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Clarity
2009-05-31 02:56:00
The shoutbox keeps on getting spam. Should I turn off the linking? Or maybe remove it completely?Well, being home recently had it ups and downs. The ups? It was fun. The downs? The weather and the sleep which I need to catch up on before I get back to work on Tuesday. The days sure pass by quickly. It's like we've just barely stepped onto the island (yep, I made a trip back to ye olde hometown) and we already have to leave.A former classmate keeps on trying to chat with me since I've added her to my friends list. The thing is, she seems hell bent on asking me where I'm working. I think it was about 5 times that she brought it into our conversation but as she was hell bent on finding out, I just didn't feel like divulging the information to her. Why? I don't know. Maybe I was bothered by the way she kept trying to go about it.Been thinking lately that there are some places that you can't go back to, no matter how much you miss it or want to belong. And either way, my mind has ...
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Lost Cause
2009-05-21 13:14:00
I open my eyesI try to see but I'm blinded by the white lightI can't remember howI can't remember whyI'm lying here tonightAnd I can't stand the painAnd I can't make it go awayNo I can't stand the painHow could this happen to meI made my mistakesGot no where to runThe night goes onAs I'm fading awayI'm sick of this lifeI just wanna screamHow could this happen to meEverybody's screamingI try to make a sound but no one hears meI'm slipping off the edgeI'm hanging by a threadI wanna start this over againSo I try to hold onto a time when nothing matteredAnd I can't explain what happenedAnd I can't erase the things that I've doneNo I can'tHow could this happen to meI made my mistakesGot no where to runThe night goes onAs I'm fading awayI'm sick of this lifeI just wanna screamHow could this happen to meI made my mistakesGot no where to runThe night goes onAs I'm fading awayI'm sick of this lifeI just wanna screamHow could this happen to me
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Plans, Books & Twitter
2009-05-08 05:49:00
Tomorrow's another public holiday. Hurrah! And thanks to that, a couple of pals are coming over tonight for a scare-a-thon. Probably to scare the bejabbers out of each other. Haha! Well, being the scaredy cat that I am (and being home alone at that), I'm not so keen on it, but hey, it's better than watching them alone.I'm still thinking over my Harvest Festival weekend plans. I just don't feel like taking the bus and ferry, making the long travel on my own. That said, when again will I get the chance to have a good four or five days back home? A plan of some sort which involves bringing a group of friends over did come to mind, but the last two or three previous occasions that I suggested it was met with less than enthusiastic reactions. Besides that, everyone already seem to have plans of their own.Oh yeah, I've finally finished reading Twilight, and I'm more than halfway through New Moon. (Couldn't find the final two books that day, so I couldn't complete the set) Anyway....
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Over & Done
2009-04-17 08:55:00
Viewed the final two episodes of Goong last weekend. I actually found Chaegyung to be too whiny (which got on my nerves) at the last few episodes, so it was a relief when she and Shin finally got together (even though they saved it till the very end). Sadly, it resulted in Yul turning into a wimpy guy, looking sad and frustrated whenever seeing them together.Shin & ChaegyungIt's actually a disappointment to me that they weren't true to the manga that it was based on. There were a number or prominent characters missing, like Yul's fiancee (whoa!), a perverted old man seeming obsessed with Yul (haha!), and a few interesting plot lines, like Hyorin and Chaegyung's brother apparently hitting it off! Yikes! But I only heard about the last part, so I can't verify if it's true, as I have only skimmed through a few scanlations of the manga so far.Shin, Chaegyung, Yul, and HyorinI am aware that they were planning to make a sequel, but a few complications arose which led to it being...
