There are many therapists out there that will tell you that to conquer your fear you need to face it, submerge yourself in it. I have attended 7 funerals ... More About: Research , Today
Beautiful Brunette brings back thoughts of a blonde from my past
2008-02-13 17:06:00 So today I will bring to you my new favorite hottie. Her name is Michelle Lombardo and she is in the new series Quarterlife. The show premiers on NBC on February 26th. I found out about the show through Myspace, started watching the online episodes, and she won me over from there. Quarterlife is a show ... More About: Movies , Music , Thoughts , Beautiful , Back
Climbing a rope in gym class
2008-02-09 00:34:00 So I’m currently walking around with a stent inside of me. It’s really weird, I gotta tell ya. It is better than walking around with a giant kidney stone however. And apparently it makes the passing of the fragments of stone that they blew up inside of me pass out my who who all the ... More About: Class , Climbing , Rope
My Circle
2008-02-05 00:41:00 So I’ve decided I’m bat shit crazy. I hate when people read their poetry out loud. Poets are selfish fucks. I know this because I am one. The poem should be for the reader. They should find their voice in the words. So quit with your half breaths, your ridiculous hand gestures, and your moans. ... More About: Circle
Hosipitals FREAK the shit out of me
2008-02-02 20:10:00 So there we were, it was 6:00 am, we beat the winter storm, and we were in a giant waiting room. A family had sectioned off a corner for themselves. One was sleeping on a couch, and two others on a chair. It was hard for me to imagine what they were going through. What ... More About: Shit , Freak
I Miss Him
2008-02-01 02:14:00 For the first time since his death I found myself truly missing my father. I was making dinner for my Mom today, something he did every day, when it happened. I was leaning on the kitchen counter, something he always did, and he came in to my mind. People always said my Dad and I ... More About: Miss
Written for J: Apr 13, 2006
2008-01-30 16:07:00 She is beautiful. Like shards of glass in the sand. The rays from the sunrise bask in her colors. With a complexity enriched by pain she continues to allude me. What was once will never be again. It’s easier for me. Less pressure to become who she sees in me. But the truth is that ... More About: Written
No Longer Being Accepted
2008-01-23 02:42:00 My heart strangled my tongue How could she do this How could she become a stranger to me And do it so damn well I screamed on the inside Through and out every single pore on my body Fuck you I thought I will show you that you didn’t mean a fucking thing I’ll never forgive her I’ll forever remember her I will live past ...
What could make things better?
2008-01-21 22:19:00 Finding out I have a 9 millimeter kidney stone, getting a stint shoved up my lady town, and hoping I’m not too fat for the table so they can blow it up and get this fucker OUT OF ME!!! More About: Make , Things
WTF
2008-01-18 16:48:00 I almost want to purchase this to hang from my kitchen ceiling. Shits and giggles all the way around!
I?ve never been good with affection
2008-01-16 18:21:00 A few moments ago I found myself sifting through TMZ.com. I wanted to throw up. I wanted to renounce my American citizenship. Instead I promised myself that I would read two Huffington Post articles to every one TMZ.com snip-it my eyes laid upon. Once again I lost the fight. Just like I have with smoking, ... More About: Good , Affection
TLL?s 2007 Lesbian blog of the year award
2008-01-15 16:09:00 It?s that time of year again. TLL is hosting the 2007 Lesbian blog of the year award. We are please to begin accepting nomination for this award until February 15th. At which time we will tally the nominations and vote on the top five nominated lesbian blogs. Before you submit your nomination please view the ... More About: Blog , Award , Year
Smooth through you
2008-01-10 21:25:00 You left and I found the monster within me My pieces broken in smooth curves instead of jagged edges There was reason I was doomed to see how well they would fit Punished should I touch even one of them You took with you my judgment Assuming I could ever know another human at all It’s in your hands My theories on life, ... More About: Smooth
A new look for The Lesbian Lifestyle (TLL)
2008-01-10 16:18:00 As admin of The Lesbian Lifestyle blog I would just like to let all of you know that the new site is up. I’ve been working on the new site for about a month now. Doing my best to fumble through with the little html knowledge I do have. I was going for a clean ...
Today I turn 30
More articles from this author:2008-01-08 20:21:00 Wow, so today’s my 30th birthday. One of those milestone one’s at that. I can’t tell you how much I wish I had something poinent to say. It would be wonderful to stand in front of you all stoic and self aware, but that would be a giant lie. The truth is that I’m no ... More About: Today , Life Lessons , Turn 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 |
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