It Takes a Village to Raise a ChildIt Takes a Village to Raise a ChildI am a survivor of child abuse. I have dissociative identity disorder. It is also known as multiple personality disorder. This blog is a form of healing to tell the story of our life. We write about our daily life, our inner world as well as the 
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This is a bleh day
2009-03-30 01:43:00 All day I feel like something bad is going to happen. I feel miserable, sad, anxious, nervous, just want to curl up in a small ball and hide so no one can ever see me. Trying to be sure I eat properly but it is hard. Just ate an orange and it has seeds and now ...
Don?t feel with it
2009-03-29 18:52:00 Not sure if I can’t wake up properly or if I’m just off today. I can’t tell, but it’s messing the day up! More About: Feel
Weird?
2009-03-28 07:55:00 I know that growing up the “dad” was a member of a lodge, when I see the name of his group I feel off. Don’t know why, or even how to explain it. Just.. do. If I see someone’s ring or pin with the insignia, or see it mentioned online, I just ... More About: Weird
Sick
2009-03-23 06:15:00 It bites to be sick. Keep checking my throat for white spots, but so far none. Still able to eat, drink, breathe so must be just fine. Having Wednesday set for fun, it is good. It is a day to take a break from the worry and stress, at least.. try to. So many ... More About: Sick
What I?d like
2009-03-21 00:58:00 I’d just really like for them to apologize, and mean it. It won’t heal any hurt, in fact it’ll probably hurt me even more if they’d apologize because that means they’d acknowledge what they did. I think that someday, it would be a nice thing to know. That they’re sorry. Things are tough right now, ...
Ugh, horrible nightmare
2009-03-15 02:54:00 Why is it every time we open up, write about the past that is supposed to remain secret, we’re hit with horrid nightmares? Had a horrible nightmare I think it was two nights ago, hard to remember since we’ve taken naps and that always throws things off. Got it behind a “more” just so if you ... More About: Nightmare
Just a tired day
2009-03-14 02:50:00 Today was just a very tired day. Too worn out to write about anything. More About: Tired
Fun Day update!
2009-03-12 00:43:00 It was fun playing with the finger paints! Kind of gross too, it’s like shoving around a giant pile of boogers. Had to add a little water to it, just a wee tiny bit and mix it up. Not that we’ve ever had experience in shoving masses of booger around though, ... More About: Update
Pets in memory
2009-03-11 22:13:00 Not many memories of pets, but the ones I do have make me sad. I’ve cut the post so it is there to read if you so choose. It’s not happy, pleasant, or something I would like to even remember. If you decide to read it, please keep in mind this is a horrible set of ... More About: Pets , Memory , In Memory
Finger Paint
2009-03-11 19:54:00 Made this recipe instead, the original version Finger Paint Recipe Waiting on it to cool to colorize it. Going with pink and blue.
Lately
2008-09-18 04:08:00 Just havent’ had anything worth saying to write. Life is not boring, but it’s not particularly interesting for blog entries I guess. Playing online games, petting the neighbor’s cats, trying to get some sleep. Worrying about my friend and her husband quite a lot. Busy but not busy
BDD books, info?
2008-07-27 09:19:00 I’m feeling a bit off.. I watched a recorded documentary off BBC America. It was about Body Dysmorphic Disorder. I am.. reeling.. perhaps is a good word? What they said in it.. that is me. I don’t feel the need to get surgeries like the one, but.. she said things.. that are me. I feel like i ... More About: Books , Info
Feeling lost
2008-07-19 18:42:00 and sad and lost she is in better spirits lately.. we chat about fun things together to help keep both her and me from being so sad.. i do not know how long i have.. and every day i wait nervously for emails.. then i realize, if osmething had gotten worse.. her husband would just call and ... More About: Lost , Feeling
Too much to say
2008-07-16 03:41:00 so it’s easier to say nothing endless headache pains she is too sick, getting worse very quickly, the prospect of how sick she is rather than “just a cough” compared to what we know now is making her even sicker now that she knows what lies ahead. she’s made comments that make me think she isn’t telling all.. ...
breaking down
2008-06-28 03:27:00 into little pieces into puddles of tears and a horrible sadness i was holding it together pretty okay until some lady online talked to me it’s not cause of her but it just piled on top, i am so soooooooooo sad that i cannot stop crying now if i lose my friend, i do not know what i ... More About: Breaking
Well.. what the heck..
