It Takes a Village to Raise a ChildIt Takes a Village to Raise a ChildI am a survivor of child abuse. I have dissociative identity disorder. It is also known as multiple personality disorder. This blog is a form of healing to tell the story of our life. We write about our daily life, our inner world as well as the Articles
Gloomy
2007-09-14 23:30:00 The weather is just drab and gloomy. It’s not easy to keep spirits up when in physical joint pain and having it so crappy out. Being in pain is one thing, but at least hwen it’s sunny.. it just isn’t nearly as bad for some reason. Had planned to ride our bike up and down ...
Resting
2007-09-12 19:08:00 Resting is not something I do well. Year after year, day after day, it was ingrained into me that resting results in pain. Stopping for a short break to blow my nose when allergies flared up when they made me clean the basement, or wiping my hand off while cleaning the baseboards, pausing just a moment ...
Missing info
2007-09-11 04:33:00 That’s a funny phrase, missing info.. that’s about my entire life. I’m after specific information now though. Unfortunately, I think I found a portion of the info and it doesn’t do me much good. We had only spent time with the “mom” side of the family, her parents, her siblings, blah blah blah. The “dad” side was ... More About: Family , Info , Missing , Missi
Temporary puke guilt
2007-09-10 07:08:00 Not a lovely topic, yet a subject that effects me on occasion. I used to be bulemic/anorexic. I don’t know if anorexia can still be anorexia when I’m overweight (no really, I am by medical standards but I have lost weight safely!) I’m closer to a healthy weight, considering my health ailments and medication.. doctors are ... More About: Guilt , Temp
We painted
2007-09-10 03:34:00 Just some test flowers and leaves, but it doesn’t look too bad for a first try! We used a can opener to take the top part of a coke can off, then a spoon to smooth any snags. Painted it white (turns out I should have done another coat.. but eh, it’s practice so it’s ... More About: Crafts
Painting
2007-09-09 19:26:00 Someday we want to be able to paint even half as well as Keepers do! The artwork they create is just lovely. So we considered taking painting courses, but quite honestly.. anxiety is still too much for that. The classes would likely be just me, the teacher is male. That terrifies many in the village so ... More About: Painting , Crafts
It?s quiet
2007-09-08 02:50:00 Everyone’s so quiet today inside. Some are very disappointed, but they’re doing okay and they understand. We wanted to go to a local art gallery this afternoon for the monthly thing they do. We’ve never been, and in fact never knew about it till recently. Wanted to go so badly, but the good news is ... More About: Biking , Quiet
Old schoolmate
2007-09-06 10:04:00 I am unsure when but at some point a classmate contacted to say hi. I know we wrote back and forth maybe twice (?), then I have no idea how long it’s been since then. Quite honestly, it makes me feel guilty to have not written back sooner. The problem is we lost his email ...
Outdoors
2007-09-06 01:56:00 Armed with bug spray, the outdoors isn’t so bad after all. Saw a praying mantis bug eating a cricket. Weee! Hate crickets, terrified of them, so now praying mantis is my favorite. I hope it stays around and eats the rest. Today repotted a lot of plants, pruned a rose shrub the rest of the way ... More About: Outdoors
Gardening
2007-09-03 20:05:00 Trying to get more involved in the online gardening community we signed up at… 3 years ago haha! Went to update my profile there with a better email and whoa, 3 years!? That’s funny. I thought I signed up last week! So far have gotten great info on growing Lucky Bamboo better, tomatoes, roses, and ... More About: Gardening , Arden , Garde
September
2007-09-01 02:43:00 September is when the mom hugged us once and said she thought I was pretty. She didn’t mean it, but she said it at least. Several in the village are feeling sad. The first week and a half of September is always very hard for us all but I don’t know why. Feel off, stressed, tired. ... More About: September , Sept
Teddy bear or cactus?
2007-08-27 23:44:00 Yeah it doesn’t make much sense, does it? Well they couldn’t find a teddy bear they liked, but we ended up spending about 20 minutes at the cactus display. We have this cool green one that’s sort of triangle shape stem (?) and a pile of red spiked piles on top. They’re in generic wrapping so ... More About: Gardening , Cactus , Teddy Bear , Teddy , Bear
So hot
2007-08-25 21:26:00 Oh my gosh I was not expecting that. Got up, open front door, and a wave of heat smacks me in the face. It’s so hot. So much for a day having fun in the garden, it is dangerously too hot for that. Too hot to do laundry until late tonight, too hot to cook, ... More About: Gaming
Our special quilt!
2007-08-24 02:23:00 Very exciting moment right now! Our special quilt made up of various fabric scraps from friends, family, and some we’ve purchased over the last few years is now completed! It’s our quilt. It has blues, yellows, oranges, greens, reds. There’s bits with gators, lions, butterflies, flowers, solid pieces too. It’s bright and obnoxious, but we all ... More About: Crafts , Special , Quilt
What happened to my bunnies?
