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Lashes Of Fire
2008-01-09 02:32:00
?' ???? ???"?Imbolgen 2I have to consider the question - was somebody trying to "handle the Jewitch" and the attempt went bad, falling out into the life of another?In a previous entry, describing the hazardous jumping flame of my black ritual candle this past shabbat, I wrote:This Shabbat, the black wax of my main ritual candle was cut quickly and completely down one side like a river cut into the wax (as the deep melted pool of wax drained from around the wick) to the candle holder (over 1-2 inches depending on the perspective of timeline) by the very high radically jumping and leaping flame connected to the wick?s fire. It happened so fast that I only noticed it as the melted black wax was already pouring down the side of my altar. The flame was so unusually high-jumping (I?d estimate it reached 6-9 inches at times), it was so furiously energetic, that I had put it out with a candle snuffer lest it reach over and catch fire the cloth which covered my crystal ball. After putting o...
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Impulse, Chasdai David Hane'emanim
2008-01-06 13:02:00
?"? ???? ???"?Grael 29In follow-up to earlier entries (Two Streams, One Winding Line of Consciousness and My Dreams In The News ... Again), a old poem (Impulse , with an address "host") and graphic from my musical website are relevant:furiously alive, pouring into lifereleased lishmoa driven cacophony, a roaring host of orot into keilima multitude of jumbled sparks flowing togetherfashioning and perfecting, a kneading dew of truthpivoting wavelets of night dancing down the lightas one unique notebeholdingbound together, yet blooming from the actionlike an ibbur of resurrectionstringing kuzu bemukhsaz kuzudarkly brilliant, the most gentle impulsemoving through itgraphic artistic credit:the main figure in the graphic is from the photographic art of Leonard NimoyNote the position of the arms of the woman in the graphic and their positional similarity to the wax formation connected to my ritual Shabbat Witches Brew black pillar candle in the entry, Two Streams, One Winding Line Of Consci...
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My Dream In The News ... Again
2008-01-06 04:59:00
?"? ???? ???"?Grael 29In follow-up to my post Two Streams, One Winding Line Of Consciousness (describing a dream this morning of a raging river set free upon a street in Danville), I just came across this photo (shown) on the frontpage of Foxnews online this evening, about a massive levee break in Nevada. It looks amazingly similar to (but also not the same as) the "cut river" form made of the melting candle wax which preceded the dream last night (see graphic in linked post). This is yet another case (see here and here) where a dream (or focused action) of mine has clear immediate synchronicities with subsequent news events.The caption of a second photo in the photo essay associated with the news event reads, "Jan. 5: A Reno HASTY team worker surveys the flooded area on Canary Circle in Fernley, Nev."Describing my dream in the earlier post, I wrote, "I told everyone to walk carefully, not quickly, and to ?feel out? each step each took ?for him or herself? as they followed my foots...
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Two Streams, One Winding Line Of Consciousness
2008-01-05 20:00:00
?"? ???? ???"?Grael 28This Shabbat, the black wax of my main ritual candle was cut quickly and completely down one side like a river cut into the wax (as the deep melted pool of wax drained from around the wick, see graphic, click to enlarge) to the candle holder (over 1-2 inches depending on the perspective of timeline) by the very high radically jumping and leaping flame connected to the wick?s fire. It happened so fast that I only noticed it as the melted black wax was already pouring down the side of my altar. The flame was so unusually high-jumping (I?d estimate it reached 6-9 inches at times), it was so furiously energetic, that I had put it out with a candle snuffer lest it reach over and catch fire the cloth which covered my crystal ball. After putting out the potential fire hazard, I stuck a fingertip into the melted, still warm but cooling, wax on the side of my altar cloth. I?m not sure why I did this. I just did it. I wanted to know the feel of the wax. What was the sto...
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Just Two Shabbatot
2008-01-02 02:08:00
?"? ???? ???"?Grael 25In my previous entry describing this morning's dream, Cleave Land, I wrote:There were so many singing red birds that the songs and the birds themselves blurred into one sound and sight of indistinct red chaos, yet I concentrated (almost as if pulling myself inward together) to listen for a distinct message to come out from among them.I focused.The first mystical action of "concentrating to pull myself in" is related to an entry posted nearly 2 shabbatot ago, Mirror Magic, where I wrote:A concave mirror is "where a parallel beam of light becomes a convergent beam, whose rays intersect in the focus of the mirror." (Wiki)The second mystical action of further "focusing" is related to last shabbat's entry, Wisdom Casting Cloth, where I wrote:The square of the cloth symbolizes the Middle World, ha'Emtsa.The inner square (Midhe) is comprised of 7-7.2" lines and symbolizes focus or the powers of concentration, memory, recognition, and sensitivity to meaning.