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Drama Queen
2009-04-07 08:13:00
Been suffering from lack of sleep these past few days. The reason being? I finally got started on a certain Korean drama which I had always heard about, but never really had the interest to watch, due to many other distractions. Heh. And what happened on the day I finally started? I couldn't stop watching. It was only at 3am that I dragged myself to bed (albeit reluctantly & regretfully)... Haha! So which show am I referring to? It's... Goong @ Princess Hours! But it hasn't been an easy watching experience. I actually have two DVD's (one is from the Philippines and the other was bought locally), BUT... Both of the subtitles included are lousy. You rarely get a straight sentence and there are occasions where there's just a tiny dot instead of a translation. Many a time I had to try and guess what was going on, and the topic of their conversations.So fed up (and desperate) am I of it that I resorted to looking around for other DVD copies which might have better subs (a comple...
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Waiting For The Weekend
2009-03-31 05:33:00
Lately, I've been feeling insecure when it comes to my blog. I don't really have or make the time for it, I have nothing interesting to say, I can't design my own layouts or buttons cause they never seem good enough for me to use, and there are tons of other bloggers out there on the world wide web who are undeniably better. But I do have three non-related to the blog things to be grateful for, the first one being that my Dad has agreed to let me use his debit card. Alright! As to the question why in the world would I need it in the first place... Well, I'm going to sign up for a trial account with an anime hosting site. It'll be for one month just to see how things go, and if it works well, heck, you bet I'll consider a one year account. It doesn't even matter that I'll be charged in Euros. ^.^ I've tried out their free files, and so far, so good. I'm itching to get started on creating that account, but I'm worried of the so-called "April Fool" Cornflicker virus so I'm ...
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Kiddie Pastimes
2009-03-25 08:44:00
This would give you a rough idea of how I spent my childhood days....
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A Little Pick Me Up
2009-03-24 09:20:00
Felt super low today. It was to the point that I wouldn't have minded lashing out at anyone and everyone. On the other hand, I also felt like burying myself in a hole. So go figure. The summary is, I wasn't someone who you would want to be around today (as if any other day would be different... Hehe). Well, late in the evening, I kinda remembered this certain site which I've always wanted to visit but kept on forgetting.Nothing like some laughter to lift up broken spirits, huh?Wanna see more cheezburger kitties? Meow!
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Restless
2009-03-20 06:12:00
Remember the RM200 voucher I was compensated with for being delayed by Air Asia? Well, I still have not made use of it as yet. The thing is, that voucher is only valid for three months from the date of issue, so time is catching up on me. Would have loved to use it for a trip with friends, but all those I contacted could not confirm a date. Can't blame them really, cause they're all out of the country, so it's hard to get a date where everyone can make it. *Sigh* Not to mention the fact that I lucked out on the cheap zero fare seats which I would have been able to cover not only my ticket, but theirs too using only that voucher. Shocked? Yeah, it was THAT cheap, but oh well...Which brings us to now, where I am lost as to whether I should use it to fly off somewhere on my own (visit Lionel in KL, maybe?) or cajole my father into a family trip and that amount would cover my share. Honestly speaking, the one thing I want is to extend the use by date, so I wouldn't have to make my c...
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Back In Business
2009-03-18 08:29:00
These past few days (unfortunately, tomorrow will be the last) have been blissfully peaceful in the office due to the absence of one of the staff. I must say, it's been great to be free of gossip and the backstabbing chatter, however brief the period is.Oh yeah, just in case it's completely bypassed your attention, I've also taken the chance to make some modifications to the blog. You like? Hehe... Well, hopefully, it won't fall into negligence again. Blogging is one of the favorite pastimes which I've had to cut down on ever since I've started working, and consequently, dearly missed.I hereby declare my will to try and keep the blog going, no matter how, well, crazy things go. With "try" being the operative word, of course. ^.^ Thanks for the continued support, y'all!
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Do Our Choices Affect Fate?
2009-03-17 07:59:00
Which is harder, walking away or staying around, hoping that one day it'll all get better? When you're walking away it's not just from the people/things/issues involved, but you might be closing a door which may never be opened again.
