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my tarot card
2007-03-19 12:54:00
The LoversMotive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will...
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blogging in between
2007-03-18 03:18:00
How do you manage to write a blog entry when you are so preoccupied with so many things like work, work and work? My friend C would always say, ?There?s always a time for everything?. So now instead of making an excuse, I decided to shift from Visual Basic to MS Word to write at least few sentences to update my blog.I have been very busy at work. Aside from my 8-5 job, I have two ongoing projects that require much of my time and energy. My weeknights and weekends are still for work and this setup will last for three months more. If only it is easy to make time for everything, I would be so happy to make time to read the books I got from Book Sale during my visit to mainland last week. I know it would be impossible at this time so I put them out of sight before I am tempted to start reading. Here are the books safely placed in my locker:The Prince of Tides by Pat Conroy (P45) to replace my old copy with missing first 3 pages because of some careless borrowers. I want to read ...
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untitled
2007-03-08 12:06:00
To my dearest soulmate,It has been more than a year since we met but I still vividly remember the day when we first saw each other.It was a hot February morning at the airport. The plane had arrived late and I was sweating from the scorching heat of the sun and with anticipation to see you for the first time. All the passengers have left and there were only few people at the airport. I wondered what took you so long to get out of the airport. After few minutes more, I saw you emerged from the departure gate. You stood there looking like someone who had missed the last flight back home. I smiled when I saw you from afar. I rang your phone while I was walking slowly towards you. Then I asked you to turn around. But you stood there frozen like you were hesitant to move. ?Pards?, that?s what all I managed to say. You responded and faced me with a shy smile on your face. It was the sweetest smile I?ve seen. We managed a handshake. Yes, a handshake, just as we agreed as part of being ?dis...
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cesar montano for senator
2007-02-25 08:01:00
this is not about cesar montano and his candidacy, this is something to think about before the elections.While walking down the street one day a Philippine senator is tragically hit by a truck and dies. His soul arrives in heaven and is by St. Peter at the entrance.?Welcome to heaven,? says St. Peter. ?Before you settle in, it seems there is a problem. We seldom see a high official around these parts, you see, so we?re not sure what to do with you.??No problem, just let me in,? says the man.?Well, I?d like to, but I have orders from higher up ?I?m sorry, but we have our rules.?And with that, St. Peter escorts him to the elevator and he goes down, down, down to hell. The doors open and he finds himself in the middle of a green golf course. In the distance is a clubhouse and standing in front of it are all his friends and other politicians who had worked with him.Everyone is very happy and in evening dress. They run to greet him, shake his hand, and reminisce about the good times they...
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a love story
2007-02-10 11:55:00
Rome and Juliet (Trailer)Drama directed by Connie Macatuno Starring Mylene Dizon, Andrea del Rosario, Rafael Rosell, Glydel Mercado and Tessie TomasThis provocative love story follows the romantic journey of two straight women plunged into forbidden love. Juliet (a conservative pre-school teacher) is a bride to be who befriends and hires Rome (a liberated businesswoman) as her wedding planner. As they go through the preparations, Rome and Juliet develop a deep friendship, a soulful connection and a romantic relationship that create a huge scandal after the groom himself shockingly discovers the truth.i haven't seen this movie yet. i wish i can get a dvd copy of this soon.
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that lucky feeling
2007-02-02 12:06:00
How would you feel if you win the lottery jackpot? How ecstatic could you be if you win something unexpected, like the Filipina who recently won the $1M ?richest? prize in the Qatar Duty Free Draw? Maybe I wouldn?t know the feeling. I was not born lucky.Unlucky as I am, at least my blog is starting to get noticed. This blog is currently in the list of blogs running for the ?Filipino Blog of the Week? contest and is one of the finalists for the "G*Spot Award". These are not the Webby Awards but it gives me the nearest approximation to winning and just feeling lucky right now. I am really thrilled about this little recognition from my fellow bloggers. Thank you Composed Gentleman and Khalel for taking notice of this piece of work.My friends, make me feel lucky. Let me indulge in this little pleasure called winning. Please vote for this blog.The links can also be found in the sidebar. Thank you very much.
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can you beat this logic?
2007-01-22 22:02:01
got this from my mail today... A man and his wife were getting a divorce at a local court. But the custody of their children posed a problem. The mother jumped to her feet and protested to the judge that since she had brought the children into this world, she should retain custody of them. The man also wanted custody of his children. The judge asked for his side of the story too. After a long moment of silence, the man rose from his chair and replied: "Judge, when I put a dollar into a vending machine, and a Pepsi comes out, does the Pepsi belong to me or to the machine?"Don't laugh, but the man won!
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It is a pleasant surprise to have been nominated for the Fil
2007-01-16 09:57:01
It is a pleasant surprise to have been nominated for the Filipino Blog of the Week. I would be happier if i'll be featured as the winner. So my dear friends and fellow bloggers, please vote for me. C'mon, feed my ego click the link and vote for me. Haha. Thanks a lot!