Cleave Land
2008-01-01 20:23:00
?"? ???? ???"?Grael 24Among the many parts of a dream this morning, one scene stands out - I was traveling down and around the corner of a street named "Cleave"land. Off to the side of the road there was a huge field completely full of singing red birds. There were so many singing red birds that the songs and the birds themselves blurred into one sound and sight of indistinct red chaos, yet I concentrated (almost as if pulling myself inward together) to listen for a distinct message to come out from among them.I focused. Many of the red birds suddenly just disappeared as if lifted off the page of the "place" I was seeing. No longer was there a blur of song and redness. Though the field was still full of birds, now I could see individual birds, whereas before they had all blurred together. Most were still red birds, but I could now see that there were birds of other colors scattered among them as well. Now, there was even a particular black bird whose voice emerged from the group and...
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First Ogham Casting
2007-12-30 06:21:00
?"? ???? ???"?Grael 22Today, on my Hebrew birthday, I made my Wisdom Casting Cloth and cast my Ogham staves for the first time. The casting ritual was performed during the planetary hour of the sun. Briefly, the interpretive line is as follows:Keter-Malchut: transformation, memoryRight Pillar: wisdom, mastery, elationLeft Pillar: elation, purification, wholeness, communicationMiddle Pillar: communication, passion, transformationThat's it for now.

Emtsa
2007-12-29 04:09:00
My poem, Strength To Strength, originally published here on my musical website.simplyan ever forming question leading through itwinding deepdeep deep deepheight beyond the arms of the universespread between one and nothingthoughtbare, solitary, with truth yoked in the balancepivotalconstricting yet emergingcollapsing into naught center boundlike a rock, essential, neither light nor darkestablishing the faithful gate of wonderignoranceperplexing, bewildering, curious, unknown, unshackled, unshakableexistenceand the thrill of discoveringignorance

Two Near Hebron Murdered
2007-12-29 03:43:00
?" ???? ???"?Grael 21Two Israeli Hikers Murdered Near Hebron Two Israelis were shot and killed in an attack in the West Bank on Friday, police said.The two were near Hebron Mountain, between the settlements Telem and Aduran, west of Hebron when they were shot, according to police spokesman Micky Rosenfeld.According to Israel Radio, the two were hiking through the hills outside Hebron with another woman when they were approached by a jeep carrying several Palestinian gunmen, who opened fire on them. The woman fled and hid while the other two, who were armed, returned fire.In the exchanges of fire that ensued, the two managed to hit several of the gunmen before being gunned down themselves.Hat-tip to IRIS Blog.More related news:The Hebron Shooting Attacks - What Is And What Isn't Being Reported

True Will & The Enduring Seed Of Stillness
2007-12-29 02:10:00
?" ???? ???"?Grael 21Knowest thy will truly ...R. J. Stewart (who is quickly becoming one of my favorite authors), in Living Magical Arts, writes:The effect of [religious - my addition] magic is limited according to your own belief and understanding of reality; so rigid is this law that it may be stood upon its head by the experienced magician to prove that understanding of reality is only limited according to the effect of magic. What must be emphasized in this context is that we are dealing with the genuine or true beliefs of an individual or group; what we assume we believe, what we think is our understanding of reality, and what we actually do believe, are often radically different or even contradictory to one another. One of the effects of magical training is to fuse these two levels of belief and understanding into one balanced conceptual model ... a model that is open ended and without specific limits. During the early stages of magical development and training, in which the ...
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Sanctity Of Mind
2007-12-29 00:32:00
?" ???? ???"?Grael 21Initially, it was reported that the fatal wound Benazir Bhutto sustained was damage to her spinal cord. Today, Foxnews reports:Bhutto was killed Thursday when a suicide attacker shot at her and then blew himself up as she left a rally in Rawalpindi. Authorities initially said she died from bullet wounds, and a surgeon who treated her said she died from the impact of shrapnel on her skull.But Cheema said she was killed when she tried to duck back into the vehicle, and the shock waves from the blast smashed her head into a lever attached to the sunroof, fracturing her skull, he said.A colleague of mine also fractured her skull this week, Monday morning. While Bhutto died, apparently now from her fractured skull, my colleague did not and her prognosis is good today. Thank Goddess. Baruch dayyan emet. Blessed is the True Judge.Yet, I am left to wonder why the run of fractured feminine skulls in the cosmos before my eyes this week? Why am I one willed to see as oppos...