2007-08-22 18:48:00 We had these bunnies. I don’t know how or why we suddenly had them. It was a sudden appearance to me, but given the setup we had for them I’d imagine it was a while in progress. The memories are choppy, put together by several inside. Take care of yourself as you read this, it’s a ... More About: Family , Memories , Pene
Bunnies
2007-08-22 18:00:00 I miss them sometimes. The thing is, all this time later, I just cannot believe what I saw. There are facts to support it all, it happened. Just, wow I can’t belive I’m going to say this next bit though… It’s one thing for them to have abused me in various ways. It’s another thing to ... More About: Memories
Harry Potter Embroidery
2007-08-21 17:16:00 I saw quite a few people searched that phrase a lot today to find my blog so I thought I’d give those people an idea. Search for Harry Potter Coloring Pages, you can trace those by taping the printed page up on a window, tape your fabric up, trace with a fabric pen or pencil. ... More About: Crafts , Embroidery
Some improvement
2007-08-21 09:26:00 Feeling better late tonight than I was earlier. Just sort of rested, took a hot bath, read some of a fun mystery. One of the culinary mysteries w/ Goldy the caterer. I forget the author’s name, Diane something maybe? Then a bit ago had a fun chat with my sister in law. That is still weird ... More About: Improvement , Improv , Prove , Some
No reason
2007-08-21 00:33:00 Feeling silly to feel so sad. Today just.. gloomy. No reason for it though. There’s nothing unusual going on. Joint pain is tough today but that’s not something shocking or new. It’s cloudy and gross out, which is kind of a cruddy thing but that’s just weather. Big deal right? Took a pain pill, several inside suggested ... More About: Reason
Excessive tiredness
2007-08-20 05:21:00 It all caught up with me. Sometimes I forget that I’m not supposed to overdo things. Too much physical exertion, too much sun, too much is too much. What’s too much for me is probably not much at all for another person. Today the exaustion set in compounded by the rain that was due to fall. Dude, ... More About: Tired , Tire
Braver each day
2007-08-18 18:32:00 Yesterday was the easiest day so far. Almost didn’t go biking though, but not out of fear for a change. Simply because it was hot, I was tired, and afterwards I should have stayed home heh. It was hotter than I thought. We just did a quick ride up the street and back, ... More About: Gardening
Hot
2007-08-17 02:53:00 Ohh man is it hot outside. Got up way stinking early because we went to sleep early last night. Too early to even find anything to watch on TV. Crazy! Eventually we went out for a bike ride yay! Today my husband went with me. That’s always fun :) What kind of bakery doesn’t sell bread though, ...
Today
2007-08-16 03:28:00 Very worn out. Two bike rides in one day is pushing it a little jsut yet I think hah! First bike ride we went around to a couple shops, mailed something off, got ice cream and came home. Very fun ride. Then a couple hours later went back out and rode up the street to the ... More About: Today
Super cute kitty pattern
2007-08-15 02:13:00 This is a kitty we’re gonna make! The pattern is free on this lady’s blog. Green Kitchen’s Kitty Pattern Cute ! Just need to gather up some energy to sort through some fabric. That alone could take days for color choices zzzzz. I think if I can make it come out cute, I’ll make a few more for Christmas ... More About: Super
Learn to paint?
2007-08-14 21:50:00 That’s something we want to do. Found a couple places nearby to bike to that we can check out classes. One is specifically geared to beginners and kids. That sounds good haha, have absolutely no painting skill as far as pictures go so that sounds great. Unfortunately the site doesn’t show shop hours, class schedule, ... More About: Learn , Paint
We did it!
2007-08-14 00:43:00 It takes 23 minutes round trip from the time we locked the door until we unlocked it again. When we got about halfway between here and the restraunt there was a little bit of panic, since a few dogs started to bark but all of them were leashed and kenneled. None were barking at us, ...
We did it!!
2007-08-13 20:14:00 Now this doesn’t really carry the same weight as if we did this a few hours from now but we did this just the same. Got the bike out of the garage (which is a task in itself, since he has something blocking the garage door so we gotta take it out the back!) and put ...
This week
2007-08-13 00:34:00 I have comments to reply to later tonight or tomorrow yay! Thank you :) We like comments a lot! This week has been a lot of fun. One night we had no Trazodone so that night was tough, hadn’t realized just how great it was at blocking the nightmares. I’m still a bit horrified from them ... More About: Week
Lately
2007-08-10 02:55:00 It’s been too hot to think, move, do crafts, sleep… it’s hot. The massive heat supposed to fade a bit soon. It’s too hot to bike ride safely. We’re working up the bravery to bike alone. It’s scary. Had planned to try this week but dude, it’s not worth getting heatstroke just to try being ...
Big day tomorrow
More articles from this author:2007-08-04 01:19:00 It’s always difficult to leave the house for anything beyond groceries or the post office. I feel like an idiot when I’m too worked up with anxiety to go anywhere. We don’t drive a car anymore, too afraid to go biking alone even. How lame! Maybe if we get a bike helmet, we’ll feel better ... More About: Tomorrow , Morrow , Tomo 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 |
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