It Takes a Village to Raise a ChildIt Takes a Village to Raise a ChildI am a survivor of child abuse. I have dissociative identity disorder. It is also known as multiple personality disorder. This blog is a form of healing to tell the story of our life. We write about our daily life, our inner world as well as the Articles
What to do..
2008-05-31 22:25:00 Dang it WordPress is laggy today. I have an ENTIRE day to myself. SEriously.. like.. from the time I got up until at least 2am. My husband is out at a tournament and then got overtime work, so I’m at home. I was ognna go to the tournament but lungs still not so great, but better ...
30 sneezes
2008-05-26 20:50:00 IN A ROW! What the heck. My nose is stuffed and it’s leaking like a faucet. I have a fever. I feel like crap. Yet.. is it a cold or allergies? How do people tell the difference? I’m assuming it’s allergies, in which case.. whoopteedoo.. I feel like crap but that’s not as bad as a cold. I guess ...
You guys?
2008-05-26 07:10:00 Were right.. All that worry about whether someone was playing games by email, no need for it. Got some emails this week and my fears are much less. Not totallygone, but then again I’m afraid all the time so eh. Suddenly tonight, I feel safer than ever. He’s far away, but he made it very clear he ... More About: Guys
Busy
2008-05-21 00:44:00 Just.. busy. Have shop stuff all done now, some homework for an online class almost done, did my workout, so very tired but it doesn’t feel like I did much when I think it all through. I’ve been going practically non stop for 7 hours. Seems like I should have an awful lot more done. ... More About: Busy
To Keepers!
2008-05-18 03:30:00 Hey, does the email that I see when you post comments, is that one I can emai you an image? :) I will send you a picture of what I painted and some other stuff too if you’d like! Photographs and kinetic art, and the one we did this week of the village ...
Art Class
2008-05-18 03:27:00 The anxiety built up so bad I almost did not go I am glad I did, it was TONS of fun. I actually have a painting, now it’s just partial.. but I like it enough that I could frame it now and be very proud of it. But next weekend I think I’ll bring it back ... More About: Class
They like my art!?
2008-05-14 01:22:00 They don’t know the whole me, not exactly.. I don’t hide it but I don’t tell either. I just.. hang out. I got invited, last night in Second Life (a virtual world), to show my art. I was specifically instructed to go scan in some more work and get it in world! We have a couple ...
Stressed
2008-05-13 01:56:00 Don’t know why. Feel.. just.. stressed. Hopped on the trampoline to the point I’m too tired to hop anymore, feel like I should be doing something but I don’t know what. I should go empty and reload the dishwasher but yeah, that’s not getting done at the moment while I sit here. Don’t have anything I must ...
Stuck inside
2008-05-13 00:00:00 Soooo much bad weather lately, we’re stuck indoors for the most part. It sucks. More About: Inside
Walk
2008-05-11 01:40:00 Today was a brave day, and although the day is not over, I’m too pooped to do anything. Went for a walk yesterday with my husband, about 1/2 a mile total. Not very much really, but considering I never go for walks.. I’m proud of it. Today was a really brave day though, went for a ... More About: Walk
Yesterday?s Steve Wilkos
2008-05-08 22:07:00 I couldn’t watch it all in one sitting. To see that evil man on the stage, to see his pathetic, hateful, evil smirk. The eyes, the weight, the height, the smirk.. mostly the smirk. Wooo… I almost couldn’t watch it. I think Steve said something, asking how the guy can just stand there and smirk. How ... More About: Yesterday
Thank you! :)
2008-05-08 19:51:00 You guys really do cheer me up with the comments (except for tool who keeps spamming me about toyotas, dude.. I don’t drive so stop bugging me about it.) Well today I took the plunge adn signed up at Ediets. I don’t have anyone who’s doing weightloss with me, while a friend wants to lose weight.. ...
Rode my bike
2008-05-08 03:14:00 Alone, to the corner restaurant to get icecream. It’s such a small, minor thing to many people but for me it is a huge thing. Pretty stinking proud of myself More About: Bike
Confronting
2008-05-07 01:40:00 I watched the Steve Wilkos for today, I am so proud of those two for confronting their dad. They were so brave, truly brave. I’m very impressed. I don’t think I could do that. No real point in me confronting those who harmed me, they’d just deny it and I think that would make the hurt ...