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Ureshii
2009-03-16 07:05:00
I find it ironic that the day right after I blogged about my new found addiction to Pet Society, my boss decides to block the majority of social networking sites (or at least, the known popular ones) in the office. So it's farewell to writing on walls or notes, or even Facebook chat for that matter.I've been coping with it just fine, in fact, I've turned my attention to other activities. One good thing that's turned out of it is... After months of toiling, I finally know how to convert an .mkv file to .avi. Woo hoo! (Yes, I am that much of an idiot) It was only last week that I grasped the concept of mkv being a container, and the need to extract out its contents in order to successfully convert the file. The results? Well, you're looking at an extremely smug and happy lady... Haha!If you're wondering why I would even consider converting an mkv to avi in the first place... (Yes, I am aware that the latter is superior)... The reason being is that these days, quite a lot of fans...
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Heated Up
2009-03-06 08:15:00
Some people take a sadistic delight in other people's mistakes.Could you be anymore obvious about it?And since I'm not gonna say it openly...[Insert suitable expletive here] !!![Edit/] Sorry for the outburst, but I was pissed and needed somewhere to unload.
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Society Rules
2009-02-23 06:42:00
Since last week, there's only one thing I'm looking forward to whenever I log into Facebook.Yes, it's Pet Society !!! I don't know why in the world it took me so long to finally get into the game, but since I've started I can't get off it. So what's the game about? Well, the title itself should give you some sort of clue. Basically, you create your own pet (almost everything is customizable, from the eyebrows to the color) and then navigate your way through the "society" comprised of all your friends who have also joined in the fun. You have to raise your pet's levels and "moolah" (as in coins), while keeping it happy, healthy & clean. Sounds familiar, huh? (The Sims, anyone?)My pet Sasuke (yep, kinda lame, I know) is currently slowly but surely, trying to climb up the social ladder. Unfortunately, it's still poor. *Sigh* The house is still in a sad, sad state and highly lacking in all the important amenities. In short, I'm having problems raking in the coins cause I'm bad...
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Ramblings
2009-02-09 05:49:00
I get depressed every time I see my widgets disappear after a layout change.It's like, "So I've got to do it all over again, have I?" In this case, I had to change it cause the images from the previous layout went MIA due to exceeded bandwidth.In other news... Today happens to be the last day of Chinese New Year. It's not a public holiday, but at least it has granted me the opportunity to get off from work early. Yay! And if you're wondering... Since I have no immediate family members within the vicinity, my plans for tonight do not differ from my norm: they consist of a solitary dinner and a good DVD. ^.^The family; taken during our CNY trip to Genting HighlandsWhich brings me to realize... I haven't posted up any of my brother's wedding photos, have I? Anyway... Happy Chap Goh Mei!
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Now Everyone Can Get Delayed By Air Asia
2009-01-24 02:46:00
Yay! My flight has been delayed... For more than two hours, in fact! My departure time is now the actual time I was initially scheduled to arrive. My parents (who are flying from Labuan) were even contemplating on leaving me to fend on my own, to either stay overnight in KL or pay the really expensive cab fare up to Genting. Isn't that fun?Gosh, it's no wonder that I'm not in the mood to travel.I'm ashamed to admit that the thought of cancelling out and spending CNY on my own did cross my mind. Honestly, I feel like saying "bugger it all" and curl up in my nice, comfortable bed and sleep. I've been feeling tired and irritable lately. Getting up in the morning for work seemed like a chore and one of my colleagues really got on my nerves this week.So here I am, wasting my 2 hours and some 30 minutes browsing the internet and logging into Facebook. Which costs me RM5 an hour, by the way. And since I mistakenly paid for three hours (tried to rectify it, but it couldn't be done), s...
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Tegomass... I Like!
2009-01-15 05:08:00
So far, I've only heard two of their songs thanks to Neo Angelique Abyss and Lovely Complex, but what the heck, they're great! A quick search on Youtube yielded some of their music videos (which was the first time I've put a face to the voices), and I must say... Tegoshi is cute!
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Truth Hurts
2009-01-12 09:15:00
Kahlil Gibran once wrote: "Your reason and your passion are your rudder and sails of your seafaring soul. If either be broken, you could but toss and drift or else be held at a standstill amid seas. For reason, running alone, is a force confining. And passion, unattended, is a flame that burns to its own destruction."
