Delusions of Divinity?Delusions of Divinity?Have a lurk on my spiritual journey. They are pragmatic, earthy and mystical musings or rants on life, love and the Big E Articles
held to ransom
2008-05-29 16:20:00 Thursday 29: Morning started by charging around, abluted but starkers, turning off extraneous electrical devices, including rarely used printers. Why? Because I had turned on the idiot box to hear that gas and electricity prices were being put up AGAIN. Then, with unfortunate synchronicity, EDF sent an email saying my usage had doubled since last ... More About: Ransom , Held
give me a divine eraser
2008-05-28 17:15:00 Wednesday 28: My curiosity was peeked this morning about a comment from Mary Whitehouse‘ son. But it wasn’t PMW, the one I worked for twice (top salesperson too - twice!) I always felt she was right - a similar principle to give them an inch and they’ll take a mile. Realism is all very well, ... More About: Give , Divine , Eraser
grateful for small mercies
2008-05-27 18:47:00 Tuesday 27: Grateful for having a cold? Oddly enough, I really am - because it has released the sharp headache which even made falling asleep difficult last night. As it usually only lasts 48 hours if I don’t overdo things, I can live with the coughing and runny nose. Far, far better than the head ... More About: Small
bank holiday brights and blues
2008-05-26 15:38:00 Bank Holiday Monday 26: Drove to Bournemouth yesterday through showers and generally grey gloom only to enjoy a brilliantly sunny day there. We even got Ma downstairs to enjoy the warmth on her skin and to see the munchkins playing outside. Now it is so completely foul, worse than yesterday morning, that it seems like ... More About: Blues , Bank
positive negativity
2008-05-24 19:15:00 Saturday 24: Changed plans with sleep catching up on me mid-afternoon. I would like to blame the witch shouting for her familiar just after I had fallen asleep. Curiously, she does not yell (sic) for it every night. Just when I am either meditating or have just fallen asleep - thus guaranteed to be jolted ... More About: Positive
when I wake up early in the morning
2008-05-23 21:40:00 Friday 23: Apart from the shock of paying £40 for a return ticket to London, and spending the entire time walking with one foot tucked in, in case someone trod on my toe, I have had a wonderful day. And the sun is pouring in without this room feeling like a sauna. Sleep beckons early ... More About: Wake , Morning , Early , Wake up , In The Morning
piano memories
2008-05-22 12:44:00 Thursday 22: Despite not being a fan of soap-style TV, I do get sucked in sometimes. Like last night. Desperate Housewives managed to claim too much of my mind time, so I surfed to ‘read the last chapter’. Well, as much as I could find on spoiler sites. I won’t ruin your enjoyment so will just ... More About: Piano , Memories
programmed for what?
2008-05-21 19:42:00 Wednesday 21 This morning I was feeling rather sorry for myself at the amount of effort I put into life and living (especially work) and the rather feeble response (so far - see, ever expectant!) from the Almighty. I was confused (hence the corner pic) and then mildly aggrieved (with the Almighty again) at how ... More About: Programmed
chimera effect
2008-05-20 13:52:00 Tuesday 20 RIP Sister Dolores - a wonderful nun who taught us when we were totlets. Like yesterday, it is currently FREEZING but I am trying to keep the heating off. Well it is May and the so-called warmer months help to level out rising bills. That’s why I want to spit when media, politicians and slebs ... More About: Effect
rampant thoughts
2008-05-19 16:31:00 Monday 19 Thoughts create. I am well aware of the paradox of knowing this basic metaphysical principle …. while having rampant thoughts. Yet virtually every other thought, involves ‘other people’. Take politics. For example, have the plods in power learned nothing from the last recession? There, I said it. The endless media innuendoes have finally got me ...
a different kind of day of rest
2008-05-18 14:26:00 Sunday 18 There are many criticisms that can be levelled at me, but not being organised will never be one of them. If anything, I may have set myself too many goals, each requiring a solid infrastructure, which, in turn, take up a great deal of energy and time. So when one of the NandDs threw ... More About: Rest
unhappy hand
2008-05-17 16:00:00 Saturday 17 If I mention the car crash and my damaged hand often, it is because the ripples continue. Like getting blood clots in either the back of my hand or around the wrist area. Three times in the last four weeks though is a bit of a record and I had to take some aspirin ... More About: Hand
goal detours
2008-05-16 14:13:00 Friday 16 I know I should not drive there and back to the hospital in one day. It is really shattering, especially after sitting for hours in a ward with sick people. However, Ma was definitely very much better in virtually every way, so, despite taking an overnight bag, I decided to come home last night. ... More About: Goal
red rag
2008-05-14 13:48:00 Wednesday 14 Raising voices is never a good communications move but, unfortunately, I do sometimes raise my voice. In my defence, it is invariably when people talk AT me or OVER me and generally do not LISTEN. Or when they answer a call with a ‘what do you want?’ or similar. Like someone I love who ...
