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Bipolarchick.net - Reflections of a Crazy Life

Bipolarchick.net - Reflections of a Crazy Life
Young woman blogging about her life, being bipolar, self-injury, recovery, triggers, fear, failure, past abuse, relationships, dating, sexcapades, current struggles & other issues, as well as advocating for others diagnosed with mental illness.

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Prison
2007-09-02 23:34:00
Nick’s dad, Bob, just called me to let me know that Nick is going back to prison. Holy shit, I can’t believe it. I’m in shock. A few weeks ago, he told me that he had a warrant and he was going to turn himself in but I didn’t really take him or the situation seriously. I partly thought he was just saying it to get me to start talking to him again. (He’s pulled similar tricks before.) When his family told me he was being honest, I was a little concerned, but not too much. I figured the judge would reinstate his sentence. However, I thought he would suspend it and the worst that would happen was an extension of his probation and a big fat fine. I was wrong. A few years ago, Nick was addicted to meth a.k.a. crank. He ended up in prison because of his addiction. The cops had pulled him over because he had an expired tag. He also didn’t have a license or insurance. They arrested him because he had a mobile meth lab in his car in addition to a large amount of the drug. He als...
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Pass the Wellstone Act
2007-09-02 04:23:00
By Betty Ford and Rosalynn Carter If you were diagnosed with a brain tumor, would you seek treatment or would you ignore it and hope it goes away? Would your answer differ according to whether your health insurance covered treatment? A diagnosis such as a brain tumor, or Parkinson's disease, is a serious matter. Just as serious are the diagnoses of mental illnesses and addictions. But depending on the location of the illness in your body, the decision to seek treatment may be harder to make. Mental health and addiction patients are discriminated against because employers and insurers often do not classify these disorders as diseases of the brain. Yet we know after decades of brain research that they indeed are diseases, and that effective treatments exist. As it stands now, health insurers offer coverage and reimbursement if you need cancer therapy or treatment for Parkinson's disease, heart disease, diabetes or any other physical illness. But if you are diagnosed with a ...
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First Date with Dave
2007-08-31 12:58:00
Current Mood: I met another guy last Friday. His name is Dave and we hit it off - we talked for hours. We?re physically attracted to each other and we have a lot in common. He has many features and qualities I like in a partner: He is the gothic type; has several tattoos; ...
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Official Diagnostic Signs for Bipolar Episodes and Bipolar Disorder
2007-08-31 07:01:00
Current Mood: The following are the 'official' signs of what an episode must consist of in order to be classified as manic, depressed, or mixed. The following information was taken from the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fourth Edition.1 Diagnostic Criteria for a Manic Episode * A distinct period of abnormally and persistently elevated, expansive, or irritable mood, lasting at least 1 week (or any duration if hospitalization is necessary). * During the period of mood disturbance, three (or more) of the following symptoms have persisted (four if the mood is only irritable) and have been present to a significant degree: 1. Inflated self-esteem or grandiosity 2. Decreased need for sleep (e.g., feels rested after only 3 hours of sleep) 3. More talkative than usual or pressure to keep talking 4. Flight of ideas or subjective experience that thoughts are racing 5. Distractibility (i.e., attention too easily drawn to unimportant o...
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Official Signs for Depression and Bipolar Disorder
2007-08-31 07:01:00
Current Mood: The following are the 'official' signs of what consists a manic or depressed episode. The information is taken from the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fourth Edition, (DSM-IV), published by the American Psychiatric Association. Criteria for a Manic Episode • A distinct period of abnormally and persistently elevated, expansive, or irritable mood, lasting at least 1 week (or any duration if hospitalization is necessary). • During the period of mood disturbance, three (or more) of the following symptoms have persisted (four if the mood is only irritable) and have been present to a significant degree: 1. Inflated self-esteem or grandiosity 2. Decreased need for sleep (e.g., feels rested after only 3 hours of sleep) 3. More talkative than usual or pressure to keep talking 4. Flight of ideas or subjective experience that thoughts are racing 5. Distractibility (i.e., attention too easily drawn to unimportant or i...
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Rebuttal to Jordan's Accusations
2007-08-30 08:28:00
Jordan1 commented on this post. He said, Jason is one of the best people i know and if you were really bipolar then you wouldn't be able to stay that calm during that conversation in fact you would have been so mad you would have forgot most of that conversation so if i was you i would quit faking it cause no ones buying it After deciphering your butchery of the English language I pondered your asinine allegations. Now I get to quash them. First off, you shouldn't assume things you have no possible way of knowing. When you posted that comment, you probably thought you were really sticking it to me. In reality, all you accomplished was making an ass out of yourself and showing your ignorance. You did it very well, by the way. Second, I was diagnosed as having bipolar disorder in late December 2005. I didn???t meet Jason until January 2007 - that fact alone should be enough to debunk your absurd accusations. Third, feigning an illness like bipolar disorder is impossible ...
