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Fucking hilarious
2008-06-01 06:07:00
YO homeboys and homegirls...I have been a fucking slacker here, but all is going well (just incredibly busy!). I'll get back into gear here soon though, i promise. In the meantime, consider the following:
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Crying my eyes out and feeling helpless
2008-05-25 06:56:00
I just got off of the phone from talking to P. briefly: he is en route to the hospital with what is likely a bleeding ulcer. I couldn't control myself...the tears flowed freely.I love him and I'm petrified.Please wish him well, will you?
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The National Cynical Network beckons you!
2008-05-18 22:24:00
My good online friend Phineas Narco will be broadcasting tonight (he does so regularly!) an especially tasty show called "Audiorotica"; I have previewed bits of it and am completely sure that you'll enjoy it as much as I will! Questions on tuning in? Drop me a line and I'll try to help you out if I can!
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How goes, peeps?
2008-05-16 08:57:00
I'll TELL you how it goes here: unable to get to fucking sleep!I had an incredibly nasty migraine earlier which has fortunately passed, but my sinuses are screaming at me that they just might decide to exert enough pressure to induce another one at any moment. To tell you the truth, I'm not sure that I give two shits (so long as I am able to crawl in to work in the morning, that is). I am very good right now both physically and emotionally, and I dare anyone or anything to wrench the positive feelings from me.I know I owe a few friends phone calls, and I'll gladly get around to it over the next few days. In the meantime, peace out, and may you all find the loves of your lives. :-)

I Walk The Line
2008-05-16 08:35:00
Hell fuckin' YEAH I love this song, and I was listening to it earlier in the evening during a very special phone conversation with P.; of course, I'm sure that some people may be pissed off to hear that, but I am in a unique place right now which doesn't require that I mind who I do or do not piss off. Does that make me bad? Hell no, it simply makes me REAL.(Johnny Cash)I keep a close watch on this heart of mineI keep my eyes wide open all the timeI keep the ends out for the tie that bindsBecause you're mine, I walk the lineI find it very, very easy to be trueI find myself alone when each day is throughYes, I'll admit that I'm a fool for youBecause you're mine, I walk the lineAs sure as night is dark and day is lightI keep you on my mind both day and nightAnd happiness I've known proves that it's rightBecause you're mine, I walk the lineYou've got a way to keep me on your sideYou give me cause for love that I can't hideFor you I know I'd even try to turn the tideBecause...
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Happy Birthday to me!!!
2008-05-14 01:03:00
Indeed, I turned 37 yesterday at 2:15pm CDT...take care all, and I'll post again later! :-)
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Wicked Game
2008-05-10 09:01:00
(Chris Isaak)The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you.And I never dreamed that I knew somebody like you.No, I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)No, I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)With you. With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)What a wicked game to play, to make me feel this way.What a wicked thing to do, to let me dream of you.What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way.What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you and,I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)No, I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)With you.The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you.And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebod...
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Confused and amused
2008-05-10 08:22:00
Hey people.I'm currently pulling a Dick Cheney and posting from an "undisclosed location" to get out of the office for a few days of rest, yet I'm exhausted and cannot get to sleep for anything due to having too much on my mind at present. I HAD planned on posting something rather witty regarding the aria "Questa o quella" from the opera Rigoletto, but that urge seems to have dissipated for now. Instead, I'm sitting here listening to Meredith Brooks sing "What Would Happen" (you can find the lyrics here, should you care to) and nursing a rather hefty dose of self pity...for reasons slightly beyond my ability to fully comprehend at present.Heh, in a way I find this all quite funny: my life is anything but dull, and I should simply take satisfaction in knowing that.

Excessive caffeine and Abilify simply do NOT mix
2008-05-07 06:34:00
As all of you are aware, I take the atypical antipsychotic Abilify; as some of you are additionally aware, I am an extreme aficionado of VERY strong coffee. After the events of yesterday, however, I am well on my way to tempering that habit!I typically consume 4 large cups of stout coffee in any given day: 2 before I go to work, and 2 upon arrival. However, as I didn't get much sleep on Sunday night, I was inspired to take an extra 3 cups on Monday afternoon when our new secretary brewed a beautiful pot and offered me some. Uh, in how many ways can I say mistake?!? Within half an hour of the last cup, I started feeling warm, hyper, anxious, and paranoid simultaneously...and only then did I recall that, duh, I have had issues with caffeine in the past (though they only occurred on lower quantities and when I was taking the dreadful med Topamax), and never before had I imbibed this much strong coffee while on Abilify. I continued to descend into an even crappier state of existence up...
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Nine Inch Nails: "The Slip" available for free download
2008-05-05 11:37:00
Indeed, the latest Nine Inch Nails album has been released today freely over the internet! Head on over to nin.com to get your copy!