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A Is For Anime
2009-01-09 08:08:00
Ever since Crunchyroll went *beep*, I've been floundering around searching for another source to get my anime fix. I've come up with various options, but none really worth taking up. Either the download speed is too slow to bother with, or you encounter too many problems while downloading, or even worse, it's using Megaupload (which is a complete pain, really).Below is my current obsession, I stumbled upon it at one of the many sites.It's SA which stands for Special A!Apparently it's been around for awhile... Which ensures that the whole series has ended (even more the better!). My current progress is, I'm still downloading episode 15, while I've already watched the first ten episodes. The story basically focuses on the lives and loves of the seven main characters, who are the best students in their school (good enough to have their own lounge and kitchen!).The spotlight is mostly on Hikari Hanazono & Kei Takishima. Kei likes Hikari, but she's too dense to realize it, in fac...
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What In The World???
2009-01-02 02:42:00
I was pretty excited to hear that the family pet, Zeus, would have a fellow friend once more. My dad told me that Desmond was successful in finding a newborn female puppy (I forgot the type of breed).Well... I called home last night just to find out how things were going...Let's just say things didn't go too well.The moment the puppy (it was only 2 months old) was brought home and placed on the floor, Zeus attacked her. Needless to say, my Dad and brother were shocked. The puppy ended up staying in the house for 2 days (which included several tries to get Zeus to be nice)... Zeus just didn't want to be friends and keeps on attacking her (or tried to) whenever she was within reach.Eventually, it was decided that they couldn't keep her.Sigh... What else is there to say? Zeus no baka!!!
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'No underwear' party for real?
2008-12-31 04:04:00
The following article below is hilarious, yet scary in terms of how it show how morals in Malaysia has fallen. In fact, it was only just night that we (me, Lionel, Roy, Roy's sis) saw two couples making out pretty passionately somewhere around the pool area of Sutera Harbour. Eww... But seriously, I think the authorities are in denial. I did post up something about an invitation only party that was held in KK one or two years back that had rooms specially for "woo hoo" (no explanation needed) activities. Surely that was not the first and the last party with that sort of "theme". Anyway... Give the article a look.KUALA LUMPUR (AFP) - - Malaysian authorities have condemned rumoured plans for a New Year's Eve sex party at a remote beach, while police warned the "no-underwear" event could be a con job.Newspaper reports said the party for the under-40s, to be held in southern Johor state bordering Singapore, was being advertised through a website that asked for 250 ringgit (72 dollars)...
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Caught In the Act
2008-12-22 08:10:00
Sigh... Do I need to elaborate? I think not.Basically this just further goes to show further why Vanessa Hudgens (and boyfriend Zac Efron) are not really good role models. Honestly speaking, I've never really liked Vanessa (though I do like one or two of her songs). I don't think Vanessa will ever head down the road to destruction like Britney once did, I believe she's smarter than that... But she's definitely not as innocent as her image makes her out to be.Oh, and if you're still wondering what I'm harping about, take a close look at the photos... They're in a adult shop. Bet they didn't expect that fan (the lady in the photos with them) to post up them up on the net, did they?
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I [Heart] December
2008-12-03 05:44:00
December already? Ah, crap.But I'd be in denial if I said I'm not excited. ^.^Why? Let me count thee ways...One. Two big, no wait, HUGE events are coming up. Two. It'll be the first time in years that I'll be spending Christmas with the family, and it's the absolute first with some of my relatives from Penang who will be coming over. Not to mention that it'll be the first time that the relatives come to KK, so I wanna make it really special. *Winks*Three. I get to do what I love: plan out the excursions, the family Christmas dinner, book the accomodation, work out the logistics... You get the picture.Four. I'll be taking several day's off from work. Yipee!Five. Someone's coming back for the hols. It's supposed to be a secret, but the cat's out of the bag. *Hehe*Six. There's plenty of excuses to play dress up (something which I hardly do).Seven. It's Christmas!!! Who needs another excuse to be happy???