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Rebuttal to Jordan's Accusations
2007-08-30 08:28:00
Jordan commented on this post. He said, Jason is one of the best people i know and if you were really bipolar then you wouldn't be able to stay that calm during that conversation in fact you would have been so mad you would have forgot most of that conversation so if i was you i would quit faking it cause no ones buying it After deciphering your butchery of the English language I pondered your asinine allegations. Now I get to quash them. First off, you shouldn't assume things you have no possible way of knowing. When you posted that comment, you probably thought you were really sticking it to me. In reality, all you accomplished was making an ass out of yourself and showing your ignorance. You did it very well, by the way. Second, I was diagnosed as having bipolar disorder in late December 2005. I didn’t meet Jason until January 2007 - that fact alone should be enough to debunk your absurd accusations. Third, feigning an illness like bipolar disorder is impossible t...
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The Options
2007-08-29 12:07:00
To live a life where weakness and fear dominate. To breath a breath and beg God for a break. Hate-filled days and bruises to keep - Terror - filled nights cut the psyche deep. Few understand the strength you have to know - To take abuse for someone weaker, gaining more bruises to show. Learning not to feel so to keep ...
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Dave is a Jerk
2007-08-28 07:32:00
I talked to Dave about Jonathan and the conversation did not go the way I thought it would. Maybe I started the conversation wrong. I'm not sure. Oh well, it's not like I can go back and change it. I asked him what he would do if a violent ex-lover hunted him down and wouldn???t leave him alone. The question confused him, of course. I elaborated by asking him what he would do if he were a female faced with that situation. I think I was wrong about him being a nice guy. He completely misinterpreted the conversation. I didn't bother telling him what Jonathan did, it was obvious he would have blamed me for what happened. He said he didn???t know what he would do because he tends to avoid violent people. I told him that is difficult when they just show up on your doorstep when they aren???t even supposed to know where you live. He said, ???I would call the police.??? I figured he would say that, but it wasn???t an option at the time. I asked, ???what if you don???t have t...
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Boundary Violation
2007-08-28 04:16:00
I?m sitting here shaking just thinking about what happened. I feel trapped. I feel scared. I feel like crying. What do I do? How do I get Jonathan to leave me alone? He showed up on my doorstep. I opened the door because I didn?t know it was he. I have a glass door, so it?s ...
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Boundary Violation
2007-08-28 04:16:00
I???m sitting here shaking just thinking about what happened. I feel trapped. I feel scared. I feel like crying. What do I do? How do I get Jonathan to leave me alone? He showed up on my doorstep. I opened the door because I didn???t know it was he. I have a glass door, so it???s not as if I could???ve pretended I wasn???t home. I was stunned when I saw him standing there, looking me up and down. After I snapped back to reality, I felt disgust, anger, and confusion. I felt an impending sense of doom. I thought moving would get him out of my life, but he tracked me down. I don???t understand why he???s doing this to me, he was meant to be a one-night stand almost two years ago. I knew what was coming. The little girl inside was shrieking. My hands are tied. I???m defenseless against him. I am that little girl again. I wish Dave was still here, but he left a few hours ago. Jonathan invited himself in and he started looking for my bedroom. I tried to tell him I???m involved with someo...
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My Trial
2007-08-27 21:34:00
Current Mood: | defiant | At 2pm today, I had court for a bullshit speeding ticket I got June 26. My roommate had to go with me because he was my witness. We had hoped that the cop wouldn’t show up. He was fifteen minutes late. It irritated me because I know if I had been the one that was late a warrant would have been issued. The judge should have dismissed the case. Nevertheless, the judge did not dismiss it. He did, however, offer me the opportunity to change my plea from not guilty to no contest. I told him no because I was not guilty and that even if I just wanted to change my plea I didn’t have the money to pay the fine. He then explained that if I pled out he could get me time to pay. Then he said I was accused of going only nine miles over the posted limit, which would not count against my driving record. Consequently, I wouldn’t have to worry about my insurance premium going up. That was the second reason I decided fight to the ticket. I didn’t want my ins...
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My Trial
2007-08-27 21:34:00
Current Mood: | defiant | At 2pm today, I had court for a bullshit speeding ticket I got June 26. My roommate had to go with me because he was my witness. We had hoped that the cop wouldn???t show up. He was fifteen minutes late. It irritated me because I know if I had been the one that was late a warrant would have been issued. The judge should have dismissed the case. Nevertheless, the judge did not dismiss it. He did, however, offer me the opportunity to change my plea from not guilty to no contest. I told him no because I was not guilty and that even if I just wanted to change my plea I didn???t have the money to pay the fine. He then explained that if I pled out he could get me time to pay. Then he said I was accused of going only nine miles over the posted limit, which would not count against my driving record. Consequently, I wouldn???t have to worry about my insurance premium going up. That was the second reason I decided fight to the ticket. I didn???t want my ins...
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