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Going Pink
2007-07-29 11:59:00 I'm not a big fan of pink, but I thought, what the heck?This weekend, I missed the grand reunion my old high school had cooked up. I thought it was last month! Haha. Anyway, below is the itinerary of what I passed up on. Besides, my Mom came over for a visit this weekend, so I have no regrets. I hope to post up the the goss (with pictures!), probably on Wednesday._______________________________ ________________________Day 1: 27th July 2007 (Friday)7:30am Thanksgiving at the Blessed Sacrament ChurchDay 2 : 28th July 2007 (Saturday)7:00am ? 11:00am Prize giving and convocation at Convention Hall, Financial Park11:30am ? 4:00pm Exhibition in St. Anne Secondary School7:00pm ? 11:00pm Reunion Dinner at Convention Hall, Financial ParkThe price is RM 1000 per table and RM 100 per person___________________________________ _____________________Yup, didn't miss a thing. Hah! Except... Today was the boring-est Sunday ever. Not only did I miss church, we didn't get to go to Gaya Street as Lion... More About: Pink , Dear Diary , Going , Goin
Tough Luck
2007-07-26 11:22:00 Feeling depressed. I just found out last night the reason why I haven't gotten a callback for the job which I had the most "promising" interview. News is, the guy who interviewed me, is FIRED. Yes, F-I-R-E-D. Apparently, he was abusing the company's name and money. I kinda feel sorry for the guy, in some way. He just got laid off from a pretty big company. So where can he go from there now? Who will take him up with a record like that? In any case, all of this means that I have to look for another job. Which I really am so not looking forward to. More About: Dear Diary , Tough , Luck
Of Cravings
2007-07-25 09:55:00 I'm dying for Mom's home cooked food. I miss hinava. It's been years since I've eaten it! Spoken like that, it sounds like I'm far away from home, and yet it's only a 20 minutes plane ride away. ^-^ It's almost been 7 months since I last went. I would really like to go back, it's just that I have a few things on my plate, which is kinda stopping me from going back home.My culinary expertise is practically non-existent. Which is why most of the stuff I've been attempting to cook every once in a while ends up a charred black mess. x_x That doesn't help when you have guy friends who can cook. And not too badly, might I add. Recently, Rex cooked for us a sample of what her normally cooks for the tourists he has to bring. Let's just say most of the dishes consisted of pork. Heh. It's just unfortunate that I have no pictures to show.After my brief stint into anti-social mode, the house was an influx of guests last weekend. Which was kinda refreshing. Both Alex and Sharon staye... More About: Dear Diary , Ving , Ravi , Ravin
Plus One
2007-07-24 10:08:00 Gotta love this unfortunately now defunct boyband. Not only are all of them Christians, three of them are Pastor's sons, absolutely gifted in singing, and good looking to boot! But their failure to make a name for themselves was the main reason why the band eventually broke up, with all of them returning to their own ministries.Which would explain why I've been having a hard time looking for their complete albums online. x_x More About: Dear Diary
Curious Harry
2007-07-21 13:08:00 Yes, I'm ashamed to admit it! I couldn't wait, so... I actually went to Wikipedia and read the whole summary of the 7th and final book for Harry Potter. Shame on me!!!So I do know who dies, what ultimately happens to Harry, whether Ron & Hermoine will end up together or not, and if the hope that Albus Dumbledore is not really dead comes true. Haha! I guess I have taken the fun out of reading it when I finally buy the book, but hey, I couldn't wait. Not this time, anyway. *Grins*P/s: Girlie! Just want to say a very Happy Birthday to you! Since the rest of us are not there to throw a hoo-haa for you, I'm keeping my fingers crossed that Shady has something special planned for out. ^-^ More About: Curious , Dear Diary
My Wish
2007-07-18 09:29:00 I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,And each road leads you where you want to go,And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.And if one door opens to another door closed,I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,But more than anything, more than anything,My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,You never need to carry more than you can hold,And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,Yeah, this, is my wish.I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,All the ones who love you, in the place you left,I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,And you help somebody every chance you get,Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,And you always give more than yo... More About: Soundtrack To Your Life
Losing Battle
2007-07-17 09:13:00 I'm not far away from pulling my hair over the recent frustrations that have turned up. Let's just say I'm having problems dealing with certain things. On the other hand, I've been having trouble expressing myself with regard to some pressing issues, which is causing me to be more moody than I usually am. I'm not the type of person you'd wanna be around at the moment.On the job front... I guess I can't keep my hopes up regarding the promising job interview I went to. It's been a month, and yet no word. I tried calling recently, but the boss was in a meeting. The person who answered took my number and said she'd call if there was anything. It's already been two days since then. Sigh.I want to have a job. I want to be able to support myself. I want to be not awkward whenever people start discussing their careers or dreams. To not constantly avoid class reunions so I don't have to feel ashamed of myself when confronted by former classmates. Yep. I am so pathetic.Anyway... Be... More About: Dear Diary , Battle
How You Doing?