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I would like to share this online repartee with my guy frien
2007-01-13 09:55:03
I would like to share this online repartee with my guy friend, S. This was before I came out to him. I have to warn you though that this contains off-color banters so you may have enough time to back out if you decide not to go on further.S: What?s up?me:Tell you what, I finally found joy!S: Sounds interesting, keep it going.me: After a decade of immense sorrow, countless frustrations, the thought of living a life of solitude forever, I found someone I can love like crazy and who will love me the same way back.S: Lucky guy. Someone I know? Tell me about him.me: 42 y.o.S: Hmm? tatagal pa ba yan?me: What do you mean? S: Let me ask you some basic questions about stamina? hehe.me: Go aheadS: No malice? ilang beses sya nakaka-release?me: What do you mean?S: Don?t ask innocent question? ano ka ba?me: How about you? Baka pag sinabi ko ma-insecure ang pagkalalaki mo.S: 3me: You really amuse me. Talagang binibilang mo.S: C?mon tell me.me: I say more than that.S: More than that you are lyi...
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scenes from the airport
2006-12-09 21:33:03
Hopeful passengers waiting for that precious flight.Philippine Air Force C-130 cargo planeMother and child getting a respite143 passengers boarding the C-1303rd day of waiting
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more pictures
2006-12-09 21:33:03
Captured sunrise after the typhoon
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a post-typhoon blog
2006-12-09 21:33:03
Dear friends,I know many of you are wondering why i have been out of the blogosphere for so long. Blame it on Reming (Durian) -- the super typhoon that wreaked havoc in Catanduanes and Bicol Peninsula. With all power lines and telecommunication systems down, we are left isolated from the main civilization and at least 10 years behind. We have to start from the beginning. The situation is so depressing that i decide to escape from it for a while. Here are some of the pictures i took after Reming left the place.Entrance from the pier.A young mother with her children. Behind them is their "home" with parol that fell on the ground.My alma mater. I am desperately uploading the pictures here properly but i could not. Im afraid i won't be able to upload the rest of the pictures but i'll try. You may also notice that the block top margin was not cropped properly since i am working on this here at one of the internet cafes in the mall with paintbrush.I was telling you about escaping. Well,...
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playground
2006-12-02 15:27:02
In my childhood trees were greenAnd there were plenty to be seen.Come back early or never come.~ Louis MacnieceThese photos were taken yesterday during my visit to one of the dumpsites here in our municipality to do a documentation on solid waste management. I wanted to make a story on this but I'm in a hurry because I'll be leaving tomorrow and will be back after a week.
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how much am i worth?
2006-12-02 15:27:02
Two hours of bloghopping instead of working to make some money, and this is what I found.HumanForSale.com just shows that everything and everyone in this world is evaluated through the use of money. It claims to give you a fair valuation of your being using a variety of criteria in terms of the basic facets of life such as physical, mental, lifestyle and personality. The more honestly you answer the questions, the more realistic the dollar value returned will be. Just for the hell of it, I indulge in answering their rather lengthy form.After answering the questions as truthfully as I can, a breakdown of value per criteria is given and it was suggested that I am worth exactly $2,134,350 and nothing more. Damn! I didn't know it would cost me to depreciate by $40,000 simply because I'm a lesbian.For the record, I am not for sale.
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why did i end up doing this?
2006-12-02 15:27:02
I wanted to write about more sensible stuff but I'm brain dead. Two reasons why I'm doing this meme: Pow got eliminated from Philippine Idol and I'm too tired waiting for that (bleep bleep) phone call. Anyone, feel free to submit a petition to blogger's congress if you want to amend the title of this site to "blog of memes" instead? 1. Grab the nearest book.2. Open the book to page 123.3. Find the fifth sentence.4. Post the text of the next 3 sentences on your blog along with these instructions.5. Don't you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.6. Tag three people."I tiptoed through the house, heard Pappy in a deep sleep, and went to the back porch. I sat on the edge with my legs hanging off. The fields beyond the barn and the silo were a soft gray when the moon broke through the scattered clouds."- From John Grisham?s ?A Painted House? I am tagging Serey, Sasha and You.
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i'm having a blogger's block
2006-12-02 15:27:02
So I resorted to this long meme.Have you ever ?like someone but never told them? Yes.walk in the rain without an umbrella? Yes, I always like the feeling of walking in the rain but I make sure I?m wearing dark-colored tops.wanted something you couldn't have? Yes, that something is not a thing.hung up on someone? A lot of times. I?m sorry babe.been to an island? I live in an island.ate just because you were bored? Happens all the time.been sunburned? Yes.had to wear something you hated? Yes. A mint gown at my aunt?s wedding. Eww.been out of the country? Never.went on a diet? Yes, it usually lasts for 2 days.been on a plane? Yes.broke someone's heart? I hope not.sung in the shower? I have a terrible singing voice that I cant even bear to hear myself singing privately.bought something way too expensive? How much is way too expensive?sat on your rooftop? No.kissed someone in the rain? No.laughed so hard you cried? Yes.written a song? No, I wish I could.sang to someone for no reason? T...
