It Takes a Village to Raise a ChildIt Takes a Village to Raise a ChildI am a survivor of child abuse. I have dissociative identity disorder. It is also known as multiple personality disorder. This blog is a form of healing to tell the story of our life. We write about our daily life, our inner world as well as the 
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Stuck inside
2008-05-13 00:00:00 Soooo much bad weather lately, we’re stuck indoors for the most part. It sucks. More About: Inside
Walk
2008-05-11 01:40:00 Today was a brave day, and although the day is not over, I’m too pooped to do anything. Went for a walk yesterday with my husband, about 1/2 a mile total. Not very much really, but considering I never go for walks.. I’m proud of it. Today was a really brave day though, went for a ... More About: Walk
Yesterday?s Steve Wilkos
2008-05-08 22:07:00 I couldn’t watch it all in one sitting. To see that evil man on the stage, to see his pathetic, hateful, evil smirk. The eyes, the weight, the height, the smirk.. mostly the smirk. Wooo… I almost couldn’t watch it. I think Steve said something, asking how the guy can just stand there and smirk. How ... More About: Yesterday
Thank you! :)
2008-05-08 19:51:00 You guys really do cheer me up with the comments (except for tool who keeps spamming me about toyotas, dude.. I don’t drive so stop bugging me about it.) Well today I took the plunge adn signed up at Ediets. I don’t have anyone who’s doing weightloss with me, while a friend wants to lose weight.. ...
Rode my bike
2008-05-08 03:14:00 Alone, to the corner restaurant to get icecream. It’s such a small, minor thing to many people but for me it is a huge thing. Pretty stinking proud of myself More About: Bike
Confronting
2008-05-07 01:40:00 I watched the Steve Wilkos for today, I am so proud of those two for confronting their dad. They were so brave, truly brave. I’m very impressed. I don’t think I could do that. No real point in me confronting those who harmed me, they’d just deny it and I think that would make the hurt ...
Classmate
2008-05-06 08:26:00 I heard back from a classmate again, it’s a little weird to hear from anyone from back then but it’s nice too. We have already explained that there are large blocks of memory missing, but not as to why. It’s just nice.. nice to know someone remembered me I guess. Must not be a terrible ...
Maybe
2008-05-05 22:21:00 You know what, maybe I think I might just erase all links.. that way no one’s blog can turn into something nasty and hurtful and reflect bad on me. I’ll think about it, but it sounds like a lovely plan.
Links
2008-05-05 22:09:00 (EDIT!! Adding - I found the offensive link, sorry guys! How awful that a very fun site has turned into crap. My apologies to anyone who was upset by it. It’s off my links now. Sigh, how awful. How embarassing. I had no idea, I thought it was just the game being played on ... More About: Links
Well
2008-05-04 07:33:00 Well, anxiety was bad.. we did not stay long. Only a few minutes. It was a small, gloomy room. It wasn’t a fun party, it wasn’t bad though but just not our idea of fun! But, mostly they were drinking and so really.. we don’t drink so we left and ate elsewhere. Much better. It ...
Hrm..
2008-05-03 04:39:00 Tomorrow is a dinner to attend. I don’t know what to wear. It’s not at a friend’s house, or I’d just ask them it’s some sort of invite he got through work. I don’t own anything dressy. Not even slacks or a skirt that fits. It’s all too baggy now (which is nice, but it leaves ...
I guess not
2008-04-29 17:24:00 Some time ago I blogged how happy I was to hear from my brother through a class reunion type site. We chatted by email just a bit. Even at the start his emails were small and fairly far apart. We played some online games together but eventually he’d vanish, the last one I got bored ... More About: Guess
Storms
2008-04-29 05:03:00 Pretty nasty ones, thankfully though for our area it’s not as bad as other near-ish areas. Unfortunately, becdause of the storms I was unable to get a proper recording of Maury or Steve Wilcos today. Anyone know when the new episodes from today will re-air? I cannot figure out how to find an airing date list ...
Change
2008-04-28 23:45:00 It’s so silly but changing things in the kitchen really has the anxiety up. Moving the fridge to make the kitchen feel larger is a lovely change, but it is causing a lot of distress. The change.. it’s difficult. Going through various things that are missing parts, broken blenders, and stuff. Why in the world did ... More About: Change
Did she know?
2008-04-26 03:46:00 We did a few obituary searches. Does anyone else do this? Maybe it’s just more stupidness on my part. Did she know that we really cared? There was one aunt in particular we liked. She was always really strange, like.. maybe heavily medicated type of strange or in need of some medication. We liked her! She was smart, ...