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I See Zero
2008-11-12 08:54:00
Malaysia's low cost carrier Air Asia is now offering the lowest possible rate ever... A return fare from Kota Kinabalu to Kuala Lumpur is now only RM57. Another note worthy item is that the return fare from Kota Kinabalu to Clark (Manila) is around RM70. That's crazy! Of course, deals as such are never that easy... For example, although you are able to purchase your tickets starting today until the 16th of November, the travel dates only begin on 22 June 2009... So you'd have to wait more than half a year before you can finally fly to your preferred destination.Another thing I've noticed is that Air Asia is becoming somewhat like Malaysia Airlines in terms that they don't offer zero fares when it's near a public holiday. X_X What a pity. Anyway... Of course there's a point in me blogging about this... It's kind of like a big hint to someone. *Hint hint* *Prods* When is it our turn???? ^.^
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Musings
2008-10-20 10:35:00
Just counting down the days till December...Not that I have much to look forward to, except the 5 day break that I'll be taking.Life's pretty exhausting these days.You know the saying that "Bad things come in 3's?". Well, that would sum up my previous week.Sometimes I wish I could just pick up some remote control (does this sound too much like Click?)and press the pause button.Despite the hectic planning and stuff that should be in motion for the upcoming nuptials, strangely I find myself uninvolved.Probably because I'm away from where all the action is?Some part of me is glad that I'll be back just in time for the event.Yet... Being disconnected has it's cons... It's taking awhile for reality to sink in and the implications of what's to happen.It's like, I'd be sitting around and suddenly the realisation that some things will never be the same again will kick in.I'm freaking out at the thought of that.Maybe I'm just scared of change.I've been thinking... How does one g...
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Wake Up Time
2008-08-23 06:14:00
It is said that every human being is responsible for his/her own actions. So why is it that I can't stop these feelings of regret or thoughts of "what if"? Would I have actually been able to change anything if I had done this or that?It's such a sad state of affairs when a choice is made, and the outcome of that affects your whole future. I'm not saying that it's the end of your life as you know it, gone, kaput, finito, but let's face it, it changes a lot of things, doesn't it? Certain dreams, aspirations, can no longer be realised. What's done is done, therefore... All that I can come up with is this: to pray that those people will face up to their responsibilities, for them to have wisdom in the decisions that need to be made, and more importantly, for them to not forget God. Let not one mistake be replaced with another.
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Family Affair
2008-06-28 05:27:00
As if my life wasn't already in upheaval, yesterday I was surprised with the news of something which I had been dreading for about two years. Well... Can't do a thing about it, it's out of my hands. In any case, for the next six months, looks like things are about to get pretty hectic and maybe even crazy, at times. What irks me the most, is the fact that the one person with the power to stop all the proceedings is just gonna stand there and watch it happen. Sigh. I know that things don't always go the way we want them to in life, but I just have this feeling in my bones that this won't end up well. This one decision will impact so many circumstances, several lives as well. I just wish that more thought was given into it.
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Walking Away
2008-06-14 01:45:00
I heard you say "We were one and the same"Well wrong againI could never do those things you did to meI will be okIn time you'll fade into the nothing that you areThe nothing you are
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Lost
2008-06-06 04:13:00
It's been said that the saddest thing a man will ever face is what might have been ? But what of the man who's faced with what was? Or what may never be? Or what can no longer be? Choosing the right path is never easy. It's a decision we make with only our hearts to guide us. But sometimes we find our way to something better. Sometimes we fight through the regret and remorse of our mistakes, our malice and our jealously and the shame we feel for not being the people we were meant to be. - Dan, One Tree Hill
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Still Searching
2008-06-05 10:29:00
There was just so much to say... And yet, now that I'm actually here... Why is it so hard to speak of what I must?Consumed by doubt and reservations, I had a revelation... Maybe it's not the solution after all?So... What's it gonna be now? Where do I go from here?
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