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Her Vision Of Tomorrow Never Came
2007-12-28 02:32:00
?"? ???? ???"?Grael 20Today's news of the assassination of former Pakistani Prime Minister Benazir Bhutto reminded me of a dream I had in March of this year about a strange woman trying to demoralize me by telling me that major world war would be ignited by Pakistan. I think that message and her vision of tomorrow bit the dust today.Repost from March 9, 2007The dream I had last night was a rather low level dream. Nevertheless, one character's presence in the dream was so "out of place" within the dream, as was the message in context of the content of the dream, that I am going to document what the strange woman reported to me within the dream.Her odd message to me was namely this:Major war is coming soon, maybe as soon as tomorrow. The war's formal initiation involves Pakistan in some way.That's it, although two other points to note about this strange woman oddly out of place in my dream:1. She eyed my father as she spoke to me in the presence of my mother in the dream also. Hmm...
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In The Middle & The Cord Of Individuality
2007-12-27 23:42:00
?"? ???? ???"?Grael 20Here is an interesting excerpt I read yesterday evening - Scottish magician R. J. Stewart (The Spirit Cord ) writes of the Cord of Individuality, the "middle cord" of life:During our lifetime, we are supported and enabled by a cord. This is, of course, the spinal cord without which nothing could happen in our manifest existence. While the cord of the womb gave sustenance before separation, the cord of the spine gives individuality and operational potential, and the practical ability to move in the individual's separate and manifest life. The Cord of Individuality manifests with the spinal cord as a central core. From there it manifests through the many associated cords and connections of the body that all link into the spinal cord from which they receive their complex instructions that enable life to function in time, space and movement. There is another aspect to this Cord of Individuality, which is transpersonal, and may arise over many lifetimes. We will ret...
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Pakistan In Chaos
2007-12-27 23:37:00
?"? ???? ???"?Grael 20Benazir Bhutto AssassinatedThursday, December 27, 2007RAWALPINDI, Pakistan ? Pakistan's paramilitary forces were on red alert Thursday following the assassination of opposition leader Benazir Bhutto.The former prime minister was murdered by an attacker who shot her in the neck and chest after a campaign rally and then blew himself up. Her death stoked new chaos across the nuclear-armed nation, an important U.S. ally in the war on terrorism.A doctor on the team that treated her said she had a bullet in the back of the neck that damaged her spinal cord before exiting from the side of her head. Another bullet pierced the back of her shoulder and came out through her chest.She was given open heart massage, but the main cause of death was damage to her spinal cord, he said on condition of anonymity because he was not authorized to speak to the media.Read full story at link above.Read more about the spinal cord as the middle cord of life here.More on the Bhutto as...
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Television & Serious Magical Work
2007-12-27 01:17:00
?"? ???? ???"?Grael 19I don't own a television and haven't for several years. I don't feel television is morally "wrong" - I do watch a few selected shows (Planet Earth is awesome) or movies on the televisions of others at times, but for myself, I don't own one. I don't watch it enough to make owning one worthwhile. I enjoy silence and have a real physical aversion to senseless noise.It is of little wonder to me that television is considered by many mystics to be the "enemy" of serious magical work. R. J. Stewart (The Spirit Cord) writes:If you are serious about your spiritual/magical work, television is your enemy.Real magic involves rectification and elevation of the imagination. Television , when not used judiciously, works against achieving this.
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Convergent Havdalah Consciousness
2007-12-23 04:42:00
?"? ???? ???"?Grael 15Earlier this evening I posted a few entries pertaining to the kabbalah of my new concave black skrying mirror, noting in one of the entries (Mirror Magic) that a concave mirror (as described by Wiki) is "where a parallel beam of light becomes a convergent beam, whose rays intersect in the focus of the mirror" and that the mirror rests upon a bed of letters symbolizing the concept of yovel (jubilee).The graphic collage I used to illustrate that entry is the left (first) image shown above. The right (second) image next to it was (later this evening after my entry was posted) shown on Foxnew's online frontpage (until they changed to a different image consisting of a row of power lines and headlights in a blizzard).
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Kabbalah Of My Magic Mirror
2007-12-23 01:35:00
?"? ???? ???"?Grael 15Motzi Shabbat YuleBrought together this Shabbat of Yule, the period of the winter solstice occurring this year on the day of shabbat - The Kabbalah Of My Magic Mirror .