Do they suffer?
2008-04-26 03:08:00 Watched a Steve Wilcos show today. It was hard to watch, I fast forwarded through most of the recording. The basics were the “mother” was horrible, didn’t protect her child from repeated abuses. Took a lie detector, failed it miserably. Came on the show with the nerve to ask for help in getting her daughter back ...
Just.. stuff!
2008-04-21 20:55:00 Nightmares are getting a little worse lately, but they are okay to tolerate still. I see.. for lack of a better word.. drama brewing on a couple forums. Forums that tend to not have drama. Now the gaming forums, that’s always dramatic. The gamer drama entertains me slightly. So have been thinking about why the heck ... More About: Stuff
Support maybe
2008-04-13 07:01:00 Not DID related, but maybe some support that I did not realize I needed until today for health problems. Although a good friend also suffers from endless physical pain, her pain is different and caused by different things. We both understand there are good days and a lot of bad days but it would be ... More About: Support
Overwhelmed
2008-04-08 08:03:00 Have not heard from the brother in a long while. Always held doubts that it was really him emailing us, the long stretches between contact and the vague “I’ll write you later!” only furthers the doubt. It is terrible, partly I believe it is him but mostly I do not. I may have mentioned it ... More About: Overwhelmed
Bleh
2008-04-05 20:26:00 Just feel bleh. We would play on SL but it’s down for emergency repairs it seems. So went and cleaned some, sculpted to fill an order we had waiting, hands hurt so bad though. The plan was to sculpt for about an hour but I barely got through the one, so that plan is out. It ...
Rough day
2008-04-04 01:35:00 Feel like crying, have cried already, probably gonna cry more. Total fear set in, can’t explain. Husband insists and promises I am safe and will remain safe. Friend is ill, more ill.. her stress is bad. I can’t help her. Feel like a horrible person today sigh Maybe it is cause i have a fever, feel sick, ...
Today
2008-03-31 03:19:00 Yep, today… I feel much m ore at peace My elbow hurts like you would not believe, it was okay earlier but the later the day gets the worse it is ugh! Dunno if it’s rain related, or what the deal is. My joints over-extend, what is it called. hypersoemthing.. oh hypermobile. I think? Well practically ... More About: Today
Everything is good :)
2008-03-30 16:31:00 My biggest fear lately is nothing to worry about now. They accept me as I am More About: Good
Anxiety today
2008-03-29 13:03:00 But oddly enough, not about posting my truth I’m practically in cold sweats over leaving the house! I realize how idiotic that sounds, but man I am afraid to go away from the house for that far and that long today. I’ll be with my husband and a friend of ours, so definitely will be safe. ... More About: Today , Anxiety
Commenter Georgia
2008-03-28 18:02:00 This is to you and you know who you are, do not spam my blog. Do not insult me, shout at me, or otherwise be annoying. You are annoying by about the 3rd comment you posted in a matter of a very, very short time frame. My blog is not a chatting forum. It’s a blog. ... More About: Georgia
Realization?
2008-03-27 16:18:00 Please take care while reading this entry. It touches on subjects that are almost a little too difficult for me to blog, but I must say it. Last night I watched a recorded Steve Wilcos show. I like his show a lot. Last night’s was one I almost did not watch. It was the episode from yesterday ... More About: Realization
Yoga, again heh
2008-03-25 04:05:00 Heh! Okay we finally are at Amazon to look, and thanks to Keepers we’ve settled on a DVD, one about AM/PM yoga. That will be great. Always very stiff in the morning, and before bed could use something to help get relaxed more. We get spun up pretty bad about bedtime from anxiety. So tonight I ... More About: Yoga
The news
2008-03-20 06:57:00 The world scares us a lot lately. Gotta stop reading the news. It’s overwhelming. I like to know what is going on, but it’s too much. It’s overload. Too much crime, hate, death. Far too much. Has it always been this way and only now more reported with the internet as accessible as it is? Or ... More About: News , The News
Flu, or not?
2008-03-19 00:47:00 Oh man… dunno if it’s the flu or if it was the catfish from last night but wow. So sick today. To the point I actually took a nap for 3 hours and will likely go to bed again in acouple more hours. Probably flu, my husband is not sick at all. But it is ...
Misery, it?s stifling!
More articles from this author:2008-03-16 18:12:00 I have not wanted to writ ethis because I feel like maybe I’m a crappy person by saying it aloud. But, I don’t feel comfortable on some forums lately. One gamer forum has some guy replying to every thread with the sky-is-falling attitude, like man.. stop playing if you hate the game so bad. When he’s ... 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 |
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