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Here to stay ;-)
2008-05-05 11:20:00
Okay, so I've been somewhat surprised over the past few days by comments and such (among other things), but you know what? I'm here to stay, baby, like it or not.As many of you well know, I have always enjoyed blogging over the more than 3 years that "Weird Cake" has existed, and I see absolutely no need to shut things down simply out of frustration over what others may have said in response to anything I have posted about my personal life or feelings. I must admit that a comment truly annoying me at the moment involved the following one (which was posted anonymously):"Feelings can be beautiful and hateful at the same time. Be sure if you are in love, the other person is in love with you not the fact you make a hell of a lot more money than he does! Sometimes to the other person love looks like a dollar sign!"Uh...can you see why this might be bothering me a slight bit? Obviously this individual knows me well enough to have taken note of my paycheck yet did NOT have the nerve to e...
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The blog
2008-05-05 01:33:00
Have I fucked up things lately or what?I am contemplating taking the blog into oblivion; I'm not sure entirely why.*Hugs*K.
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Oh boy...
2008-05-03 05:46:00
...just how wise (or obviously not the case) was my most recent blog post? Fuck it: y'all who are accustomed to the posts on here over the years understand how I can be and seek no explanations; the rest of you are left to wonder.

Feeling (all at the same time):
2008-05-01 09:00:00
Inebriated.Exhilarated.Frustrated.Loved.( Perhaps?) in love.Write me comments, I need them right about now and will answer ALL of them.
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Congrats are in order!!!
2008-05-01 08:45:00
My dear longtime friend E.J. is once again with child, and I bring you an early photograph right now...meet the second little boy that will be entering her and K.'s lives later on this year!
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My home away from home :-)
2008-04-28 02:49:00
Yup, the mess you see below is my extremely cluttered (but quite productive thus far) bit of bench space in the lab.
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Sunday work
2008-04-27 22:33:00
So here I sit at my office, waiting for some peripheral blood mononuclear cells to pulse with peptides before I begin the next phase of the experiment. Considering that this will be a long day, I'm thinking about cutting out of here early tomorrow...sound like a plan?
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SO fucking busy!
2008-04-26 22:14:00
Indeed I have slacked off on posting yet again, please forgive me for the oversight.Things have been oh-so-busy yet in a totally wonderful way at work, and I'm beyond pleased to announce that the feelings I formerly had in New Mexico of wanting to just throw in the towel and not pursue research as a career at all have entirely dissipated: when it comes down to it, I'm completely a scientist at heart, but the bullshit that goes along with a career in academia is simply not for me in the least. Working in biotech now has made me happier than I've ever been as a researcher, and I hope to pursue work in this manner for many years to come. Hell, I even sacrificed what was to have been a day off yesterday to squeeze in an experiment simply because I wanted to get it done and see the results. Love my job? Saying so might be an understatement. :-)Today, however, I have nothing major on my plate except for some grocery shopping, tidying up the apartment a bit (it's a HELLACIOUS mess, a...
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Late night/early morning randomness
2008-04-19 10:23:00
Yup indeed, I brought one of the roses home with me and am enjoying its fragrance as I type this...isn't it just OH SO PRETTY?!? I left the rest of them at work to enjoy there (big work weekend coming up anyway), and I actually spend the majority of my time either working or sleeping, so it makes perfect sense, in some admittedly twisted way. ;-)A few hours ago, I got the notion into my head to travel off in search of some hearty breakfast food and thus headed straight for IHOP. The crowd consisted of primarily folks older than me until about half an hour into my visit, at which point every adolescent in the city seemed to have infiltrated the place, but not like this development mattered to me in the least: as a veteran "people watcher", it merely livened up the scene.I was seated at a small table next to a booth hosting 6 young teens, 3 girls and 3 guys. They had been there for quite awhile before I arrived and were headed out not long after my food (an oh-so-yummy Big Bacon Om...
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My face turned SO red...
2008-04-18 19:51:00
...when I was in the middle of a long meeting this morning and a dozen beautiful roses were delivered to me! :-D
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If you don't have a mental illness when you go in, you certainly will by th
2008-04-16 01:11:00
Howdy all! I'm home early today, as I just got through with a Witch Doctor appointment and live on this side of town anyway.As you can tell by the title of this post, I have some thoughts that I'd like to rant about, but FOR FUCK'S SAKE where do I begin? I mean, in the past I have described the offices of my San Diego and Dallas Witch Doctors with fleeting bits of criticism (I'm too lazy to go trolling through my archives to find the link, yet I do recall thinking that the chair cushions in one of the offices were uncomfortable...hehe), but truth be told, they were damn alright in my book.Let's begin with arriving at the building which houses my current psychiatrist. Just how fucking welcoming does it feel to be met with 2 doors leading in: one heavily-reinforced and emblazoned in bold with "STAFF ONLY" and the other, which is quite rickety, stating "Patients - No smoking, No food, No beverages"? Gee, nice way to get started off, by being put squarely in my place, eh?Well, thi...
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How goes YOUR Sunday?
2008-04-13 23:33:00
Mine, for one, is about as relaxed as relaxed can be: due to the fact that the big experiment got fucked up by contamination, no work today (although I did run by the lab for about an hour to chat with my boss...he is just too cool to pass up the opportunity of spending time with!). I've spend a bit of time chatting with friends on Undernet #daedalus as well as playing Civilization IV: Warlords, both of which I enjoyed very much. Nonetheless, I feel somehow worthless for not doing a goddamn thing worthy of production today. Does this count me as a workaholic? I certainly hope not!!!