2007-07-10 07:02:00 Transformers was damn good! I hope to watch it for the 2nd time before they take it off. The last time I counted, Russell has been to see it 3 times! When I watched it, there were 8 people including me:- Lionel, Alex, Rex, Imelda, Sharon, Abel, & Elizabeth (who took Kyle's place since he couldn't make it).Speaking of Kyle, he has stuff to do back in Canada, so he left last week. He's hoping to come back as soon as he can. There was quite a send off crew for him at the airport. There was the usual photo taking (minus Sarah, cause she left early), but the weird thing is, Kyle took the photos and didn't want to be in any of 'em.Well, there's nothing like somebody flying off without some troublesome thing happening. It's a bit complicated to explain, but basically, they were gonna ask Kyle to buy a new ticket if he couldn't produce his old plane ticket (the one he used when he came here some months ago... yikes!). However, things ended well, with Kyle eventually getting on the p... More About: Dear Diary , Doing
Rest In Peace
2007-07-09 10:04:00 To dear Venus.You will be missed. More About: Peace , Rest In Peace , Dear Diary , They , Rest
What I've Been Up To
2007-06-30 08:45:00 Actually, I've been waiting for the guys to make a trip to E-City, but recently, they've started fragging at home instead. Plus, I've been spending way too much money lately, which would explain my nearly 2 weeks absence from the web. My finances (or at least, the way I've been managing it) is way messed up. I even had to make a tough decision of not to make an advance booking on the final Harry Potter book out this month. Last Monday, I totally botched up an interview. How bad was it? Let's just say at some point, my interviewers had a good snicker. And they weren't laughing WITH me, if you know what I mean. In any case, I don't really care too much about that particular job. I'm hoping (& praying) for another job interview I went to previously. Anyway, here is Kat's full proof guide to messing up an interview.* Choose to fulfill your obsession for The Sims 2 until the early hours of the morning instead of getting your proper sleep.* Feeling completely lethargic after only... More About: Dear Diary , Been
In A Funk
2007-06-08 08:47:00 Lionel's back... With, as what he call it, tons of "rubbish", but so far he hasn't dug into his suitcase & displayed the goods for the rest of us. The night he came back, a few of us had a yam cha session over at Damai. Ian also showed me his new tech gadget. Nice!!Ian's new toy - The Nokia 7390. Love it!It was only recently that I've found out that CCCF or Calvary Christian Campus Fellowship is no longer part of our church. (And all this time I honestly thought that they were on their uni break!) They've separated and now call themselves Emmanuel Christian Fellowship or e-CF. It's sad, nevertheless... All the best to them.Been prowling around the apartment like the horrible moody person that I am lately. What can I say? I have a lot of things on my mind. Sigh. I miss all my close friends. I miss having people who I can really talk to. Plus, with the way things have been developing over here lately, well... The future seems foggy & bleak.The school holidays are coming to an en... More About: Funk , Dear Diary
Pet Pictures
2007-06-07 10:10:00 Aww... Ain't that adorable?Reminds me of the dog we "almost" hadFelines do know how to pose!Now isn't this just so cute?Nice & fluffy More About: Pictures , Dear Diary
Of Road Trips & Creepy Tales
2007-06-01 14:49:00 Whee... Tired!!!I just came back yesterday from an overnight trip to Kundasang, specially for some friends of mine who were celebrating a very "special occasion". Muahaha. ^.^ Anyway, my heartiest congratulations to them, especially since by the time we arrived at Kinabalu Pine Resort, the luncheon had just ended! T_TWe stayed overnight at a pretty nice place. Russell & his girlfriend were there with us for a while before they left back for KK. Nevertheless, everyone pretty much just lazed around, doing our own thing for the next few hours. I had fun just basking in the cold & taking in the view. I managed to send a two pages long SMS to Roy, but as expected, he didn't reply.Rex & Imelda called for us around 8pm for dinner. Unfortunately, a mishap happened first, which involved the Proton & the steep road. Luckily, the guys managed to fix things without any serious damage... I think. All of us then proceeded to dinner, which was really good. I had my craving for Fairy Garde... More About: Dear Diary , Tales , Road , Tale , Creepy
28 Deaths (And More) Later
2007-05-29 15:35:00 Unexpectedly hanged out with Sharon today at Centerpoint. We even took in a movie - 28 Days Late r. Oh how I regret doing so. At some point, I was even seriously considering walking out of the cinema. Let's just say it was too violent & gross for words. The movie poster - The one they had in Growball was a different oneScary... Uninfected humans who were hunted down had to run or hide for their survivalThe wife who was left behindThe son who can't remember his mother's face who, with his sister, gets the brilliant idea of going back to their house to get a photographRose Byrne also stars in this movie as a doctor is hell bent on keeping the two kids aliveI felt no sympathy for the two kids & their father. Why? They're the reason the whole mess happened all over again in the first place! The kids had no thought for the seriousness of the situation, and thought only selfishly of themselves. The sneaked past the soldiers and went out of District 1, which is considered the safety zon... More About: Dear Diary , Deaths , At The Movies