Heritage Facts
2007-12-16 00:11:00
?' ???? ???"?Grael 8* I am the 6th great grandniece of American founding father and statesman Benjamin Franklin through my mother's father's mother's line. ** Classic American author William Faulkner is another distinguished member of my family tree on my mother's side. ** The Faulkner clan arrived in America (Maryland) via Wales 22 January 1665 on the ship Agreement, setting out from Bristol. Their passage was paid for with 300 pounds of tobacco. This family consisted of John Faulkner (son of William Faulkner "citizen & draper of London" and Elizabeth Filmer, daughter of Sir Edward Filmer & Dame Elizabeth Argall) and Elizabeth (daughter of Reginald Filmer & Jane Travis), and their children John, Thomas & Francis. The Faulkner British connection is through my mother's mother's father's line. Patriarch John Faulkner was born in Wales. He and Elizabeth were married in Wales. ** My direct ancestors from my maternal Faulkner family line fought in the American Rev...
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More Hate Than The Mayor Could Handle
2007-12-12 20:46:00
?' ???? ???"?Grael 4In follow up to an earlier post (Tale Of Two Displays) about the witches' pentacle display set up beside the nativity display on governmental property, Jason of The Wild Hunt Blog writes:It looks like a storm of criticism, and an investigation into a possible hate-crime were more heat than the defiant Mayor wanted to deal with. Mayor Carucci claims that the incident with the Pentacle was mere vandalism, but John and April Garlow, who erected the Pentacle, claim there were threats made against them.Read Jason's entire report at the link above.
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Circuit Of Initiation
2007-12-12 19:57:00
?' ???? ???"?Grael 4Elisheva's recent livejournal post on magical-mystical initiation energies (Power, Knowledge, Integration) prompted me to consider my own thoughts about the energy dynamics of mystical-magical initiation processes. This is what I think:I agree with the general concept that energy dynamics are part of any mystical-magical initiatory process, and that the "initiation energy" needs to be integrated and processed by the student-initiate, who is more likely than the teacher-initiator (who also must integrate and process the initiation energy) to not be able to handle as well as the more experienced teacher the newly released energy born of an initiatory process.For example, when I returned to Torah in 1996 and went to the mikveh, part of the ritual involved a release of energy possibly catalyzed through the blessing of the Kohen who "initiated" me. Nevertheless, I don't think initiation energies are simply transfers of energy from teacher to student.I think the rel...
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Tale Of Two Displays
2007-12-12 00:55:00
Yule Display Vandalized In OleanDec 11, 2007 08:09 AM CST(Olean, NY, December 11, 2007) - - Police in Olean are investigating the vandalism of a holiday display.Police say someone opposed to a Wiccan pentacle decided to express his or her opinion by running it down Monday night and then sped off into the night.Olean Mayor David Carucci says the vandalism happened around 10:15 last night."Someone has backed up over the curb and run over the pentacle," Carucci told News 4.Police, meanwhile, are treating it as a hate crime."We're going to be treating this as a hate crime," said Olean Police Chief Terry Schnell. "This has gone far too long, this is getting ridiculous."The pentacle stood only a few feet away from a nativity scene that sparked a public debate about the separation of church and state.Read full article at link above.Yule, the winter solstice observed by witches, is traditionally December 21-22.
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Essence Of Understanding
2007-12-10 03:32:00
?' ???? ???"?Grael 2Question - does the Dark Moon always fall on the fifth of the eight days of Chanukah? It did this year.Related entry: Secret Of Shalhevet
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The Truth About Bullies
2007-12-07 23:00:00
?"? ????? ???"?Shamash 29"It is true to say that in the end all bullies are, at heart, cowards in whatever context." Dion Fortune
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Apopsi Anti-Psi Deflective Filtering
2007-12-02 19:48:00
?"? ????? ???"?Shamash 24I've found a phrase which describes the phenomenon where news items seem to reflect in a similar manner dreams I've had immediately preceding the "news event" - the dream Peace Talks and the murder of Sean Taylor, for example. That phrase is apopsi anti-psi deflective filtering.Phaedra Bonewits in Real Energy writes regarding anti-psi talents and the specific anti-psi talents of filtering and deflection:Anti -psi is a categorical term for psi talents that operate primarily by affecting other psi talents. Several of these anti-psi talents seem to involve the generation of certain psi fields [1] to alter the content, directon, or power levels of other psychic energy fields. Catapsi is the generation of a psychic field of "static" in order to disrupt the data of other psychic energy fields. Similarly, splodging is a kind of psychic yelling meant to drown out competing data. Apopsi is the generation of a field into which other psi fields cannot enter, possibly ...