2008-06-24 08:42:00 (first off.. thank you Keepers, your comments always make things better!) Now the title goes with the rest of the post, not the first par there! hehe Last few days super anxious.. all can think is.. “Why doesn’t she just say she’s sorry?” Find out my worst anxiety day, where that line consumed my thoughts almost painfully.. was ...
Lately
2008-06-23 23:01:00 It’s been okay I guess. Struggling a bit the last couple days, trying to not let friends know.. trying to be cheerful. The friends online where we hang out, they don’t know much about us.. they only know the fun things we all do together online. It’s okay, but it is hard to get through ...
Today
2008-06-13 23:01:00 I feel miserable. Tried to paint but motorskills are so bad, and just so tired.. can’t even think clearly to paint. Scraped the paint off that was from yesterday on teh pallet to a small one, cleaned up and got stuff ready for tomorrow’s class. I can’t miss it, Iguess I could but then that would ... More About: Today
How odd
2008-06-13 06:48:00 Someone else on the class reunion site contacted me, and I hate to admit it.. I have no idea who he is. I looked in the old year booksa nd we recognize his phot, but not the name.. He’s a couple grades different, so we’d likely not of had any classes together I guess. I just.. ...
Busy
2008-06-13 02:17:00 Self inflicted busy, but still BUSY! Online related projects to finish, and actually I waaaaaaay over did what I needed to do. The goal was to finish just this little bit .. jus ta small chunk.. well I finished the whole thing. So a project that would have likely lasted the next three.. maybe four weeks, ... More About: Busy
Happy birthday
2008-06-10 07:17:00 to me (for Monday) Too sick from health problems to really enjoy it,b ut it was fun. Slept late, had cake (yay!), even got a nice walk in tonight. Don’t feel older, just tired today. Too much sun the last couple days, and heat.. it’s catching up to me. Anxiety is bad lately but I beat it ... More About: Happy , Birthday , Happy Birthday
What to do..
2008-05-31 22:25:00 Dang it WordPress is laggy today. I have an ENTIRE day to myself. SEriously.. like.. from the time I got up until at least 2am. My husband is out at a tournament and then got overtime work, so I’m at home. I was ognna go to the tournament but lungs still not so great, but better ...
30 sneezes
2008-05-26 20:50:00 IN A ROW! What the heck. My nose is stuffed and it’s leaking like a faucet. I have a fever. I feel like crap. Yet.. is it a cold or allergies? How do people tell the difference? I’m assuming it’s allergies, in which case.. whoopteedoo.. I feel like crap but that’s not as bad as a cold. I guess ...
You guys?
2008-05-26 07:10:00 Were right.. All that worry about whether someone was playing games by email, no need for it. Got some emails this week and my fears are much less. Not totallygone, but then again I’m afraid all the time so eh. Suddenly tonight, I feel safer than ever. He’s far away, but he made it very clear he ... More About: Guys
Busy
2008-05-21 00:44:00 Just.. busy. Have shop stuff all done now, some homework for an online class almost done, did my workout, so very tired but it doesn’t feel like I did much when I think it all through. I’ve been going practically non stop for 7 hours. Seems like I should have an awful lot more done. ... More About: Busy
To Keepers!
2008-05-18 03:30:00 Hey, does the email that I see when you post comments, is that one I can emai you an image? :) I will send you a picture of what I painted and some other stuff too if you’d like! Photographs and kinetic art, and the one we did this week of the village ...
Art Class
2008-05-18 03:27:00 The anxiety built up so bad I almost did not go I am glad I did, it was TONS of fun. I actually have a painting, now it’s just partial.. but I like it enough that I could frame it now and be very proud of it. But next weekend I think I’ll bring it back ... More About: Class
They like my art!?
2008-05-14 01:22:00 They don’t know the whole me, not exactly.. I don’t hide it but I don’t tell either. I just.. hang out. I got invited, last night in Second Life (a virtual world), to show my art. I was specifically instructed to go scan in some more work and get it in world! We have a couple ...
Stressed
More articles from this author:2008-05-13 01:56:00 Don’t know why. Feel.. just.. stressed. Hopped on the trampoline to the point I’m too tired to hop anymore, feel like I should be doing something but I don’t know what. I should go empty and reload the dishwasher but yeah, that’s not getting done at the moment while I sit here. Don’t have anything I must ... 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 |
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