White Is The New Pink
2007-05-28 17:28:00 Anyway, with a LOT of persistence, I finally managed to change the layout. It's very simple compared to what I normally use, but it has some features which I'm into at the moment. I don't expect it to last very long, though. Either way, let me know what you think.I've noticed that one of my pictures has simply disappeared without a trace. I'll be fixing that next time. More About: Pink , White , Dear Diary
Bored Out Of My Mind
2007-05-28 16:18:00 I am so not looking forward to this week.Lionel has decided not to come back so soon, so on top of me being alone for a few more extra days, he's going to miss the BIG day. Not my big day, but for certain people. Alex is apparently going, & so is his father. As for myself, I'm not sure if I'm gonna go.Being on my own has made me consider the thought of going back to Labuan for a few days. After all, why not? I miss home. I miss my parents. I miss the dogs. And at least the internet connection there is good... But as the public holiday is only for two days, I'm worried that I might be called in for an interview while I'm there.I've been trying to change the layout, but the connection at this cyber cafe's awful tonight. Guess it'll have to keep till another time. Besides, I'm getting highly irritated by some guy who's sitting at the computer next to me. He's eating while playing a football game, and I really can't stand the sound of his loud munching on his food. And I'm ... More About: Bored , Mind , Dear Diary
Flat Out Tired
2007-05-27 15:01:00 Yesterday was a full blown out shopping spree. The funny thing is, I didn't manage to get what I really wanted to buy, but I found all the things I needed to get my room into order. And it was late when I finally got home, but I was full of enthusiasm for my new project, so... I only slept at 4am. (The day before that, I slept at 5am)Yes, very stupid of me.I practically had to force myself to wake up at 9.10am for church. And all the while before Rex called, saying he'll be at the apartment in about 5 minutes' time, I was hoping inside that he would have forgotten to pick me up, so I needn't have to go to church. Wishful thinking, of course.Things didn't improve when I got to church. I seriously felt like doozing off the entire time, but it's impossible when you're sitting in one of the first few front rows. Not to mention that it's rude and disrespectful. I'm quite sullen and quiet when I don't have enough sleep, so that's how I was for the most part of the day.I apologi... More About: Dear Diary , Tired , Flat , Tire
Food Gamble
2007-05-22 06:30:00 Call me crazy. I ate a leftover packet of noodles (mee hoon, actually) from Bang's mother which had been in the fridge since last Thursday. It was left uneaten for that long due to the excitement (not to mention the last minute fragging) over Lionel's flight to Australia the next morning.Will I get sick? Throw up? Get to know my toilet intimately?Haha. I'll find out in a few days.As I'm blogging this, I'm busy getting my resume primped up, to be printed out, sent, & hopefully I'll receive a call for a job interview. But you know something? It still looks empty & dull. Sigh. With that in mind, I'm not too certain about my chances. Nevertheless, I'm keeping my fingers crossed for the best. I mean, it's not the end of the world if I don't get it, right?Que sera, que sera. Whatever will be, will be.I've downloaded Hilary Duff's Dignity & Mandy Moore's Wild Hope. Both are disappointing, to say the least. While Hilary's album is jam-packed with dance tracks (and not a ballad... More About: Food , Dear Diary , Gamble
Bits & Pieces
2007-05-20 12:59:00 Watched Next today with Rex, Imelda, Alex, Leon, Casey, & Daniel. The movie was not too bad, and the cinema was so-so after my initial lack of enthusiasm for the location. The ending was kind of frustrating, though. Should we anticipate a sequel???Anyway... The most terrible thing happened. I infected Alex's laptop with a virus. But the funny thing is, the only virus (RavMon) which I knew I might have on my pendrive was not THAT bad till it messes up your PC! The worst thing that could happen is that it would slow down your PC... That's it. Alex said that the virus he detected was a different one. In any case, I'm trying my best here to get it fixed. *Tears*On a totally different subject, I found this site which offers downloads for Christian music. The only downside? You'd be downloading a whole album at once, which is kinda slow. So if you decide to give it a try and you do like whatever you happen to download, please do go & buy the original album. That's what I do.Regarding... More About: Dear Diary , Piece , Pieces , Bits