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Ehyeh & The Guardian Malchitzedek
2007-12-01 19:01:00
?"? ????? ???"?Shamash 23In follow-up to my Peace Talks entry on Monday, where I saw 4 of the 5 shots fired at me by a guard, the news report below emerges today about the murder of Sean Taylor which occurred on Monday. My birth surname is Taylor. The name "Sean" is similiar to the word "shin", where the 4-Shin of Binah "guards" the entrance to my musical website, Walking On Fire. Sean/shin - similiar, but not quite the same. ???? ???? ???Four Arrested In Taylor SlayingSaturday, December 1, 2007By Michael ChristieMIAMI (Reuters) - Tipped off by the public and armed with a confession, police in Florida arrested four young men on Friday for the murder of Sean Taylor, a star defensive player [#21] with the National Football League's Washington Redskins.Taylor, 24, who was the Redskins' first pick in the 2004 draft, was shot in the groin area during a home robbery on Monday, resulting in a severed femoral artery. He died the next day in hospital after losing massive amounts of blood.T...
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Witness To Clear Vision
2007-11-29 04:56:00
?'? ????? ???"?Shamash 21I ritually hand-magnetized my crystal ball this evening, with the waning gibbous moon 74% full during the planetary hours of the moon and Saturn. Following the magnetization ritual, I gazed into the sphere's depths expecting to see "cloudy" forms. Cloudy forms are not what I saw.In the soft candlelight, the candlelight and shadows came immediately together in such a way as to form the clear image of an old large wooden table (like one from the middle ages) with a steaming iron cauldron set in the middle of it. Behind both of them was a firelit hearth with a broomstick resting beside it. The formation was so clear and distinct - even the darkness of the "wood" and iron cauldron. The soothing energy of the experience tenderly embraced me, leaving me feeling deeply satisfied inside.Amazing.
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Electro-Magnetic Field Disturbances
2007-11-28 02:10:00
?'? ????? ???"?Shamash 20I have a "wind" chime in my magic room that operates on electromagnetism. It operates using an electric current and a magnet. Sometimes, even though the current is always on, the wind chime doesn't always work - the magnetic pendulum fails to be moved by the current sufficiently to strike the chimes.The chime has not been working for several days. Suddenly today, it is working just fine again. Right now I am listening the soothing peaceful sound of my chimes. This has occurred several times - it works, then it doesn't for a few days or weeks. Then, suddenly it works fine again.Whatever recently has been "in the air" adversely impacting the functional ability of my electromagnetic "wind" chime is no longer present.I welcome the sound of my chime's gentle music back into my magic room. I've missed it.What could be causing this phenomenon? Is it happening via cyclic influences on the electric current? What would cause the magnetic domains within the magnet...
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Kaf Ha'Yareich
2007-11-28 01:55:00
?'? ????? ???"?Shamash 20In follow up to my previous post, Peace Talks, where I disclosed that within a dream yesterday my head (kaf ?) was targeted and shot at by a factory gate guard, I found these tidbits regarding Yaakov's wrestling match with the "guard of Esau" as it pertains to the "remembrance thread of techelet", lashon kodesh and the meaning of the word "yerech":The posuk says that the guardian angel struck the ?kaf ha?yareich.?"Yerech" is Lashon Kodesh.Yerech is the place of conception (see also Rashi Bamidbar 5:20 D"H Es Yirecheich), Yerusha which is mainly from the father is expressed as the leg which is an extension of the body.Taking all this together, my dream is telling me of "the wrestling match" of my "husband" where the "guardian angel" of Esau struck at my head using the discarded weapon of Yishmael. Esau's angel sought to strike me through the place of conception of holy or unholy language (the difference between the two being good-willed or ill-willed). Had...

Peace Talks
2007-11-26 23:56:00
?'? ????? ???"?Shamash 19This morning, I dreamt.My "husband" and I were visiting an Arab family somewhere here in the U.S. My "husband" and I were Israeli-Americans in the dream. We were going on a recreational outing with the Arab man and his wife as two couples. To where, I didn't know. It was daytime. We had been invited into their home to wait as they settled their children to stay with older siblings while we went on our outing.We took the Arab couple's car. The two men were in the front seat and the man's wife and I sat in the back seat. We had to make a quick stop somewhere before we proceeded on to our recreational destination.The Arab man got out of the car at a place that looked like the entrance gate to an industrial factory. He spoke with one of the guards that occupied the booth at the entrance gate. He sold the guard his machine gun and got back inside the car.As we were driving away, the guard at the entrance booth shot toward the car. He was shooting at me. "It'...
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Poetic Rites Of A Jewitch
2007-11-25 23:40:00
י'ו בכסלו תשס"חShamash 18In addition to my musical website at geocities, I'm creating a new no-frills blog to contain the best of my poetic writings. The new blog is:AwendynPoetic Rites Of A Kabbalistic Jewitch
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