pray for Ma today please
2008-05-13 09:07:00 Tuesday 13 Yesterday was another crazy frustrating day. Will Ma have the endoscopy? Will it be Thursday? Will it be under general anaesthetic (not good for older people it appears)? But if she is sedated, she will know they are shoving probes down her and will not like it. Her body might be ‘relaxed’ but her ... More About: Today , Pray
thank God for little children
2008-05-12 15:16:00 Monday 12 It’s unsurprising that one of the books I have written is about time. On one level, it is about time management but, like all my books, there is a major focus on esoterica (of time). Why? Because faith invariably wavers when time plays fast and loose with desires. Years ago, when I had those terrible ... More About: Children
time for inner life
2008-05-11 10:38:00 Sunday 11 More details. A laptop that was over heating yesterday, a battery needing a shift today… but, to be on the safe side, I used the Files and Settings Transfer Wizard to shift all data to a Passport storage drive. The USMT2.UNC folder can now be shifted to any other computer provided the same programmes ... More About: Life , Time
feet up
2008-05-10 21:04:00 Saturday 10 Nervous trip round the supermarket in case someone ran over my still swollen, still sore middle toe. Details. That’s what it means in spiritual metaphysics. Well the details in my life leave a lot to be desired. From suppliers, potential and long-serving, who have lax attitudes to communication, to overgrown gardens and stalled ... More About: Feet
headless chickens and broken toes
2008-05-09 18:17:00 Friday 9 After running around like a headless chicken yesterday, I am hoping for a somewhat more productive and calm day today. Ma is having further tests to see what the ‘mass’ is ? with any luck, sludge rather than anything virulent. Sadly, she has been telling the doctors about it for so long. Years, even. ... More About: Broken
waiting to find out if cancerous
2008-05-08 16:39:00 Thursday 8 ? Happy Birthday, David With what now seems like unfailing regularity, BT’s servers once again fail to receive emails. Sending them, however, is no problem. I have left a message on their forum but I do not have the mental energy to speak with yet another polite but ultimately useless call centre operative. And ... More About: Find , Waiting
whiling time at west beach
2008-05-07 20:03:00 Wednesday 7 It was a toss up between taking the train from Littlehampton back to Angmering, walking two miles back home, doing some work for a couple of hours, and then walking two miles back to the station and catching the train back to Littlehampton … or spending those same hours walking round West Beach till ... More About: Time
creeps crawling out
2008-05-06 18:46:00 Tuesday 6 The long skinny furry animal coming out of the exhaust is not a deteriorating catalytic converter. It is a b****red exhaust. Not so expensive then. Meanwhile, the Crucial memory upgrade arrived at the weekend and Geeks-on-Wheels is coming on Friday to install it and check the wireless security. As the laptop is again performing ... More About: Crawling
three eggs a day
2008-05-05 20:51:00 Monday 5 - Bank Holiday By the time I had finished doing various inside tasks, it was too late for a two-hours-there and two-hours-back walk, and I was not in the mood to do the garden either. However, the sun was so inviting, I had to go out. When I joined the FSB, I said I would ... More About: Eggs
jaundice and catalytic converters
2008-05-04 23:18:00 Sunday 4 At 3:30pm Ma whispered ’start to prepare’. Prepare? For what? ‘To drive back at 4pm’, she replied. That’s Ma. She’s in hospital, with horribly yellow eyes and recurrent nausea and she is more concerned about me driving back safely. Visiting hours are between 2-8pm and I arrived around 1:30pm but it still took me ... More About: Catalytic
ants to a higher sentient
2008-05-03 15:07:00 Saturday 3 Not the most relaxing of bank holidays, so far. Yesterday, J gave me a huge fright banging on the back door. I had left a message re a quote for the fence and he decided to provide it in person. Delay getting off to Ma as he sorted it out today, as well as ... More About: Ants , Higher
ma goes to hospital
2008-05-02 18:43:00 Friday 2 Walking from Victoria to Charing Cross in three-inch heels, even if they are not stilettoes, has awakened long dormant muscles. A postscript to an interesting day. On the plus side, Ma is getting better and will not need to go to hospital. Ego aside: a woman at the station said I was ‘young and ... More About: Hospital
muted compassion
2008-05-01 12:45:00 Thursday 1 Manic mornings are one way to get May off to a flying start. Ma is not well – possibly an enlarged liver – and she is still not eating properly. Emails and calls all over the place, plus a business meeting and a NandD trying to get Ma into a private hospital in case ... More About: Compassion
me big brother
2008-04-30 15:50:00 Later (30 April) There was me getting worried about someone prying into my files (not that there’s much offline that y’all don’t know online!) with the wireless security thing. Seriously, I just earned a £1 this morning and 50p the other day, filling in surveys for YouGov. (The secret is to do them very quickly!) ... More About: Big Brother , Brother
faulty wireless security
2008-04-30 09:23:00 Wednesday 30 Another night posting messages after midnight. This time to a board asking for help re wireless security. My router is encrypted but someone tried to use it yesterday. In fact, I am not sure whether they did succeed. I got two network log in notifications, which I thought was BT being difficult, then a ... More About: Security , Wireless
speedier equals success - maybe
More articles from this author:2008-04-29 18:28:00 Tuesday 29 Death. Not the sort of topic to start a blog entry. People are afraid to talk about death. When someone has died, we tend to ‘talk on tiptoes’, fearful of crushing emotions further with a word said out of turn. Yet, to me, death is a release. When I think of a departed soul, it ... More About: Success , Equals 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 |
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