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WordPress, anyone? I have questions!
2008-04-12 21:41:00
In my state of sleeplessness last night, I did indeed mess around with weirdcake.net and have decided to have a WordPress-powered blog hosted there. However, I have a couple of questions that I'd like to field in the event that someone can give me help:1) Do you have experience editing WordPress templates/themes? If so, how big of a pain in the ass is it to accomplish?Simply stated: I am not impressed in the least with the available themes for WordPress currently circulating in the cyber universe for download. The vast majority seem quite cold, calculated, and just not "personal" enough for my taste. In addition, y'all KNOW how fond I am of the Van Gogh "Starry Night" aspect of this blog for a number of reasons.2) Is tackling a WordPress theme overhaul something I can accomplish on my own, or would you be willing to help me out?I will pay you upon successful delivery of a completed template that I am satisfied with (using either your advice or letting you craft one yourself from s...
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Grrrr! I can't sleep!!!
2008-04-12 10:09:00
Perhaps it has to do with the fact that I'm stressed out over massive contamination having wiped out a huge experiment I had planned for today; perhaps it concerns a rather candid email that I sent my boss a few hours ago. Then again, perhaps it has nothing to do with either of the above! All I know is that I couldnt get to sleep right now if my life depended on it, which sucks royally. On a decent note, a nagging headache (allergy related) that has been plaguing me from the late afternoon into this evening finally dissipated about an hour ago, so I reckon that things aren't completely bad. ;-) Nonetheless, I am sleepless and bored at present.Perhaps I will play with weirdcake.net a bit and see whether I can figure out something to do with it...
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Thoughts from a Broken Mind
2008-04-11 07:33:00
Yes, yet another member of Undernet #daedalus has started a blog, I am happy to announce! John1626 is now posting at "Thoughts from a Broken Mind ", and I sincerely hope that you drop by to pay him a visit: he possesses an exceptional ability to communicate in a manner which is both raw and eloquent, and I dig it so much.

I bought a domain the other night when I was drunk...
2008-04-11 06:18:00
...my thoughts exactly. ;-) SUPER WEIRD!!!In any case, I am now the proud owner of weirdcake.net! Yee fuckin' haw! I'm not sure what i'm going to do with it yet, but by the fucking gods, it is MINE!!!Love y'all,ariK
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Weird Cake Blog of the Week #44: "Smudgies"
2008-04-07 07:08:00
Howdy again folks...long time no write, but I am out of my funk and back to the business at hand here on the blog. Thank you for your caring and patience during this time, as many of y'all know, April is historically a difficult month for me for a number of reasons, but I'm working to change things in that regard if at all possible. :-) Work is going exceptionally well and I feel better than ever otherwise, so I have a lot to be thankful for.Hey, remember my buddy Calin from Undernet #daedalus who I mentioned a couple of times recently (here and here) in celebration of his funky digital art? He has started a blog of his own dedicated to the cause, and this week's Weird Cake honours thus go out to "Smudgies"! Says Calin of his site, "This web log is devoted to images that were sent to me, or I found on the Google Image Search. I convert them into smudge paintings using the smudge tool in The Gimp, and save them to another filename. I'll edit up to 3 image submissions sent to ...
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I love you, Scott!!!
2008-04-03 05:54:00
My beloved Scott Zarek died 3 years ago of a self-inflicted gunshot wound on April 3, 2005. The gods DAMN you, Scott, for taking yourself from me! I just got off of the phone not long ago from speaking with your mother, and try as I might...I was unable to contain my tears.What aspect of my love failed to maintain you here on earth? If I only knew, I would do so many things over if at all possible within my power.Yours truly until the end of time as I now know it,ariK
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Colleges keep watch over troubled students
2008-03-29 04:06:00
LEXINGTON, Ky. - On the agenda: A student who got into a shouting match with a faculty member. Another who harassed a female classmate. Someone found sleeping in a car. And a student who posted a threat against a professor on Facebook.In a practice adopted at one college after another since the massacre at Virginia Tech, a University of Kentucky committee of deans, administrators, campus police and mental health officials has begun meeting regularly to discuss a watch list of troubled students and decide whether they need professional help or should be sent packing.These "threat assessment groups" are aimed at heading off the kind of bloodshed seen at Virginia Tech a year ago and at Northern Illinois University last month.(You can catch the full story here...)Holy FUCK!?! Is it just me, or is there something extremely wrong with this approach to preventing campus disasters at the hands of the very few? "Bring on a cookie-cutter world" where everyone fits an ideal John or Jane Doe mo...
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Sick :-(
2008-03-28 05:58:00
Indeed, I've been hit hard: try puking since 3:00am this morning on for size and tell me how THAT would make you feel! Food and meds are simply not staying down at all. I must have looked fairly interesting when I showed up to work today, 'cause my boss told me to do the absolute minimum needed and go home to rest. Upon arriving here, I managed to sleep from about 1:00pm to 10:00pm but am still completely wiped out: I'm weak, sore, and chilling. Hopefully tomorrow will be better...(((Hugs to all))),ariK
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