Decisions
2007-05-14 16:11:00 Like the pieces in a board game...Where you end up next depends on the dice that you throwSo what do you do?What do you choose? More About: Dear Diary , Sion , Decisions
Hear Me (Tears Into Wine)
2007-05-02 17:09:00 lyrics - Jim Brickman Lyrics More About: Wine , Hear , Soundtrack To Your Life , Ears
Musical Headache
2007-04-25 16:19:00 Guess what? Apparently I didn't lose the Hillsong London songs I downloaded... The computer at the cyber cafe caused a malfunction to my mp3 player! x_x So even though the songs couldn't be detected, they were still there. I had to re-format the player, and re-download the whole album. Luckily, the rest of the songs that I had were okay. They'd better be!!I read in the newspaper today about a cult that calls themselves Growing In Grace. What was scary about the article was about how this man (the so-called founder) believes that he is the second manifestation of Christ on earth. Morever, evangelists from Assemblies Of God churches, and even other prominent people in the Roman Catholic church have joined the cult.I did a bit of research on the net, so check out this link if you're interested to find out more. The person who wrote the article above listed down what Growing In Grace is about and provided the facts to prove them as they are... Fake teachings!There's something else ... More About: Musical , Dear Diary , Head , Headache
Precious Words
2007-04-24 10:11:00 I came upon this yesterday.Hi! My name is Courtney. Because God has called me to be a missionary, this has become my favorite quote:As for me no matter what the sacrifice, I will follow Christ.It blew me away. Such a simple words, yet it's not a vow to be taken lightly. Full of hope & trust. I'm sure Courtney is still young for her age. And for someone so young to hold on to a promise like that... Wow. I can't explain it, but those words really had an impact on me. Especially when I reflect on the way my life has been of late. Heh. So who says because they're young, they don't know anything? More About: Words , S word , Precious , Reci
April Babies
2007-04-23 08:28:00 Actually, it's all belated, but I did send them greetings through SMS during their birthday, so I guess they'll forgive me for it. *Hehe* The only exception is Hannah, who's birthday is today.Mom, sorry that I couldn't be there to celebrate it with you but I hope your birthday was all you wanted it to be- and more. Love ya!Hannah, happy 15th birthday! Well, at least you're another year closer to being able to go out & have fun like your sister. We'll miss you when you leave by next year. Probably... ^.^Sara, our Juwita Suwito look-alike! Happy birthday all the way from Malaysia. Did my SMS reach you?Imelda, you know what? I think I would never have known you if you & Rex didn't get together, so thank God for that! Happy birthday!Rachel, happy 18th birthday! Hope your exams went well. ^.^ More About: Babies , April , They , Babi
Unconventional Neighbours
2007-04-22 09:11:00 I got mad at my upstairs neighbour again last night. I didn't scream in her face or anything, but I muttered out some unflattering words when she hanged up her clothes without draining them of the excess water (something she ALWAYS does), which naturally dripped onto my clothes which were hanging below. And might I add that they were dry! I don't know if she heard me though.Another problem that she has been causing is that she turns on her air-con almost everytime that she's in the apartment, day or night. It's none of my business, yes, but you betcha yesiree it is when it's leaking onto my bedroom wall! And yes, it's bad! It's been going on for awhile, but I still haven't mustered up the guts yet to talk to her about it (call me chicken, but hey, it was only recently that we confirmed that it's a she, and a nurse at that!). I haven't even talked about it to our landlords yet. Something which I have to do soon, I've delayed enough already.Now that I've got that out of my... More About: Neighbours , Dear Diary , Fired Up , Vent
Coming Soon
2007-04-15 10:38:00 Saviour of the World is the 2007 live album from Planetshakers.Recorded in January 2007 at Planetshakers Conference at the Vodafone Arena, Melbourne, the album is expected to be released in June 2007 with a bonus DVD featuring preaching clips, conference highlights and live worship songs. [1]This is also the first Planetshakers album not to feature Ps Mike Guglielmucci as bass guitarist, due to illness.[edit] Track listing 1. "Praise You" (words and music: Mike Guglielmucci) 2. "So In Love With You" (words and music: Henry Seeley) 3. "Saviour of the World" (words and music: Sam Evans) 4. "My Life is Yours" (words and music: Jonathan Hunt) 5. "No One Else" (words and music: Guglielmucci) 6. "Take Me" (words and music: Seeley) 7. "Reign Forever" (words and music: Evans, Guglielmucci and Hunt) 8. "Lead Me On" (words and music: Guglielmucci) 9. "Stand" (words and music: Guglielmucci) 10. "Boom" (words and music: Hunt) 11. "Jesus" (words and music: Guglielmucci) 12. ... More About: Soundtrack To Your Life , Ming
Recently...