Classmate
2008-05-06 08:26:00 I heard back from a classmate again, it’s a little weird to hear from anyone from back then but it’s nice too. We have already explained that there are large blocks of memory missing, but not as to why. It’s just nice.. nice to know someone remembered me I guess. Must not be a terrible ...
Maybe
2008-05-05 22:21:00 You know what, maybe I think I might just erase all links.. that way no one’s blog can turn into something nasty and hurtful and reflect bad on me. I’ll think about it, but it sounds like a lovely plan.
Links
2008-05-05 22:09:00 (EDIT!! Adding - I found the offensive link, sorry guys! How awful that a very fun site has turned into crap. My apologies to anyone who was upset by it. It’s off my links now. Sigh, how awful. How embarassing. I had no idea, I thought it was just the game being played on ... More About: Links
Well
2008-05-04 07:33:00 Well, anxiety was bad.. we did not stay long. Only a few minutes. It was a small, gloomy room. It wasn’t a fun party, it wasn’t bad though but just not our idea of fun! But, mostly they were drinking and so really.. we don’t drink so we left and ate elsewhere. Much better. It ...
Hrm..
2008-05-03 04:39:00 Tomorrow is a dinner to attend. I don’t know what to wear. It’s not at a friend’s house, or I’d just ask them it’s some sort of invite he got through work. I don’t own anything dressy. Not even slacks or a skirt that fits. It’s all too baggy now (which is nice, but it leaves ...
I guess not
2008-04-29 17:24:00 Some time ago I blogged how happy I was to hear from my brother through a class reunion type site. We chatted by email just a bit. Even at the start his emails were small and fairly far apart. We played some online games together but eventually he’d vanish, the last one I got bored ... More About: Guess
Storms
2008-04-29 05:03:00 Pretty nasty ones, thankfully though for our area it’s not as bad as other near-ish areas. Unfortunately, becdause of the storms I was unable to get a proper recording of Maury or Steve Wilcos today. Anyone know when the new episodes from today will re-air? I cannot figure out how to find an airing date list ...
Change
2008-04-28 23:45:00 It’s so silly but changing things in the kitchen really has the anxiety up. Moving the fridge to make the kitchen feel larger is a lovely change, but it is causing a lot of distress. The change.. it’s difficult. Going through various things that are missing parts, broken blenders, and stuff. Why in the world did ... More About: Change
Did she know?
2008-04-26 03:46:00 We did a few obituary searches. Does anyone else do this? Maybe it’s just more stupidness on my part. Did she know that we really cared? There was one aunt in particular we liked. She was always really strange, like.. maybe heavily medicated type of strange or in need of some medication. We liked her! She was smart, ...
Do they suffer?
2008-04-26 03:08:00 Watched a Steve Wilcos show today. It was hard to watch, I fast forwarded through most of the recording. The basics were the “mother” was horrible, didn’t protect her child from repeated abuses. Took a lie detector, failed it miserably. Came on the show with the nerve to ask for help in getting her daughter back ...
Just.. stuff!
2008-04-21 20:55:00 Nightmares are getting a little worse lately, but they are okay to tolerate still. I see.. for lack of a better word.. drama brewing on a couple forums. Forums that tend to not have drama. Now the gaming forums, that’s always dramatic. The gamer drama entertains me slightly. So have been thinking about why the heck ... More About: Stuff
Support maybe
2008-04-13 07:01:00 Not DID related, but maybe some support that I did not realize I needed until today for health problems. Although a good friend also suffers from endless physical pain, her pain is different and caused by different things. We both understand there are good days and a lot of bad days but it would be ... More About: Support
Overwhelmed
2008-04-08 08:03:00 Have not heard from the brother in a long while. Always held doubts that it was really him emailing us, the long stretches between contact and the vague “I’ll write you later!” only furthers the doubt. It is terrible, partly I believe it is him but mostly I do not. I may have mentioned it ... More About: Overwhelmed
Bleh
2008-04-05 20:26:00 Just feel bleh. We would play on SL but it’s down for emergency repairs it seems. So went and cleaned some, sculpted to fill an order we had waiting, hands hurt so bad though. The plan was to sculpt for about an hour but I barely got through the one, so that plan is out. It ...
Rough day
More articles from this author:2008-04-04 01:35:00 Feel like crying, have cried already, probably gonna cry more. Total fear set in, can’t explain. Husband insists and promises I am safe and will remain safe. Friend is ill, more ill.. her stress is bad. I can’t help her. Feel like a horrible person today sigh Maybe it is cause i have a fever, feel sick, ... 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 |
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