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hypothetical queer-y
2006-12-02 15:27:02
My officemates and I were wondering who won the gay beauty pageant title held last night. None of us have a clue. Then TB, the most senior among us, posed a hypothetical question,"What if your son is competing in a gay beauty pageant, will you watch him sashay in the ramp?"I said, "Why not? There is nothing wrong with being gay?"She quickly retorted, "Well, you are right. Having a gay son is better than having a criminal or a drug addict for a son."I didn't want a lengthy argument so I restrained myself from answering back.But wtf! A very faulty analogy coming from a 50-something professor with a PhD degree.

thoughts to ponder
2006-12-02 15:27:02
I want to share this with everyone. This is from the notes I got from my dearest Joy in a neatly folded piece of paper.Life is a theatre. Invite your audience carefully. Not everyone is healthy enough to have a front row seat in our lives. There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance. It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go, or at least minimize your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not going anywhere relationships. Observe the relationships around you. Pay attention. Which ones lift and which ones lean? Which ones encourage and which ones discourage? Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill? When you leave certain people, do you feel better or feel worse? Which ones always have drama, or don't really understand, know or appreciate you? The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you, the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the front ro...
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of statistics and of meeting the right person
2006-12-02 15:27:02
If you are living in a small island with more or less 150,000 inhabitants, 13.8% of which belongs to 35-44 age group and only 1% is single where a quarter belongs to the gender(1) category of your preference, the chance that you'll find your ideal partner within your location is very slim like your chance of hitting the jackpot in the lottery. Or rather, it is null. Okay, I don't intend to bore you with statistics(2) only that I want to illustrate how slim your chance is of meeting the right person with this kind of situation. Also, take into your account your set of standards and discriminating qualities you are looking for in a person. And your chances of meeting that person converge to double zero. Oh, such a lonely planet errr, island.What would you do?I won't just sit here waiting for that right person. Shall I wait for the population to grow exponentially for a couple of years and maybe increase my odds? Nah. I won't waste my days imagining what my other half might be doin...
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how far would you go for love?
2006-12-02 04:59:13
are there any boundaries? can you go too far trying to prove to someone that you really love him/her?
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jumbled jamboree
2006-12-02 04:59:13
Girl boy scouts? Why not boy girl scouts?Imagine the scoutmaster giving order to the campers, "Boy scout boys and boy scout girls, no tent-hopping after dinner!"
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start here
2006-12-02 04:59:13
At last the template was chosen, the title was typed and the details were all set. From now on, this page will be the sanctuary of my thoughts. This is my space where I can write anything what my heart speaks and my mind ponders. This is the start.
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when did you come out?
2006-12-02 04:59:13
Here is the result of the poll question ?When did you come out?? posted here for three months.I know that the number of bloggers who responded to this poll is not a representative sample of the whole LGBT community. Nevertheless, I am happy to know that 78% of those who responded are out and proud. I?m also glad that half of the respondents bravely acknowledge their sexuality early in their teens. For those who are still in the closet, Lauren Blitzer, co-author of ?Same Sex in the City?, offers this guide on coming out:? Take some time: Many women spend a lot of time fearing other people?s responses to their homosexuality when they come out. Instead of letting thoughts of rejection consume you, spend time getting to know yourself. This will make you stronger, more confident, and accepting of yourself.? Friends and family: When the time has come to address family, friends, and the rest of society, say it like you mean it because you do. Be prepared for anything and try your best to t...
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soulmate
2006-12-02 04:59:13
Soulmates are people who bring out the best in you. They are not perfect but are always perfect for you. ~Anonymous
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my lesbian pooh
2006-12-02 04:59:13
You watch me cryYou taste my tearsYou hear me moanYou give me warmthYou wear her scentAll of these to endure her absence
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much ado about nothing
2006-12-02 04:59:13
I came across this while bloghopping yesterday and I thought I was reading my own entry but it wasn?t mine. Sure, a meme posted in one blog is supposed to be shared and can be passed from one blog to another. But when you answered a meme and post it as your own, make sure that you have at least added a dash of originality in your answers and as much as possible not a bit trace of the source?s answers. I noticed that she posted her entry a week after mine.Well, it?s just a meme. But it could be worse.
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poll question 1 - on queer friends
2006-12-02 04:59:13
This is a yes/no question but you may want to elaborate your answer. Kindly indicate your gender. Please post your answer on comments.Would you mind if your friend is a lesbian or gay?The poll result will be processed and posted after the comments reach a quota sample. Thank you.
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coming out to a friend
2006-09-25 11:31:00
Melody is a friend.She gave me a buzz yesterday and wanted to chat so I decided to give her a few minutes. I didn't know that it would last for more than an hour.We talked about the usual stuff whenever we chat online -- mostly about her lovelife, our classmates' and a bit about mine. She knew I am in a relationship but that is all. She is genuinely happy that at last I've found the one who will make me insanely happy. But she didn't know then that the person who makes me insanely happy is another woman.Until yesterday.Yesterday's conversation was different. Yesterday was the time I came out to a dear friend. I don't remember how I ended up telling her. Neither do I remember the magnitude of courage it took me to finally spill the beans. All I recall is the discomfort I felt at that time -- palms sweating, stomach churning and one long trip to the restroom before looking at the monitor for her reply.I was relieved, overjoyed and teary-eyed when I read her replies on my screen....
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