2007-04-12 16:35:00 Whenever I'm in a cyber cafe nowadays (as rare as it is), I make a point to download soundtrack albums. My aim right now is to get songs from various teen flicks & romantic comedies that bring tons of memories whenever I listen to them. The downloading speed tonight is a bit weird though. T_TThe youth camp is coming up at the end of next month, something which I've been looking forward to, but lately, I've been having second thoughts about it. To go or not to go?Another friend has left Kota Kinabalu for greener pastures... On Tuesday morning, Febiq flew off to Ipoh to join his family who have been there since last year.By the way, did you know that Natasha Bedingfield is a member of the Hillsong church in London? She even wrote & performed in their first live praise & worship album. Go figure. More About: Dear Diary , Recently
Happy Easter
2007-04-08 17:12:00 You know, at times we are so consumed at the thought of ourselves, of the circumstances that we are in, feeling so hopeless & drained, that we start questioning where is God in all of it? We tend to fail to realize that God is always, ALWAYS there. And believe in this, that He does care, for are we not His children? I thank God for answered prayers, but especially for... Hope.Congrats to Hannah & the some others from the youth who were baptised today.Regarding the layout, I pretty much figured that it was time for a change... More About: Easter , Happy , Dear Diary , Aster
Something More
2007-04-06 17:48:00 Everything's changed, and I want to believeThere must be a reason, there just has to beCause my faith is strong, 'till it all hits homeAnd it's not enough for me to trust When it hurts too muchOn the days I feel like I've failed youThe days I feel I've been failedI need to praise YouFor I am Yours, I'm YoursWhere is the power, to give what I gaveGive back the strength Give back the faith I had yesterdayCause you are my GodYou are my Great I AmAnd I know I have fallen but..I have landed in healing handsOn the days I feel like I've failed youThe days I feel I've been failedI need to praise YouFor I am Yours, I'm YoursAnd in my fraility, you lead me to something moreSo I close my eyes, cause inside my heartI believe, that I'm not aloneYou'll always be there for meOn the days I feel like I've failed youThe days I feel I've been failedI know that I need to praise YouFor I am yours, still yoursCause I believe you lead me to something moreSome thing more, something more More About: Soundtrack To Your Life , Thing
Feeling Unwanted
More articles from this author:2007-04-02 18:40:00 It gets so hard at times. But I'm trying to get over it, by reminding myself of the friends that I do have, no matter how small in number. They are the ones who stick by me of their own choice, and you have to give them credit for that, for I am notoriously "hard-to-get-along-with" or so I heard.I still can't believe that Leon is gone. And to think that I wouldn't even have known if I didn't hear my Mom talking about it to my aunt. He was such a jovial person, full of life, friendly even to those who he hardly knows. Life is so fleeting. It made me realize the seriousness of letting people know how much you care because you'll never know if that'll be the last time that you'll talk to them.Now, keeping in mind of my vow to appreciate them, almost all my friends are currently undergoing problems of their own. I feel helpless, unable to help those who are near or far. All I can do is just pray for them, be a listening ear, & a supportive friend. Which I feel is just isn't enou... More About: Dear Diary , Feeling , Wanted , Feel 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 |
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